This is from Wednesday but I wrote it up after it happened so it was fresh in my mind what happened.
Somehow they have infiltrated my electronics (messages and phone calls) which was evident by today with a hairdressing appointment I had. I randomly called a salon last week to ask if an apprentice could cut my hair to practice on (for no charge as I am broke). I saw the suggestion somewhere on the www and then phoned somewhere and coincidentally the first place I phoned had exactly what I wanted in a week's time! This is the first time I have ever done this though I have had haircuts at the local TAFE technical college where they do cheap services.
So when I get to the appointment there is a security guard manning the entrance as I get there (not even 9am as that was the appointment time). I saw another on the way to the salon stationed somewhere where they could easily see my path.
I get to the salon which is in the back of a hairdressing supplies shop (priceattack) and it's still closed as it's not 9am yet but I could see through the windows to the salon part at the back and several staff were sitting around and having a meeting, looking at notes, etc.
When they open and I eventually got in it started with the "mean girl" looks (as I call them) between the supervisor and apprentice. What are they? Smirks and looks at each other like they are about to to absolutely lose it and laugh hysterically and trying to hide it. I now call this the humiliation ritual. It's done to try to push the target to act out in a way that makes them look crazy. When I showed a picture on my phone of what I wanted she acted hostile and antagonistic about why that style wouldn't suit me and acted like I was crazy for wanting it even though I know my hair type and what suits it and it wasn't unsuitable. If the apprentice was unable to do that cut as it was beyond her skill level I would have accepted that (of course) and just asked for a trim but it was put back and framed as though I was ridiculous and it needed heavy styling to make it look the way it was in the picture. In the end I could see something was up and just asked for a trim.
She asked weirdly why I wanted no fringe and said something like oh is this for your work that you want no fringe? I just said no I am not working and have chronic illness and left it at that.
The cut was done and I maintained my composure though the looks and smirks kept happening. Also the apprentice girl was full-on staring me down in a bid to make me feel uncomfortable. I'm not even a big talk but if I said anything it was half listened to and then they zoned out and were interrupted. It was a very weird vibe. As I left I saw security guards on my exit as though they were almost escorting me from the building.
As soon as I pulled into the main road to leave a police vehicle went straight past me as though it was waiting. It just occurred to me that the reason they were so close is that they were anticipating a "scene" if I had reacted. Lucky for me (lol) I have been bullied my whole life so know how to zone out when it occurs.
In contrast my last cut before this was in January at a random salon one Saturday morning when I just walked in off the street. The experience between these were like night and day. At this other appointment in January they were luckily able to do the hair then and there and they treated me normally and professionally.
Honestly, it was not worth the free cut to go through that and next time I will either grow it out and cut it myself or go to a random salon when I want a cut as I know they can't organise their humiliation rituals then.
Thank you for reading. PLEASE let me know if this makes sense. Also PLEASE trust that it's not the medication giving me psychosis or whatever and I'm imagining this as opioids aren't even known for that effect. If I was smoking crack or meth or whatever I would agree with you.
Hey Anonymouse77, for what it's worth I'm a longtime reader who has been thinking about registering an account recently and reading your posts about your experience inspired me to join and reply to you.
I empathize with you and feel bad for you as I read your experiences. What you write does make some sense but maybe not in the way you want. Based on your descriptions and the way I've seen you communicate with the people on this forum, it is very possible that you are accurately perceiving some of these weird behaviors in other people who make faces and act differently around you, and expect you to make a scene. And the simple truth there would be because you are acting out of the ordinary.
For example, a drunk person (I'm not saying you're acting drunk or intoxicated, but just as an example of this phenomenon) will often not realize how drunk they are acting. But everyone around them sees it and rolls their eyes and expects a scene. The others can see that the drunk person thinks nobody knows they are drunk, but to everyone else it is obvious.
There are two basic possibilities, either you are perceiving some of these behaviors in others accurately or you are not. If you are not, then anxiety and mental health issues are causing you to misperceive what is not there, although to your mind that seems impossible. And if you are perceiving it accurately, then it might be because of the way you are behaving, which like with the drunk example is obvious to others but hidden to you. I don't just make this assumption based on your stories, but also on the way I see you interacting with people on this forum. Pretty much everyone is telling you the same advice: try to ignore or avoid focusing on the behavior of others, and just worry about what you can do that is healthy for you. But you seem to consistently ignore this advice and just keep on focusing on how other people are acting. To me, and I assume almost everyone else, this is a recipe for your bad experiences to continue.
Another issue I face in your stories is that they convey that many unrelated people are in on this plot to harass or humiliate you. Public servants, doctors, regular workers, etc, and in many different environments. And why? Because you use legally prescribed opiates. It makes no sense that this vast conspiracy would exist to humiliate you for your medication. If so many powers wished it, they could simply discontinue your medication. It would be no less illegal than all these workers being instructed to conspire against you.
Also, whether you are using legal or illegal drugs, for you or anyone else that is not important enough to warrant all these surveillance and harassment efforts. It seems unhealthy for you to believe that your drug usage is so important that a vast array of people who don't even know you dedicate so much time and effort to subtly harass or humiliate you.
None of it makes any sense to be honest with you. And as you noted yourself, even on a long-standing and official forum dedicated to drugs, other drug users and people who have experienced mental health challenges consistently reply to you that it seems like you blowing the situation out of proportion. And even if not, your only meaningful response is to ignore and let it go, since their harassment is subtle and you could just ignore it and focus on doing what is healthy for you.
Especially since you're saying you don't want social interactions. Then why care how they act? You seem to be giving it a lot of power. I too have had and have social challenges with people, and as long as they do not outright assault me or steal my possessions, I just ignore them and focus on doing what is right for me. I hope you find a way to do that for you. But historically, you may thank me for this reply and then reiterate that your perceptions are correct and continue to agonize about the behavior of others, and dissect their behavior in some other scenario. I hope you find peace within yourself, because these other people won't give it to you.
P.S. I just want to affirm that I am not denying some of your past experiences where you were harassed by family or people who knew you. I am not denying that social harassment exists. I have experienced it myself throughout my life. I am just finding it difficult to believe that you are being harassed by many people who hardly know you (and have no reason to conspire against you) just because you are prescribed opiates or otherwise use drugs.
