i found one thing that is quite cool when doing ecstasy alone is playing computers games. though not all games can be played when on ecstasy.
Last New Years, i had no party invites, so i figured i would get a half a dozen pills and just stay home and play Half Life 2. I had the game for a little while but couldn't really get into it.
I set up my computer on the floor, i got beanbags, pillows, drinks and droppen my first pill about 8pm. Then got stuck into Half Life, the six pills lasted me about 12hours. and i played for that entire time, i found that with the ecstasy, it pretty much put me inside the game. i had blocked out everything around me and it felt like the game was almost real.
you know when you wake up from some dreams and they feel so real that for the next few days, that is all you can think about. and you feel a little spacey. that is exactly how i felt after this experience, for the next week, i had Half Life burned into my brain, it was an awesome sensation.
Sure, to some people it might sound strange that a game could affect me so much, but it did. It was great, i guess that is why i love doing pills at home alone now. You just need to know how to channel the "i want to talk someone" feeling into doing something else.
Oh, for anyone who loves Half Life 2, i did finish it that night. I think i played better while i was toasted than when i am straight.