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EADD Benzo Discussion v.5

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opiaterock said:
That's shit Pagey, how long does your doc have you on Xanax?... He/She can't expect you to just go off them at the drop of a hat like that. Also tell them that SSRI's just don't agree with you - that's what I did I will go along with the doctor and tell them I am trying the SSRI and after a week or two I call him and tell him I can't take them anymore because I'm having nightmares and I feel more anxious than before - I always tell them that valium is the only thing that helps my anxiety & now I just get a 6 month repeat diazepam script twice a year. No questions asked anymore, just don't back down tell them you dont like SSRIS
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I've been on Xanax since early june, it was only going to be for a month originally and I've managed to convince him to keep prescribing them since but he's definitely going to stop soon....yeah I'll say what you said about the SSRIs and stuff but I'm afraid he'll just take me off the xanax and simply not put me on anything else if I do.
Thing is I really need the xanax to deal with the massive panic attacks I get from heroin PAWS but I haven't been able to tell him that cuz I don't want heroin addiction on my medical records so it's a bit delicate...but yeah. Just gonna have to keep asking for xanax and no SSRIs and cross my fingers I guess :\
 
Hey fellas...

Don't really come on here anymore as I've pretty much knocked the drugs on the head. My battle is still with booze and these evil fucking little pills we're currently talking about. Like has been said many times before on here less is actually more but try and tell me that.

I'll go on a week long booze binge and end up suffering from the craziest of anxiety which leads to more booze or some benzos to cut the binge short. I'm currently able to get hold of the kind of brands you get hold of on the NHS so alls well on that front. But by fuck do I have a hard time controlling my intake.

The usual I'll split a 30mg dose to do me a day ends up turning into me eating 48 10mg pill in 24/48 hours. I don't even get any sleep ffs. I sleep for a few hours and am up the rest of the night:(

Sounds funny but I've sort of got things under control somewhat. When using bathtub (MSJ/HK/Manos and all the EU brands) I'd do 50 10mg in a sitting... maybe another 50 a few days later with the following week being a total fucking blank. Fuck me I've got in some bad shit over the last few years.

The only feeling I get is the first 10-20mg in the morning (which makes sense really as I suppose thats how normal peps use them) That nice feeling left me many many moons ago. My only saving grace is that I've always broke up my usage so never got hardcore SEs but I totally put some of the blame of my worsening anxiety down to them. I'm a fucking nervous wreck though and can hardly string 2 sentences together. Going to the dentist or similar is a no no without some sort of benzo. Took 9 months of a sabbatical the last time to even handle a job interview.

I'm jealous as fuck reading some of the posts of posters getting blissed out on 1mg on Xanax:) But hey I had my fun.

Long story short.... If your not getting anything off of 30-40 Diaz or the equivalent.... call it a day or take a sabbatical. Odds are your receptors are gone.

Fuck I must sound like a right dreary cunt:)

Peace
 
Yeah I'm sort of similar to you, I just keep popping them until they're gone. I brought 100 pyrazolam, the plan was to just take them to calm my nerves if I was having a stressful day (I quit booze not long ago) this was 1 week ago, and I've got around 30 left. I have to say tho, you must have one hell of a tolerance! Are you planning to come off them eventualy?
 
large blue HK loose ones with 10 stamp best seen in briz atm.

white zeposte strips more plentiful but dire. Like 1-2mg each and gettin sold at ten a strip still!!!

msjs don't even desere to be called val in my experience

had proper NHS 10mg diaz recently Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm=D
 
dopemegently said:
The name of the blisters is Intas pharmaceuticals and their blue. I was surprised to get kosher blistered pills. (My pyraz were roughly pressed, in a snaplock bag. Good quality though).
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youre lucky to have got those. Ive hunted high and low for more, but all i can find is the dodgy generic ones. Well apart from oredring them direct from India. Not risking that tho as it could be seized by customs, not sure how likely that is to happen.

I suppose ive got nothing to complain about really as the fact that i couldnt easily get more proper etiz forced my hand into buying the pure powder. It may surprise some readers that i have been totally in control (apart from one relapse into a binge out) of my etizolam taper for the last 6 weeks. Despite having 1000 1mg doses in a tiny packet right infront of me and a half full box of intaas etilaam blister strips. Half of the powder is dissolved into mpg. The powder is the real thing and much better than any crummy tablets and about 1/3 of the price of the pills.

