They just think it's alright. Because they are entitled. And you will never be. And they have a whole story to tell you why.
I don't want to hear it. I don't care. It IS fake.
But your shit doesn't count because they don't hear a word that you say. They tell you anything and don't give a shit what you say or
feel. It just doesn't matter. They are too important. And it doesn't matter what you say. It's all about them.
Then they don't understand why you don't want anything to do with them. And won't give up until I validate them. And I say fuck that.
Or maybe that's what it is. I'm supposed to fuck someone and they they think it's gonna be their game until the day I DIE.
And then say they Loved me and their heart is broken. I don't have fuckin patients for that bomb anymore. It is. It's everywhere.
And also clapping cheeks for food warmth and shelter. I'm not fuckin sheltering fuckin no one. I CAN'T. I have my own shit going on right now. But I shouldn't have to
explain myself. Someone who will always and won't understand NO I don't want to hear about it and be around it. Unless I want to. Am I so unimportant that I have to
be vulnerable to their abuse and their impulsive statements over and over and over. Yes do take others feeling in consideration before you beg whimper and whine for empathy and that game type of speaking too. Am I really that stupid or have to play that game again and
again
because somebody wants something that I can't give them. Because it's a game to them and the environment that is all that they know. Because it's something to do and they don't have anything else. It's all my own sick fault too because I don't have it in me anymore to get up and get on with the rest of my life or at least do what I have to instead of playing chase all day because I have no other option now. And I have to get the fuck out of here so they can be able to keep winning and whining. It's okay to whine appropriately but don't use it to manipulate me. I'm not falling for it and I never did. Why can't anyone see that. The food everyone They fool everyone around. And know
that they can speak whatever their impulse is or what their impulse feels like at the time. Yeah do think before you speak or Prey on someone all of
the time. Hypothetically. I'm NOT PREY anymore
and I'm not gonna do it !!! EVER. Gawwwwd. Having their own wife ain't even good enough. For some reason. They have to fuck everyone around. Nothing nothing will ever be good enough ever. They live to win and get their way and they will tell you anything at anytime. Bottom line. And the don't think there will be any consequences.
Well there won't be if you don't have to be around them. Power. Get rid of someone. And then play the part that they themselves did and can never say no wrong. Ever. But it's more fun to say it than it's not. Because it's Dope. Constant dope all day long with something because it's always not enough not enough not enough. They believe their own lies and I get the crossfire ... all the time.
Now this is what it looks like when dumb shit must be said. Didn't we just learn already. No Never. Sorry too. But I'm trying hard not to be around it anymore either.
I'm an addict. So it gives someone the entitlement to fuck me because they look bored. There is too much in life to do use the excuse of being bored.
I'm trying hard to get the fuck up and I believe that eventually I can. Because I have to. Doesn't this feel ridiculous right now though. I hate when I have to do all of this because someone wants at me so bad .... so yeah they can win and look like the bl hero again and again.
Now I got all this stupid shit on me again when I know I should just leave. But I get sicker everyday. It's creepy scary. But what's the worse that can happen to me. I won't be alive anymore. It's personal you know. Some animals just like to run of and die alone in their own fucking Peac.e RRRRRR uggg.