Miss Trust
Greenlighter
PS: Paxil caused me to have suicidal thoughts.
I know you are looking for a solution but if your business was doing well & you had a steady gf, would you be depressed? Probably not.......so your depression doesn't sound like a chemical imbalance, its more of the situation you are in that has brought on your depression.
Yes indeed but both of you guys in the last 2 posts havent offered another solution? See ive had this opinion for years but ive also stayed in the same misery of depression which only seems to get worse year after year. Sicne my 30th birthday all ive been thinking aobut most days is that im slowly dying and im no longer young and i jsut think about how im going to die or how long till my parents die and what my responsiblities are going to be when they get ill and start to die (they are in good health btw now no particular reaosn for me to be thinking that othe than my morbid outlook). my usual thoughts thru the day. i figure my responsibilities will only increase in time and i can barely do day to day things atm so gotta sort it out now.
The self medicating rout does have its plusses since you are the master of your destiny, the main drawback is being limited and prevented from trying most of the meds actually made for depression, im not messing with fucking research chemicals to try and sort this problem again, made that mistake many times already and ended up having mental breakdowns crying to my mom.so ruled that idea out. Kratom sounds great in terms of long history of use and relatively harmless except for the beast of possible addiction looming on one's shoulder. every turn fraught with danger.
at least with the plight of anti dpressants you have plenty of company of others taking it and we all know misery loves company. whereas when i dabbled with rcs someitmes i would get a chilling feeling in my mind of what if i fucked my brian up beyond repair id have no1 to relate to and id just be ttoally fucked with nowhere to turn as id be only one of the very few foolish/desperate enough to take such untested substances.