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Do you still have a conscience?

i still have a conscience, i just think its damaged and different. i dont think twice about lying to people anymore. which is ridicolous. when i do things that i know will hurt people, it doesnt bother me as much as i used too. sometiems i think that lying is better than the truth so i just lie. sometimes i lie so much that i dont even do it on purpose anymore. i wish i could just stop, but fuck i dont know.
 
Heh....I wish I could lie more often

It pisses me off hardcore when people steal and shit...Like there should be a certain level of trust between EVERYBODY where one can realise that someone has worked hard to get the certain something something and not just take it.

It's horrible....People make me depressed.
 
When I was still using, I did plenty of things that were far from moral and/or ethical. When feelings of guilt came to the forfront of my mind, I was only able to push them away by more use... Now that I am clean, I am sometimes bombarded by these feelings--but I can understand that the only way to make good on them, is to change my behaviour now and in the future.
 
I have no remorse for anything.

Quite honestly, i totally get what the dude was sayin in the origonal post of this thread. I after I started doin drugs, I stopped careing about alot of shit. I'd steel from wal-mart, fuck them. I'd call my mom a bitch and lie through my teeth to my friends, hey, fuck them too.

Since I've been clean it's gotten a little better. I don't steel anymore (cuz It's not worth gettin caught), I've patched things up with my parents and I do my best to get along with them, and I've rebuilt alot of the friendships that I fucked up.

BUT.

There's still litte things. I can't cry over anything, cuz nothing really effects me anymore... I could loose my closest friend or a realative tomorrow and it would just be another day. I could take off for some far off state again and not look back, I could rip sumone off, and yes, i could prolly still lie and cheat and steel if I got the motivation. "No remorse" is my motto. I don't like to hurt people, but at tha same time I just dont give a fuck.

Im not saying that I'm proud of the person ive become, but thats just the facts... my conscience is extreamy faded and threadbare... along with my morals and emotions... I feel like I have a half-stone heart and an empty soul.
 
cosmicpoo said:
morality is but a social control mechanism.

there is no good, there is no evil...only cause & effect.

if your stealing b/c you need to, then thats cool, keep it up till something easier comes along. If your doing this shit for the hell of it, then thats kinda silly, but to each his own.

methinks you do indeed have a conscience, b/c someone who didn't would need to make a post like this asking for acceptance from his peers...your insecure dude.
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Hmm, Nitsche? I have to agree...

Also mind yourself, you are an animal after all. Karma still works though.
 
^do you think that is cuz of the meth, your age, or just you?

At 17 i didnt have much of one, i developed it big time at about 22. From then on i have always thought of others. i think most ppl develop one, even if its to an extent a little phoney. Most ppl perhaps care mainly for themselves first (or their kids), then their family. Some may venture further to include others. Its a case of do as you would be done by. You want others to treat u ok, so you do similar. Pretty lame, but in essence i think thats what it boils down to with most folks.

As for the belief in Nietzsche - what a sad lonely existance.
 
when i was 6 i stole bubblegum cos my parents said i couldnt buy any cos its bad for ur teeth,i didnt know any better.havent stolen anything since then except and ashtray at work which i dropped from the 4th floor by accident lol.i know stealing money or valuable items is wrong ,as is shop lifthing,but i dont see anything wrong with taking chalk from school or stationary from work.Is my values systems wrong?
 
my conscience comes in monthly waves (that's usually when my body is starting to say "No... no more"), the wave consisting of a break from ye ol' party, a healthy smoke (usually sends my mind into anti Class A mode, good for breaks) and finally I freak about my diet..... only happens 12 times a year though, keeps me on my toes and up to standard

Apart form the above (breaks) I'm usually high again before a can fully comedown, however I'm approaching the first weekend of a month break (from pills and mdma anyway), hopefully going to re-kindle the old flame <--- that's as far as my conscience goes nowadays
 
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