fightingthetoot
Bluelighter
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- Jan 26, 2015
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See no ones posted is a Saturday mind you, I post on here from my phone and it's like drug' d up version of what i think of things & its pretty bang on, few people saying am going OTT, but am a housing scheme lad, we take a lot of drugs, not like a pill once a month or something, drugs are a daily thing. Everythings about drugs, illegal & prescriptions!, & through it all i try & a hide gear habit/meth , don't think I can pull it off the "honestly a don't touch it" it's just noticeable to people who know me, there putting 2&2 together & getting the right number!!! average man wouldn't know if I a had my habits, & it's fuckin hard work! Something's gotta give. Am on 40ml of meth and am toppin that up most nights with a bag sniffed & av got the Xanax left but watching the bag get smaller is killing me & I didn't give a single one out ,people would of thought just his usual benzos, but av been holding back durning the day so I can't get moaned at, I know they moan for the right reasons!! But other people don't know just family because they know me without benzos & with, after like 2 they know and it causes so much fuckin grief , need out man!! So much & with my liesense shit they get every thing sorted or they are suppose to are , fuck ya about silly but if your late/miss one app it gets used on you at a later date, so be helping, from Monday am really going at them, need my own house, be on on them shitty homeless thing but could eat down there , or scatter flat aka just a house in a normal place , or more than likely a shithouse!! Till ya get offered a house , with my social work onside am looking at getting all the help am entiltled to what I can get, ya gottta, it's tough out, need to get my own gaff , so a can breathe a bit , I know they is concern but also jealous , my missus wants me to get my own house and stay off drugs, she knows I won't stay away from them, that is life, but see wants me with my own nice home & take it from there but would need to get a hold of my benzo use & i dont know I want too, just want my own gaff & chill from it , not having to put up with shit, yeah man I do take drugs but but not even that much , I have cars come to my street at all hours try and do that at least bait as possible and get away with it most of the times , am grown man because if i do get caught can cause me some shit at 2am in the morning.
Since Friday Tuesday/Wednesday i had stopped bursting a bag and sniffin that of my iPhone , laying there till it kicked in and then go to the chemist, am at 40ml and if i burst into a bag the first bag always give me that feeling taking over ya body , now I have skipped bursting into a bag in the morning , I take a 2mg Xanax bar, let that kick in & go to the chemist , depeneds what am doing that day when i get my meth i usually just wait for a boy who comes and see in the morning, and the odd time he can't, i taxi it , i changed chemist to be closer to home , cheaper in a taxi, am chewin' the bars like nowt & maybe just sniffin a bag about 10pm, get a gouch! Or just to chill to the max, no hassle,
Today - I woke up Early today and muncher half a bar, then went for my meth about half 11 this morning , came back, sat abour doin few bits n bobs, my mum gives abuse lol smoked the arse out of 3.5 of cheese & eat a good few bars, either ain't the 2mg there suppose to be or my benzo tolerence is sky high, think a bit of both because they do really really do taste bitter as fuck , at first I had i thought i got better bars because of taste of alprazolam of them, but heyho, only killer is watching the bag get smaller, thinking of me going down that route , or i know of people who do get shit from there could ask them to do me a favour, or go back to my bars, ad say the bars stronger, I think, but proper boxed branded diazepam , or even real msj i think ad rather have, the boy said it was a one off anyway, have been waiting to abour 10pm & burst a bag either gets me a nod or gets me talking shit to people, end up go out and about see what's about , that ain't my game , still get mine for being there though, av took like 7 zannies had a bag at 10pm, and might be nawty only tenner , and have to snort it , anyone who says you cant snort uk brown is talking bollocks mate, I od only by snort , what I can say some gear is better than others for sniffing , mines works but av had better for sniffing but shitter gear smoked, how can that be ? When they tell you cant snort it
Seeing as it's saturday , maybe wake up to sniffing one, just the one mind, just the feeling that comes over you & runs throug your body, like it gonna be ok, top that up with a few bars to make it last a bit loneger, plus i get Sunday take home that would be 80ml & since am just having one 10z .3 , Am a drugpig but not touching my own, so 80ml of meth , Xanax 2mg, at least half Q of green, hard tryin' to keep ya habits, even with green yeah can tick a man but that needs paidi to and unneasary hassle, pay cash i expect cash i dont do tick less i kno ya wel, ain't my game jumped over 40s of coke the spice boys, are all over that scrneband shitty mdma, saying that I had a bit few month ago & this Mandy was dyno, moved a kept for self research, and it wasn't bunk!!
