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drugs that messed you up mentally

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AznRaver said:
i never understood why people would try to escape one drug addiction by starting up a new drug with a new addiction. now you got 2 addictions instead of one. you wanna make that 3?
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You know, you're generally not thinking along those lines when it happens. I sort of did it. I was smoking pot fairly regulary for a long time, nothing problematic really. In fact, when I'm regulary smoking weed I'm actually a lot more stable in regards to my bipolar condition. Its when I stop smoking that bad things start to happen. I know that if I wait it out it stops. But anyway.. I started taking meth. I met a guy who am ample supplys and he basically just started feeding me the stuff so he could get me hooked. I eventually got off it, and coke as well by smoking myself off of it. I never really thought it through. I was really a huge mess back then.

But the topic. Speed and coke both just seemed to leave me in a sort of hypomanic state. The cravings sent my bulimia down a huge spiral. BUt long term, I don't really recognise any problems specifically related to stimulants. Except that I still crave them.

DXM caused huge problems. To look at my hands you'd have thought I'd had a stroke. My writing was that of someones with parkinsons. The thoughts in my head would be confused and often quite disconnected from reality. I became completely unable to concentrate or relax. It sent me into pschotic states, one of which involved a 1 month episode.

Long term, I'd say I'm pretty lucky. My memory and concentration isn't what it used to be, but its improving. Like, I've started reading books again. Something that used to be near impossible.
 
I was in that position once myself. I cared more about what went on in my own little world on dxm than the real world. I find now that its good to take long breaks inbetween higher plateau trips. It can really save your personallity too.
jscript said:
i came out with depression and anxiety after doing several mdma pills every weekend for months.

methamphetamine gave me really bad anxiety from using about a half gram every weekend for nearly a year.

doing too much dxm changed my outlook on life and took me on a strange little journey of caring less about the real world, and more about what went on in my head. it dissassociated me from the real world.

smoking weed made me go a little crazy, and made me a slave to the drug. i was more addicted to weed than i was for anything. i used to get so angry if i didnt smoke every night.

nicotine started to make my thoughts rush and everytime i had a smoke i felt a little crazy. it is one of the biggest causes of mental illness ive read.

now that ive stopped doing all of the above, i have come back down to earth and no longer experience any problems relating to my drug use. i still have some anxiety, but i had that to some extent before i took drugs, and i think in part, was self medicating for it.
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Meth was the worst for me. Coke and crack next, but smoking shards had the single most detrimental impact on my personality.

DXM actually helps me function. I take a LOT of DXM, and wonder sometimes if the fact that it aids function is evidence of an additional dopamine issue (I am a diagnosed schizophrenic).

I can see where too much DXM would be problematic for many. High dose DXM is more difficult to navigate than both shrooms and acid, even in large doses.
 
i had a really bad shroom trip and was depressed for a month or so after it and thought maybe if i did more shrooms it would help and it did and i had a really good trip.
 
All drugs mess me up mentally, just in a good way for the most part, thats one reason I use them. They make me feel in ways which some people wouldnt understand. When your withdrawling anyone is going to be more mentally unstable, so in that sense every drug has effected my mental state negatively. Although I will say this, I tried sniffing white out a few times back in high school, and I literally became suicidal and cut myself in front of hundreds of classmates while screaming and causing a scene. Since then I have read that inhaling solvents can do that, plus they are purely nothing but harmful to the human body when sniffed to get high so, its not hard to never touch that shit again.
 
MDMA had me me pretty messed up for the better part of 2 years. The problems it caused lasted almost as long after I stopped abusing it. I was convinced I was fucked for life. :\
 
meth sort of took me into this other objective, sex-obsessed world where i have a hard time getting out of even after months from the last dose.
sad. though it could also be due to the large amounts of weed i smoke recently.
its funny when i think back to the time i hated weed cuz of it numbing effects, that damned tollerance changed everything and now i need it to feel some "color" in my days.

real life (sober) sometimes feels like im living in a dream where someday i will wake out of,problem is, its not a dream but real fucking life. scary.
anyone ever experienced this phenomenon even after days of sobriety?
 
