king_kremit
Ex-Bluelighter
My very first ayahuasca trip
Well it has been a couple months since my first dmt experience. What an intense first one it was!!! Input would be appreciated since I have no clue as to whether this trip was er............ Normal ; for lack of better words. I've done it multiple times ever since, but that first time was ............................................................................................................... Insane, completely insane.
If a sitter had been there I would have turned up in a hospital somewhere I swear. Here goes.....................
It was the night of the eve of my birthday. I had it. I was sooooooooo stoked that I had it. My mind could not stop thinking about it during work. Well I told my Girl that I had gotten it and I would be tripping alone later at 11:45 , so I would ring in my 23rd birthday inside dmt's realm.
19 Grams mimosa H. 2 Grams Syrian Rue (apparently i'm a moron)
I prepared it , drank it , and ran out of the apartment in a hurry to get to my old apartment (I still have the key its uninhabited) I drove , which was about a 1 1/2 minute drive literally. But I could not make it 1 1/2 minutes in a car (which was not mine!!!!!!!!!) to puke! Even though the recipes said 15 minutes to puke. WTF! Anyway I parked 100 feet from my other apartment with a puke filled car , ran up 3 flights of stairs; opened the door; and deadlocked the door as I collapsed literally 2 seconds later with VERY little body control. Lucky yes , I know. Well what had seemed like about hmmmm 5 hours I really wanted to take off my shoes but couldn't!! Surprise surprise. I tried like a thousand times just to take off my jacket and shoes but I just couldn't. What happens next makes me think it was a difficult trip.
Amidst the time travel slash distortion I had thought that I had made A LOT of noise fighting the trip. So naturally ( i thought) neighbors had called paramedics to get me so I wouldn't die. I knew I wouldn't die , but I freaked at the thought that my squells and pathetic noises for mercy alerted unknowing people to call 911. So at this place and time I could not recognize the room, my arm , the clock , who i was!!! But with that thought in my brain I thought paramedics were there! I was too fucked up to see them or talk much. Heh...... so I layed in a fetal position occasionally whimpering a faint hello. As I progressed out of that crazy catatonic stage I was reborn. This is where I have trouble explaining it. I have yet to have a person understand exactly what i mean by any explaination , but here goes.........
I came upon the realization that I was on dmt , so I then thought. Who am I? Well I'm Jason I answered. Wait ? I"m Jason!!! I lived here for 23 years and didn't even acknowledge existence until now. I realized I was a being with a soul in a different way. Which scared the shit out of me. It scared me so much that traumatically my mind forgot that rebirth (the most eye opening part of the trip ) until a month later as I woke up one morning. Then I guess , DMT brought out an underlying turrets disease or something , because I remember saying " I dont understand" "I dont get it" "What time is it" maybe a thousand times each as I rocked back and forth repeatedly.
It tapered down and what had seemed like an eternity I had finally been left with a smug feeling , calm ,relaxed, little visuals. Wow I thought . What a bad ass trip!! Wait what? Good trip???? How????
The only way I have of explaining that is you know , those strange dreams people have falling off a high ledge to wake up right b4 you hit the bottom or , a similar scary dream. When it happens your like holy shit!!!! But when your awake from it your like " Damn that was cool"
Yeah , it was.
Alien encounters : Definetely
Visuals: 2d chrysanthemum pattern on lower sight , then later , blackish aliens peering at me up and to the left and right. Constantly evading my direct focus. Bastards.
duration: only 4 1/2 hours (felt like 15 hours)
Well thats my 1st trip report sorry it is soooo long but I needed to elaborate on certain things. Let me know what you guys think. Or if anyone can kinda relate.
Peace
Well it has been a couple months since my first dmt experience. What an intense first one it was!!! Input would be appreciated since I have no clue as to whether this trip was er............ Normal ; for lack of better words. I've done it multiple times ever since, but that first time was ............................................................................................................... Insane, completely insane.
If a sitter had been there I would have turned up in a hospital somewhere I swear. Here goes.....................
It was the night of the eve of my birthday. I had it. I was sooooooooo stoked that I had it. My mind could not stop thinking about it during work. Well I told my Girl that I had gotten it and I would be tripping alone later at 11:45 , so I would ring in my 23rd birthday inside dmt's realm.
19 Grams mimosa H. 2 Grams Syrian Rue (apparently i'm a moron)
I prepared it , drank it , and ran out of the apartment in a hurry to get to my old apartment (I still have the key its uninhabited) I drove , which was about a 1 1/2 minute drive literally. But I could not make it 1 1/2 minutes in a car (which was not mine!!!!!!!!!) to puke! Even though the recipes said 15 minutes to puke. WTF! Anyway I parked 100 feet from my other apartment with a puke filled car , ran up 3 flights of stairs; opened the door; and deadlocked the door as I collapsed literally 2 seconds later with VERY little body control. Lucky yes , I know. Well what had seemed like about hmmmm 5 hours I really wanted to take off my shoes but couldn't!! Surprise surprise. I tried like a thousand times just to take off my jacket and shoes but I just couldn't. What happens next makes me think it was a difficult trip.
Amidst the time travel slash distortion I had thought that I had made A LOT of noise fighting the trip. So naturally ( i thought) neighbors had called paramedics to get me so I wouldn't die. I knew I wouldn't die , but I freaked at the thought that my squells and pathetic noises for mercy alerted unknowing people to call 911. So at this place and time I could not recognize the room, my arm , the clock , who i was!!! But with that thought in my brain I thought paramedics were there! I was too fucked up to see them or talk much. Heh...... so I layed in a fetal position occasionally whimpering a faint hello. As I progressed out of that crazy catatonic stage I was reborn. This is where I have trouble explaining it. I have yet to have a person understand exactly what i mean by any explaination , but here goes.........
I came upon the realization that I was on dmt , so I then thought. Who am I? Well I'm Jason I answered. Wait ? I"m Jason!!! I lived here for 23 years and didn't even acknowledge existence until now. I realized I was a being with a soul in a different way. Which scared the shit out of me. It scared me so much that traumatically my mind forgot that rebirth (the most eye opening part of the trip ) until a month later as I woke up one morning. Then I guess , DMT brought out an underlying turrets disease or something , because I remember saying " I dont understand" "I dont get it" "What time is it" maybe a thousand times each as I rocked back and forth repeatedly.
It tapered down and what had seemed like an eternity I had finally been left with a smug feeling , calm ,relaxed, little visuals. Wow I thought . What a bad ass trip!! Wait what? Good trip???? How????
The only way I have of explaining that is you know , those strange dreams people have falling off a high ledge to wake up right b4 you hit the bottom or , a similar scary dream. When it happens your like holy shit!!!! But when your awake from it your like " Damn that was cool"
Yeah , it was.
Alien encounters : Definetely
Visuals: 2d chrysanthemum pattern on lower sight , then later , blackish aliens peering at me up and to the left and right. Constantly evading my direct focus. Bastards.
duration: only 4 1/2 hours (felt like 15 hours)
Well thats my 1st trip report sorry it is soooo long but I needed to elaborate on certain things. Let me know what you guys think. Or if anyone can kinda relate.
Peace