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drugs that messed you up mentally

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meth, meth, meth, meth, and meth. it has SERIOUSLY fucked with my memory. i have a bad habit of telling someone the same thing over and over b/c i have NO recollection of having that conversation. also, i feel like i speak dyslexic... i say things in reverse order and don't even hear myself getting the words backwards. at times i feel like my mouth can't keep up with my mind and i have a hard time putting simple thoughts into words. oh and stuttering is a bitch. for a while i thought i stuttered b/c i was geeked up (which was almost always for a bit under a year), but i've been 5 months clean and still do it. a friend that has been clean for 2 years has the exact same problems. it's so frusterating.
 
^^^Just something quick to my post above. Of all the drugs I've had addictions or problems with (theres a few!)Meth-amphetamine was the most damaging to my health and extremely detrimental to my mental stability/
 
Marijuana.

I hate it with a passion now! My life and everything used to be perfect before I started using it. I have to admit that the first year or so of Mj use was awesome, and I was better mentally. I guess I just sorta crashed at some point and got some real bad depression. Worse, I think I got a permanent anxiety problem. I never used to care about anything, but nowadays the smallest things will get me paranoid and land me into spirals of negative thinking. I'm not bashing marijuana or its use; I'm just saying its overhyped and overused by our population.

Hopefully now that I've quit I'll get back to my olderself:/
 
Re: But I still hate you

K'dOUTinAZ said:
Starting from age 10...12 long years of prescription stimulant and amphetamine use/abuse. Fried my brain maaaaaaaaan....

/me jumps in the same boat as K'dOUTinAZ... nothing and i mean NOTHING as fucked me as permernatly as dexamphetamine. right now my hand is slighty vibrating/shaking...

for illegal substances, weed. been smoking as long as my rx'd amp use. my long term memory is awesome but dont ask me what i had for dinner last night. still love it though...
 
C@NDYMAN said:
Mushrooms........ NEVER AGAIN!!!!

damn ive lived in hell for a big half year :(
(depressive-psychose)

I had a bad trip on shrooms and LSD within the same couple months, and i still feel slightly depressed and out of it. Life just seems like im viewing it from a different angle/viewpoint after the bad trip on LSD, and the subject that i was having a bad trip on during LSD, still comes to my mind many times a day :(
 
Cannabis for my paranoia and extreme physical anxiety which stopped me doing allot of things - MDMA, amphetamine, stress made me get some signs of psycosis so i was put on olanzapine ( which isnt really worth taking out the box ) and diazepam i also use shorter acting benzos like lorazepam to control my anxiety and guess what i still havent gave up the hash !
 
Yeah sorry about that MDMA made me lose my memory and now wen im in a conversation il have to ask the person what i was talking about ! ( Bonging heavily and use of other depressants/drugs probably had something to do with my memory loss too thou i guess ) But mainly MDMA !
 
This may sound stupid because most of you have long term problems from more dangerous drugs such as meth, coke, lsd, etc., but after a year of smoking weed regularily and taking a few doses of adderall, I've noticed a big increase of anxiety. I've had pretty bad anxiety and panic attacks ever since smoking weed. Also a strange thing is, that my eye sight has gotten really bad since smoking weed. My eyes use to be normal, I don't know if weed can ruin your eyesight... But as of late, I have noticed a decrease in anxiety attacks. That is probally because I barely smoke and I havn't done adderall ever since I've discovered the anxiety.
 
No. 1 WEED
I hate this stuff, no offence to anybody who does. Some of my best friends still do everyday. It just takes me to a bad place... too much negativity.

No. 2 MDMA
Too much of that and i was on an emotional rollercoaster, way up then way way way down, very nasty comedowns.

Never got into meth... tried it a few times but didnt really see the point, didnt do much for me...
 
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Steady marijuana use has my memory fucked, and a lazy(er) person.

I noticed no one replied with PCP, after a summer of smoking dippers i think it has left me dumber. i feel spacy and dont feel like im all there all the time..

also, i dont know what this is from, maybe a from a combination of all the drugs ive used, but only recently when i look at words on billboards, tv, anything, at a glance i will read it as a completely different word. idk its hard to explain i just feel as if my brains not doing its job to the fullest.

and when i wake up in the mornings for the first half hour or so im such a blank person, i feel as if i wake up, and ask myself "ok, now what" its very strange. lol
 
Speed- When alone I now sometimes sit in fear of hearing a whisper in my ear. Replica of amphetamine psycosis occurs occasionally when I am deprived of sleep
Inhaling Deoderant- Sometimes afraid of dark now and have to turn on the light in the next room before I turn off the one of the room I am currently in.
Cannabis- Made me socially retarded where I only feel comfortable talking to people when I'm stoned or they are also stoners/close friends...
 
Cannabis - Lost my motivation, put on weight, can barely breath when I wake up in the morning.

Speed - Made me believe that I needed speed to do anything that involved hard work. PARANIOA.

GBL - Never experienced a panic attack until I waxed 125ml in 4 days.
 
I too have social anxiety and paranoia from smoking massive amounts of weed and some meth.

I used to be so social and outgoing, but these days I just sit back and observe everyone. I know exactly what you mean kandii kisses. Sometimes when I'm talking, I just freeze, and the words I want to say just won't come out. It takes me a couple seconds, then I'll stutter and finally get them out. Argh pisses me off:X

Anyways...do you guys think this shit will go away with time? God I hope it does...I quit all hard drugs...bud is the last one and the hardest to lay down but I've been clean for a month...hopefully that will be a permenant change
 
i'm glad to see there are very few votes for opiates as they are my drug of choice. i would venture a guess that any drug used in excess will cause cognitive and emotional problems. for me, i would have to vote for ambien, which i had a prescription for for three years...it just 'felt' like my memory was getting worse although my school performance was good throughout.
 
Cannabis - fuckin worst thing for your fuckin lungs, christ people are always "YO MAN WEED AINT BAD FOR THE LUNGS" but LET ME TELL YOU when you smoke a fuckin joint and then cough up a tbsp of lung butter, THATS NOT SOMETHING HEALTHY FOR UR LUNGS. I can smoke a pack of cigarettes a day and I wouldnt cough up a single thing, but a single puff of weed and up comes shitloads of disgusting flem caked brown with resin

PCP - Without a doubt the hugest mentality change ever. I havnt used in like over a month now, but I still have major ego effects leftover, I fantasise of murdering people far more often than before, ive become far more aggressive and violent towards anyone who gives me any reason to act as such, I cant stop getting random hardons which pop up seemingly out of nowhere and refuse to go away for a good half hour, this happens 2-3x a day ever since I smoked that shit. Im also less afraid to die now than I was before using, less afraid of jail, less afraid of police, less afraid of rivals, less afraid of anything and everything.

Interesting to also note, my neighbor who is over 50 years old smoked PCP with me as well, and for up to 7 days after a single dosage he no longer needed his glasses to read, he claims the PCP 'focus' his eyes properly and that he can read things without aid like he hasnt been able to do in over a decade. He said it lasted about a week after a single dose, then his vision progressively returned to its normal, shitty state. Using what he said, I decided to try a little experiment and smoked alot of PCP, then I stood as absolutely close to a mirror as possible to the point where id be too close to the object to focus my eyes on it, normally.. only, I WAS ABLE TO FOCUS FLAWLESSLY NO MATTER HOW CLOSE I GOT, I could read text crystal-clearly on a book even when my nose was pressed right against the damn page. Cant do that normally.

Theres also claims made that a single dose of PCP can releive crippling depression for as long as 2 weeks straight... a single dose!
 
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