theartofwar
Bluelighter
I've noticed that no matter what state I am in , I am always aggressive while rapid cycling. Do you guys have an emotion that seems to always be the dominant trait ?
I know the feeling. Also have had aggressive sexual rapid cycling (wtf? lol).
^+1Yep. I'm extremely irritable at the moment. Apparently mania manifesting as irritability and agitation instead of euphoria becomes more common once you hit middle age. There's no "upside" to my hypomania at the moment and that's a very different experience for me. It's definitely not an enjoyable ride at the moment and while I toy with the idea of stimulants, I recognise that they'd probably only amplify the already negative.
i remember the first day i really believed i could deal w/ this swingin' up and down.yeh, i was on over a gram of lithium, 400mg serequel, 800mg depakote first cocktail, since then been on like 20 other drugs. fuck em ust make my body feel like shit and dont do anything anyway. pointless. typical.