Do you really think that you will be able to hide such a HUGE and drastic thing from the man you love, who you want to be open and honest with? Any good relationship is based on trust and honesty. You are already planning on lying about it. If you are together long, the answer you already have planned out will not suffice. I suspect this will cause quite a bit of problems in your future that you are not really willing to look at yet.
Perhaps but the deed is done, I've already been with probably damn near 400 guys, at this point if it's going to be a problem then it's going to be a problem and whether I see 400 more or quit tomorrow is likely to have little difference if I one day drop the "yeh, i used to be a prostitute" bomb on someone.
But really, it's all speculation, maybe I wont even have to lie because maybe I'll hook up with a former client or maybe I'll decide I'd rather just be up front about what I'm doing and that anyone who would get indignant over my former career isnt worth dating anyways.
My first several years of drug abuse were so much fun. I was making tons of money, not working a 'real' job, and having the time of my life. By the end I was arrested several times, spent time in jail, lost everything, and ended up miserable.
Drug dealing makes one much more of a target for law enforcement then prostitution does.it also puts one in shady circles. I dont run with shady types. I clearly am a recreational drug user but my bi weekly psychedelic use is a more or less private thing that isnt going to put me in shady circles or make me a target for LEO's or shady types looking to steal my stash or my money
There are also very specific ways one gets busted in this business and they're easy to avoid. One lapse resulted in a few months probation but more importantly it was a valuable lesson. It would be impossible to get me to repeat that mistake. (As if the cops in atlanta even care about prostitution like cops in Nashville do). It seems to me that all the prostitutes going downhll stories almost always involve classes of drugs that I've no interest in that they blow all their money on, get busted selling, get busted in posession of...etc etc.
Like I said, you hear about the failures because the're failures. The chicks that do it quietly for a few years and then reintegrate back into normal life don't make good documentaries, but they are certainly out there. I can pretty much get another tech support/customer service job and build on it from there when i want. I do have marketable skills beyond being good in bed.
This is also taking a psychological toll on you as well, although you may not realize this yet. Despite your refusal to accept this, I am letting you know from years of study and many dealings in a casual as well as professional setting that you are doing a great deal of damage to your self-esteem and your life in general.
I can accept that perhaps this will be a mistake as far as normal life goes in the end but it certainly doesnt affect my self esteem nearly as much as other more "respectable" jobs have in the past. If anything it's proven to be a confidence builder and it's certainly built my social skills tremendously.