/navarone/ said:
real life (sober) sometimes feels like im living in a dream where someday i will wake out of,problem is, its not a dream but real fucking life. scary.
anyone ever experienced this phenomenon even after days of sobriety?
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i get this all the time mate.
 
^^^ Life is a dream in the mind of god

Weed is the drug that has given me the most problems, then probably salvia or acid
 
DXM really messed me up.

I spent about 9 months heavily using DXM (1000mg + on some nights). When I finally flushed my stash down the toilet one day after a particularly bad experience I started to notice the severe changes that had occurred in me.

I was unable to form complete coherent thoughts, my ability to spell common words had disappeared, and I had a very hard time socializing. I found myself constantly worrying if I was acting "normally" and would avoid going out in public alone.

It took me 3 years of being DXM free to see any improvements. It's been 7 years since I last took DXM and I am finally starting to feel "normal" again.
 
MDMA. I can't quite put my finger on it, but ever since I did my first ecstasy pill I was never quite the same. It's not like it changed my outlook on life or anything, I just felt like something toxic was happening in my head. I never really abused it to the extreme either, although I had little bouts where I'd do more than I should have. I have no idea why I kept on dropping pills, I guess I was in a haze at the time and didn't take much notice of what the shit was really doing to me. Though, I do admit, I had some good nights with it, I have very deep regrets about using it and I personally think it's an over-rated drug.

Marijuana. I have never come across any substance that is so psychologically addicting as cannabis (well for me anyways), and this is coming from a person that has tried a whole myriad of the 'harder' variety of substances, yes, including meth and Heroin. I have no idea why it had that psychological pull on me, maybe because I fooled myself into thinking it is a benign substance and an addiction to pot is relatively easy to manage. But, man, did that shit suck me in. Mind you, this is my own fault. No matter what activity I would do, I would have to smoke up before hand. I just kept on fooling myself into thinking, "mweh, it's only weed!", then before I knew it I was a paranoid mess of a person that couldn't get his shit sorted, couldn't even arrange a mere appointment and dreaded interacting with other physical forms of life.

I was self-medicating though, but was using the wrong substance.
 
I'm sorry, but why do you guys continue to use these things if they have messed you up that badly?

No drug has ever messed up me or "gave" me any mental disorders like anxieties or ticks or whatever. I've used coke, meth, lsd, various psychadelics, ketamine, and pretty much any drug you can name. I use to smoke bowl after bowl of straight headies and I just recently quit for probation. I don't have a problem with drugs, this is why I use. If you do have a problem I suggest you quit.
 
^It's called Psychological addiction, you should read up on it some time. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychological_addiction

Not only that, but when people are in a deep depression, or have other issues in their life, they tend to self-medicate or "mask" their current problems through drug abuse, and by the time they finally quit, they find out these drugs have magnified these issues. Especially if you have a mental illness of some sort and are taking drugs at the same time, your judgement tends to be a bit "cloudy".
 
i totally agree!^

smoking weed and bingeing almost everyday gave me massive social phobia and anxiety issues. Used to be the life of the party but i hide at home now...if only i hadnt done so much! still working through these issues 10 months later.

I am way less motivated and for a stint there was a tiny bit suicidal.
 
i am ready to go out a bit more now, can anyone recommend anything that i could take to help me out for a night?
 
Alcohol.. not so much the drug, but the dumb things it can make you do and the after-effects of those.
 
i've smoked crack a couple times. it's been over a year since i last did, but when i'm doing something like washing dishes or laying in bed just thinking before i fall to sleep and if i start thinking about that drug....i will physically shudder with fear or anxiety from how much i hate that drug. i think it has left me with some defininate mental, emotional types of effects/scars. Abuse and torture victoms report like symptoms, cept they normally break down emotionally if something triggers their memories. coke in any form has been that to me.. frickin hell man, y'know, when it's all gone. heh.
 
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