Tbh ive surprised myself. Im tapering off really slowly. Currently down to 7.5mg daily. That is down from using more than 2 strips a day for a while. And i was not even counting how much phenazepam i was using without even realising it was 4 times stronget than etizolam. I consider myself lucky to have got through that, the worst that happened was that i was behaving like a total cunt the whole time i was on it.
 
mydrugbuddy said:
Tbh ive surprised myself. Im tapering off really slowly. Currently down to 7.5mg daily. That is down from using more than 2 strips a day for a while. And i was not even counting how much phenazepam i was using without even realising it was 4 times stronget than etizolam. I consider myself lucky to have got through that, the worst that happened was that i was behaving like a total cunt the whole time i was on it.
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Cool, and suprising yes, are you feeling any withdrawal now that you are at 7.5mg p/day?and sleeping well?

I'm personally amazed how I am not deaded by one of my own actions during my benzo glory days, tis unlikely is what it is =D
 
mydrugbuddy said:
youre lucky to have got those. Ive hunted high and low for more, but all i can find is the dodgy generic ones. Well apart from oredring them direct from India. Not risking that tho as it could be seized by customs, not sure how likely that is to happen.
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There's a batch of Etizest doing the rounds. Adorable little pink things. Just as good as the Etilaam as far as I'm concerned.

mydrugbuddy said:
Tbh ive surprised myself. Im tapering off really slowly. Currently down to 7.5mg daily. That is down from using more than 2 strips a day for a while. And i was not even counting how much phenazepam i was using without even realising it was 4 times stronget than etizolam. I consider myself lucky to have got through that, the worst that happened was that i was behaving like a total cunt the whole time i was on it.
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You're making excellent progress, and you have yourself to thank for that.

lurching said:
I'm personally amazed how I am not deaded by one of my own actions during my benzo glory days, tis unlikely is what it is =D
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Tell me about it.

Aside from respiratory depression and the danger of stumbling, I'm surprised nobody tried to kill me just for behaving like a royal prick.
 
No w/d feelings at all so far. Im taking first generation anti histamines to help with sleep, rotating different ones to try to prevent building up a tolerance. It seems to be working so far. They also have an anxiolytic effect, so are proving very useful. I think the Mirtazapine is also helping.
 
mydrugbuddy said:
No w/d feelings at all so far. Im taking first generation anti histamines to help with sleep, rotating different ones to try to prevent building up a tolerance. It seems to be working so far. They also have an anxiolytic effect, so are proving very useful. I think the Mirtazapine is also helping.
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Sounds like you've got things in place. Glad the mirtazapine is doing its job too.

Don't know if you were aware, but promethazine was prescribed as an antipsychotic before more efficacious drugs became available. I do find it takes the edge off anxiety a little if I'm a little manic. Useful stuff.
 
Sammy G said:
There's a batch of Etizest doing the rounds. Adorable little pink things. Just as good as the Etilaam as far as I'm concerned.
You're making excellent progress, and you have yourself to thank for that.
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I think i have more than enough to complete my taper. 1g of powder is relatively very cheap compared to 1000 pills and will of course go a long long way, especially now my doses are reducing. Thanks for the encouragement, I believe that i can and will conquer benzos.

Yeah i have been reading up on wiki about the different anti histamines. hydroxyzine hydrochloride is said to be as good as some benzos as an anxiolytic. Its also non addictive (at least physically).

I'm still struggling to get Bupe under control though, but thats a different story.
 
mydrugbuddy said:
I'm still struggling to get Bupe under control though, but thats a different story.
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I'll say. :|

Cross that bridge when you come to it. It's not going to be a walk in the park, obviously. I'd aim to do it before the weather gets really cold and dark if at all possible, but the timetable is entirely up to you.
 
yeah the longer i leave it the harder it will be. Thanks for that suggestion, its a good incentive to get a move on. Ive already got the financial incentive as in i cant afford to keep the habit going as its so expensive. Ive only got 1 of those hugely tempting lovely big 8mg pills left. I think once thats gone and im just left with enough 2mg pills to complete a taper I'll stand a better chance. Buying 8mg pills was an expensive mistake, but were all i could get at the time.
 
I gave all of my sub stockpile away to somebody in need, save for a bare minimum to see me through. It was the only way I could do it, but then I was feeling very sorry for myself to begin with.
 
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