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yeah, that one arm just looks like a twig sticking out there. Looks SO unnatural. Sick.
 
claire - makes me sad seeing those pics
reminds me of wat i looked like on meth (only im half-maori so im darkish - my skin was certainly that pale tho)
my lowest weight was 36kg, and im 5"2

and pillthrill - yes u r wayyyy too skinny in that photo
i hope uve gained weight since!
actually i hope uve all gained weight - maybe take PIs advice and seek professional help?
 
Mentally I know you are too thin in that pic PT, but in my heart I am still jelous as hell, look at where your hip bones sit, then look at your waist line, tiny tiny, jelous jelous, then again I am disordered, so... yeah... I know I "shouldn't" be jelous.

Anyway I'm eating a popsicle slusher cup right now, and that picture didn't make me throw it out and stop eating it, so it's not messing with me, don't worry PT.
 
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Perpetual Indulgence said:
Jeepers that cannot look or feel good. I am the same height and weigh 130-135 depending on the week. I think I might have been 89 lbs when I was 12.
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I haven't grown since I was thirteen, so my lowest weight has been 75 at this height and my highest weight 135 (was really buffed out/strong and looked like an actual gymnast, I miss it kind of). I've been going back and forth from the mid 90s to upper 90s/low 100s since I got out of treatment last (four or five months ago) but this drop is not good (my parents "cut me out" at 98 ). My goal weight range is 20 pounds above this... realistically though you're in the correct range :( My doctors have just given up on me mainintaing a normal weight so are giving me a semi-normal one.

Have had a not very good day, eating was shit and have been using all day... haven't eaten since last night. I keep trying to guilt myself into eating something since my mom dropped off a bunch of food that expires in the next 3-5 days and I don't want to waste her $, but just can't bring myself into the kitchen to do it. I'm failing. :(
 
drug_wench said:
claire - makes me sad seeing those pics
reminds me of wat i looked like on meth (only im half-maori so im darkish - my skin was certainly that pale tho)
my lowest weight was 36kg, and im 5"2

and pillthrill - yes u r wayyyy too skinny in that photo
i hope uve gained weight since!
actually i hope uve all gained weight - maybe take PIs advice and seek professional help?
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Wow, I am 5'3" and I've never been that thin. Thats bad.
I have gained maybe 10 or 15 pds. I'll post a couple more pics of me at a healthy weight (somehow, I drank a lot in Wales) and where I am now.
I don't think I need professional help, its not that bad.
But Mods, I think NSFW tabs need to be put on pics to avoid what Libby is going through, being constantly confronted with it. Please? I would hate to hurt or set anyone back in their recovery. But I would like an unbiased opinion on how I am now...
(I would myself, but I forget how..:( )


REMEMBER WE ARE VAULED BY WHO WE TRUELY ARE, NOT BY A NUMBER ON A SCALE!
 
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u look gd in the last 2 pics, to me, pillthrill
im not sure but i think only u can put NSFW tabs on wat u post but ill give it a go.....

EDIT: there u go
to 'NSFW' anything go to advanced and ull find theres a button (quite colourful) on the top right corner with 'NSFW" on it - just add that to the image :)
 
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Well perhaps seeing how much better i look with a LIL weight on will help.
If not I will have to do something as it is bothering me.
 
Yeah I used to freak out when the scale neared 130..not anymore. Muscle weighs more than fat. I can easily maintain this weight with working out 4-5 days a week, eating well, AND pot induced munchies.
 
drug_wench said:
u look gd in the last 2 pics, to me, pillthrill
im not sure but i think only u can put NSFW tabs on wat u post but ill give it a go.....

EDIT: there u go
to 'NSFW' anything go to advanced and ull find theres a button (quite colourful) on the top right corner with 'NSFW" on it - just add that to the image :)
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I hope you don't mind. I think I'm going to do it myself now that I know how to do it. To make it easier for them to be compared. However if anyone finds them to be "thinspiration" DO NOT LOOK AT THEM. I can't make you, but it is in your best interest and I actually do care.
I'm sorry for you inconvenience DW. Thank you for your help.
 
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I have re-started another bad habit that I first acquired about 5 years ago.
Chewing food when I get cravings, enough to savour the taste.
Then spitting it in the bin/napkin. This is better than not eating and then binging though, which just ultimately leads to tears.
 
Libby said:
I don't think looks gross, I'm jelous :(
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Libby, look at the upper arms. This is too skinny (no offense pillthrill).

I don't think you will take any offense to my saying that PT because I think you have said yourself you would like to gain some weight.
 
Pillthrill said:
Don't see how thin I am? Perhaps this is working against those who need to put the weight on. Rather than seeing it as negative effects, but sees it as "thinspiration".
Thats wrong.
Someone needs to help me decide what to do.
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I'll help you decide -- EAT! Ignore the societal influences that make women think "the thinner the better." Slender, athletic, and fit is good. Skeletal is unhealthy.
 
Pillthrill said:
I'm sorry for you inconvenience DW. Thank you for your help.
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thats no problem, pillthrill - as u now know i hardly had to go out of my way very much ;)
i think its admirable that u care so much for possible harm to other ppl

like fjones said, best idea for u, seeing as u technically dont really seem to hav an ED, ur just not hungry (like i say i hav this problem often too).....just eat

force urself to eat something for breakfast, even just some yoghurt and fruit
this will whet ur appetite for lunch as breakfast 'breaks ur fast'
then dinner shud b easy

if uve bn starving urself for a long time dont start straight in on the huge meals - or even try to
ur stomach will hav shrunk and will not b able to handle this
rather, build up slowly, week by week, on meal size, and eat very nutritious food
 
Fuck!

I just ate eight hundred calories and was thinking this is OK I'll be fine.... I haven't eaten in two days I need it....

I fucking hate whatever the fuck this boy is supposed to be to me, boyfriend he is definitely not. I am so angry right now I can't even fucking sit in this chair and type I want to fucking throw shit and scream. And I just threw up everything I managed to get myself to eat in the bathtub of all places... I have never done that before. Great a new eating disorder behavior to add to my life...

Fuck fuck I am so pissed, I can’t even process shit right now I just want to fucking drive and get high as shit or something, god I want to go back in time and get those calories out of my body as I know they’re still there…
 
^ *HUGS* sweetpea.. it IS OK, you WILL be fine, I know its hard to see. Boys suck lol, I wish I could help. I know no one couls reach me when I was in the grips though, so i probably can't reach you, but know that I care, and I would pull you out of that hole if I could.

Fjones said:
Libby, look at the upper arms. This is too skinny (no offense pillthrill).
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I know, I know.. lol
seriously, its not that I don't know, I can't explain it. *shrug*
 
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mia, check your PMs, and please know that you can always talk to me okay? I have been in your situation so many times so I know the emotions you're feeling. Please try to calm down though, and try not to direct those negative emotions inwards. You are beautiful and you deserve to be happy <3
 
*hugs mia*
hun, i wish i cud take some of the burden ur going thru off ur shoulders in some way
try to avoid getting high - the comedown will only make u feel worse about urself
and try to look at this as a one-off (the induced vomitting)
again i am no expert on EDs but uve done it once - that doesnt mean ur now a bulimic eh!
 
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