do opiates change brain chemistry??
YES they do and im living proof..i started out skinpopping nubain, did it straight for 2 years, then found oxycontin, snorting it, maximum amount was around 80-90 mgs a day..i stayed on that for a few years, then my source ran dry so i had to get clean, i toughed it out and i stayed clean for around 3 months...then i found heroin, started snorting it but quickly went to Iv and i stayed shooting it for a few years..i was up to shooting 2 grams a day, but i went broke so i had no choice, had to go on methadone..the highest dose of meth i was on was 60 mgs, i didnt want to go any higher..i stayed on the program for 2 years and then detoxed...it took me awhile to feel right from that, not so much the physical sickness, but the mental blankness, apathy really hit me hard...here i am, its been 3-4 years since i got off methadone and i am drug free, so do i feel normal like i used to before i started using drugs??the short answer is HELL NO...i dont seem to have the ability to enjoy the small things in life, like walking the dogs, reading a book, just chilling out on the porch etc etc...it feels more like im acting it out, pretending im enjoying those things when im really not...im not as energetic and motivated as i once was, and the biggest problem i have faced since getting clean is BOREDOM..im not talking about sitting in the house bored because you arent doing anything, im talking about being bored when you are 100% busy, a heavy feeling of dullness....like nothing really gets my juices flowing, even hot women and lots of money or going to a buddies fight, nothing really works me up anymore...thats the strane thing because now, i have been clean for 3-4 years but im thinking about going back on maintenance, subuxone maintenance this time because i just dont feel right..heres the kicker with me though, i havent had a craving in years, i simply dont crave opiates, i just dont feel normal without them...so yes opiates change brain chemistry without a doubt...
also, i can definitely side with people that think alcohol lost its touch since they started using opiates..i remember years back before opiates, i loved to drink(only a weekend warrior though) and i would get a ton of euphoria from it, i would feel ontop of the world, so full of energy, enthusiastic, life of the party but after taking opiates, it seemed that all alcohol did anymore was just NUMB me...made me feel like crap to be honest......