Aww man. Am well fucked!! The 2/2mg bars kicked & took a risk , by getting a mirror we all chop drugs on, grabbed the knot in my teeth, love doing that!! Emptied bags on to the mirror and chopped the best I could in the extreme curanatances, got it ok sniffed and didn't feel the wash over me because av already had opiates today , sniffed and got chat , better see many txs, am chilled relaxed ready for sleep ain't going out in cold, sorrry for rambling , gouched out twice writing this, love for everyone in the struggle!!
Since Friday Tuesday/Wednesday i had stopped bursting a bag and sniffin that of my iPhone , laying there till it kicked in and then go to the chemist, am at 40ml and if i burst into a bag the first bag always give me that feeling taking over ya body , now I have skipped bursting into a bag in the morning , I take a 2mg Xanax bar, let that kick in & go to the chemist , depeneds what am doing that day when i get my meth i usually just wait for a boy who comes and see in the morning, and the odd time he can't, i taxi it , i changed chemist to be closer to home , cheaper in a taxi, am chewin' the bars like nowt & maybe just sniffin a bag about 10pm, get a gouch! Or just to chill to the max, no hassle,
Today - I woke up Early today and muncher half a bar, then went for my meth about half 11 this morning , came back, sat abour doin few bits n bobs, my mum gives abuse lol smoked the arse out of 3.5 of cheese & eat a good few bars, either ain't the 2mg there suppose to be or my benzo tolerence is sky high, think a bit of both because they do really really do taste bitter as fuck , at first I had i thought i got better bars because of taste of alprazolam of them, but heyho, only killer is watching the bag get smaller, thinking of me going down that route , or i know of people who do get shit from there could ask them to do me a favour, or go back to my bars, ad say the bars stronger, I think, but proper boxed branded diazepam , or even real msj i think ad rather have, the boy said it was a one off anyway, have been waiting to abour 10pm & burst a bag either gets me a nod or gets me talking shit to people, end up go out and about see what's about , that ain't my game , still get mine for being there though, av took like 7 zannies had a bag at 10pm, and might be nawty only tenner , and have to snort it , anyone who says you cant snort uk brown is talking bollocks mate, I od only by snort , what I can say some gear is better than others for sniffing , mines works but av had better for sniffing but shitter gear smoked, how can that be ? When they tell you cant snort it
Seeing as it's saturday , maybe wake up to sniffing one, just the one mind, just the feeling that comes over you & runs throug your body, like it gonna be ok, top that up with a few bars to make it last a bit loneger, plus i get Sunday take home that would be 80ml & since am just having one 10z .3 , Am a drugpig but not touching my own, so 80ml of meth , Xanax 2mg, at least half Q of green, hard tryin' to keep ya habits, even with green yeah can tick a man but that needs paidi to and unneasary hassle, pay cash i expect cash i dont do tick less i kno ya wel, ain't my game jumped over 40s of coke the spice boys, are all over that scrneband shitty mdma, saying that I had a bit few month ago & this Mandy was dyno, moved a kept for self research, and it wasn't bunk!!
Aww man. Am well fucked!! The 2/2mg bars kicked & took a risk , by getting a mirror we all chop drugs on, grabbed the knot in my teeth, love doing that!! Emptied bags on to the mirror and chopped the best I could in the extreme curanatances, got it ok sniffed and didn't feel the wash over me because av already had opiates today , sniffed and got chat , better see many txs, am chilled relaxed ready for sleep ain't going out in cold, sorrry for rambling , gouched out twice writing this, love for everyone in the struggle!!
