No recreational drugs except social drinking for 2 months minimum
Right, after todays events I am going to go on a sabbatical for at least 2 months then see how it goes.
Ended up flaking out on work today and worried about my possible mental and physical state for tomorrow at work because of a big 24 hour buphedrone binge. Was not wise to do but you know how it is when you have managed to convince yourself that there will be no problems arising from this small one dose of a drug, not considering that the drug is a stimulant and I had work the next morning, also not considering that when anyone convinces themself that they are only going to do one dose and they succeed, they either only have one dose on them or they have incredibly good self control.
Back to talking about the kid of sabbatical I am going to be going on, Will be giving up all recreational drugs for an initial 2 months with the exception of alcohol but only during social occasions, no drinking at home. I really need to do this because I can't afford any more screw ups like the one that happend over last night and today. Never missing work for drugs again. I think that taking a break from all recreational drugs will give me the time to get involved in other things too, like swimming at the gym and give me a break from drugs too, as I have learned from my one 2CI adventure and my one M1 adventure and now this bupedrone one. I don't feel at home anymore so there is never the right set and setting for any of these drugs, granted buphedrone that is not really important. But I am not in the right place, either in my mind or body to be taking psychs, or binge potential stims right now.
Is going to make the sabbatical a lot harder but ultimately more rewarding actually having the drugs here in my possession but not being allowed to use them, I will lock them away in one of my many safes, of course I know the combination, but in a safe, out of sight, ther wil be two small obstacles to them where I can reconsider my decision to quit the sabbaticle. Hope I can make the 2 months. Will be hard.