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TDS Eating Disorders Megathread

^^ That's the irrationality of ED's.
So sorry to hear your friend is suffering with distorted body image. Is she getting any help with it? How long has it been going on?
 
I wanted to let you all know that I am getting better, with THERAPY, and diet/exercise, and relearning old habits.

It's hard but it CAN be done, even after 10 years. You are not bound to who you used to be, and can become the person you want yourself to be! My mom always belittled me for my weight growing up, (and then, for my ED) & then I though I HAD to be this thin person for people to like me... After all, it was my identity, right?

The thing is, I didn't want to answer the hard questions like, WHY AM I DOING THIS? REALLY?

Journaling has helped. And also accepting that I cannot change my parents.

I still face doubts and anxiety, but drawing up the courage to FACE my issues, instead of masking them with food, has truly given me a new perspective that YES I AM A WORTHWILE PERSON.
 
I completed my 12 steps...now I just need to find other people who want help locally.:(
 
Samael and beckylee, please keep posting here, I'd really like to know how u both keep doing. I hope things follow in the same general direction for u both <3

Personally, i'm really fucking struggling. but I only have 27 days til i'm me again. I hate having to fight ed again after all the ways I've changed and the amount of time it's been gone for.. it's the most frustrating, hurtful, angry and sad way to be. It SUCKS. but it's not forever, and it's not the only part of me anymore. so I can deal with it.
 
Just a bump so this thread isn't forgotten or missed!

Hope everyone reading and contributing's doin' ok <3
 
Don't be ashamed (easier said than done, I know). Be proud of yourself for having the clarity to acknowledge it. and find the power to change it. Do you have access to health care where you are at? You'll need professional help.
 
Yeah I'm okay.
Just okay though.
I have my semi-good days and I have my really bad days.

I find LSD is actually helping me in coming to terms with my body image. When I'm tripping I go back to my "residual self-image", i.e. I see in the mirror what I want to see, and I like it. I find myself saying "Hey, I am beautiful!"
Then after the trip is over, if I'm ever hating on myself and my body, I remind myself of what I thought/felt/said during the trip :)
So far, it's working.

So good to hear you guys are doing well <3 :)
 
I do not recommend LSD as any type of therapy.........but....I can see how it works that way;)
It opens you mind to be as pliable as a childs- it is like you have no limits or walls set up by society and you can almost rewire how you think. Anything is possible.
I hope you continue to move forward with accepting yourself for YOU. :)
 
ocean said:
I do not recommend LSD as any type of therapy
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Oh my word no! Sorry I should've stated something to that effect in my post. I certainly do not suggest anyone else try using LSD for therapeutic purposes (unless they are very very experienced with psychs and it is extremely well planned before embarking upon, if it's done at all)

I personally have a very close relationship with LSD, and have also used it to overcome my alcoholism for certain lengths of time. It works for me, but might not necessarily be of any worth to anyone else.

ocean said:
I hope you continue to move forward with accepting yourself for YOU. :)
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Thank you :) <3
 
I had an eating disorder for 6 years, and they were the most hellish years of my life: depression, SI, anorexia and later on bulimia then return to anorexia. During my second year at University I was forced to see a support team and gain a required amount of weight or withdraw-I tried, and withdrew regardless of any gain. It was too hard for me. I spent the next year drinking my way to bulimia. Later on, I met someone that I fell in love with who helped me find myself, or rediscover who I am. It's been a hell of a long road but I'm ED free, no longer depressed, and don't self harm. How did I recover? One day at a time. I began eating tiny little meals throughout the day. Decreasing my purges from what seemed like a million to maybe once a day. Then I'd go every other day (of course trying to NEVER purge). I relapsed and had to go to the ER for a bit for rehydration. I've been what I believe to be 'recovered' now for a year. Have I purged in the past year? Maybe once or twice. However, it's important to remember that it's not going to be perfect. You'll slip up but you need to forgive yourself and move on.

Give yourself time, ask for help if you'll accept it. Trust that things will get better, in time. Keep trying ! :)
 
I'm sorry but I find food repulsive. It feels like razors going down my throat. I drink lots liquids. I try to eat a little. It almost hurts? It's psychiatric, i know that for fact.
 
I feel the same way lately ^^ It's so sad, I've lost over 25 lbs in 2.5 months and it's not like I do it to be hot. My meds make me not hungry.... and I feel empty inside, whether I've eaten or not.. Blah. When I get my financial aid check by the fiftenth (so they say) I will buy some food or something. I've been freaking poor and stressed to hell the last month or so. I know maybe 10 lbs of the weight is birth control... but my body is so bony and gross compared to what im used to... all my clothes don't fit... cbear still tells me he thinks im beautiful but i kno he liked me more before... :(
 
^ :( That's sad to hear. What about your favorite foods? Do you have any favorites that you used to pig out with? Pizza? Chicken Wings? Doritos? Anything really that is a "guilty pleasure"? Is that stuff too not working for you these days? That is a lot of weight to drop in 10 weeks, especially for a thin person. Please try and take care of yourself. Even if you can get 1500 calories in each day, even if it's not fun, it will do a lot of good for you. Be strong. You CAN get back to where you were!
 
RedLeader said:
What about your favorite foods? Do you have any favorites that you used to pig out with? Pizza? Chicken Wings? Doritos? Anything really that is a "guilty pleasure"?
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^Personally, when I'm in bad body image state of mind I can't get far enough away from the fattening and sugary foods. They make me feel worse and definitely exacerbate the negativity.

I generally eat fruit, vegetables, fish and wholemeal or 'brown' breads, pastas and rices when I'm feeling a turn coming on. I find it's easier to eat healthy foods and convince yourself you're helping your body rather than pigging out and then wanting to regurgitate it later. :(
 
^ When you say "bad body image" do you mean feeling like you're overweight or all bones? Or something else? Definitely in the first case I would go with your suggestions, letting the healthy foods do the convincing and all. The latter is a bit more difficult IMO (and admittedly the only side I've ever been on), because eating a clean diet isn't necessarily going to add weight. I suggested the "pig out" foods because they would be high in carbs, which will give one a more plush and lively image. Which in turn might make one see more life in oneself when one looks in the mirror. Or simply just get you back into the idea of eating at all, as one would probably go for whatever tastes the best first, if really trying to eat at all. But then again, this is really not my area of expertise. I am still having to learn about this one for TDS.
 
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