Great to see you back Big Man!!! You were missed! I hope your doing well mate! Your a lucky man to have such a wonderful wife as cazamac, as you said she is one in a million! Top girl!
Bet you are delighted to be home!!!
I hope everyone on Bluelight is doing well!
I haven't been on here much over the last few weeks, I went on a bit of a mad one scoring over the xmas and new year. But I haven't used in the last two days so I'm feeling fairly awful now! Even though I'm taking my methadone I can still feel the gear leaving my body. UGH!!! 
There was good gear around the week coming up to xmas, then the gear was just ok for a few days over xmas, and then it went good again over the new year. So Mr. Ructions and I went on a mad one. I had two weeks off college and I was only working two days a week & Mr. Ructions had 10 days off work over xmas, so we did what we do best, scored and scored and scored!
We spent a fortune! Its always very expensive when two people are using together, but we are greedy bastards when it come to gear (aren't we all!!!
) We did buy weight once or twice, but the best quality gear was only been sold in small bags at €20 a bag! We used to be happy scoring six bags a day, three bags each is a grand amount. But lately we got into the habit of scoring 8 bags a day, 4 bags each is so much nicer! That extra bag is lovely at the end of the night! We were spending crazy money! So now the money has run out & I'm in debt with my rent and bills! Story of my life! When will I ever learn? My head is wrecked, but at least we've stopped scoring!
I got a four week script from my Doctor over the xmas, last week was my first week back and I failed my drugs test.
I told the Doctor the truth, I told him I'd been using heroin (but I didn't tell him how much!) He was ok about it. I'm due back in the Doctor next week. I go to the clinic once every 2 weeks to do drugs test and pick up methadone script. I think I'm gonna ask my Doctor if I can start going to the clinic weekly for drugs test, just for a few weeks. This is the only way that I'll be able to stop scoring coz I know the threat of loosing my methadone take away is the only thing that will stop me scoring! I'm going down a slippery slope again! I don't know how I was able to afford to use heroin daily before the drought??? Although I was working two jobs at the time, I worked in an office full time and in a shop part time, so I had extra cash. Now I'm only working part time coz I'm in college full time. A heroin habit is so bloody expensive! But if I could afford to go back on gear full time then I would, I'm so much happier when I'm taking heroin! I've so much more energy.
Oh and just to clarify the gear that I was scoring in South Dublin has improved a lot! BUT its still not as strong as pre-drought gear. There is still LOADS of bash about, I only know one bloke who was selling this good gear. The deals are tiny and the prices are high, also there were no discounts! Some days I bought as much as 12 bags and I had to pay the full price for all 12 bags. (Although most the time he gave me 13 bags for the price of 12 bags, BUT all the bags were under weight. So he was just splitting 12 bags up into 13 to make it LOOK good!)
Life as a heroin user is such a roller~coaster!!! Using! Not using! Using! Not using! WD'S!! Head wreck!!!
Bet you are delighted to be home!!! I hope everyone on Bluelight is doing well!
There was good gear around the week coming up to xmas, then the gear was just ok for a few days over xmas, and then it went good again over the new year. So Mr. Ructions and I went on a mad one. I had two weeks off college and I was only working two days a week & Mr. Ructions had 10 days off work over xmas, so we did what we do best, scored and scored and scored!
We spent a fortune! Its always very expensive when two people are using together, but we are greedy bastards when it come to gear (aren't we all!!!
I got a four week script from my Doctor over the xmas, last week was my first week back and I failed my drugs test.
Oh and just to clarify the gear that I was scoring in South Dublin has improved a lot! BUT its still not as strong as pre-drought gear. There is still LOADS of bash about, I only know one bloke who was selling this good gear. The deals are tiny and the prices are high, also there were no discounts! Some days I bought as much as 12 bags and I had to pay the full price for all 12 bags. (Although most the time he gave me 13 bags for the price of 12 bags, BUT all the bags were under weight. So he was just splitting 12 bags up into 13 to make it LOOK good!)
Life as a heroin user is such a roller~coaster!!! Using! Not using! Using! Not using! WD'S!! Head wreck!!!


. If i do decide to do it, i dont have any vit c powder/tablets, so will have to use lemon juice. Can only imagine how blissfully euphoric a syringe full of lemon juice up the arse must feel