now i know why everyone in my family does it. The carefree feeling
It feels so good not giving a shit about the stuff that i wanna kill myself over. It doesnt feel good that i always have the awareness of what a substance is doin to me so i know this feeling wont last. Atleast untill i have a beer tomorrow morning. Then ill be A Ok
Someone told me the other day that they would rather me be a tweaker then be an alcoholic. But drinkin is just so much easier. fml
