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Damnitfeelsgood

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Over the winter break I did E twice.. both times with close friends. The first time was incredible and one of the best days, and the second time was even more incredible because I took two E pills. We talked about everything, nothing was left uncovered and I'm so happy I tried it. My friendship is amazing with the people I did E with. I would take a bullet for them.. no joke.

Now.. the days after I feel like the ecstasy has rewired my brain and changed me. All for the positive. Before E I was a very shy introverted person and always had social anxiety. After E my social anxiety is completely gone and I love meeting new people and talking to people and I just feel 50x more social than I was before E. It seems like the things I did on E (talk, dance, smoke cigarettes and hug people) still remain very pleasurable even after E.


I also feel like I just don't give a fuck. I don't care what people think about me anymore. It doesn't matter to me as long as I am happy with my self. Also it seems that E has gotten me extremely addicted to cigarettes. Before E I would only smoke cigarettes around other people and now I'm just pounding through them because they taste... better (could be in my head)


My theory is that on E you are the happiest you could ever be, and your brain starts associating certain actions and chemicals (nicotine, talking, dancing, hugging ect) with the happiest moments of your life and it converts over to your sober self and makes you do those things while sober too because those things are the things you did when you were most happy. Damn that was a long sentence lol


Anyone else feel this way?
 
I felt this way, but IME, it went away after awhile. I still do have a deeper than one might expect connection with the people I did E with though. We never really hung out before we did it, and we rarely hang out in the two years since, but I count them among the people who know me best and would do anything for me (and vice versa).
 
Damnitfeelsgood said:
My theory is that on E you are the happiest you could ever be, and your brain starts associating certain actions and chemicals (nicotine, talking, dancing, hugging ect) with the happiest moments of your life and it converts over to your sober self and makes you do those things while sober too because those things are the things you did when you were most happy. Damn that was a long sentence lol


Anyone else feel this way?
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yeppperrrs dude, it gradually wears off after a while but if you do the things anyway without thinking they just get committed to habit.

but hey whats wrong with talking dancing and hugging!!! All the time, condition the mind to love good and good will follow.

this same thing can happen with negative things if your are in the wrong environment or with the wrong people, or just have the wrong mindset period. Hence why ecstasy can be so dangerous to some people's psyches. You can create addictions to things or people that can be harmful towards you, but they become compulsions anyway because of the drugs influence.
 
same thing happened to me. the first drug i ever snorted was molly, and it was a great decision. it also happened to be the first MDMA product i tried. i became a lot more social, compassionate, intelligent, and grateful. Frankly, it was an enlightened state. I feel MDMA made me a better person. But as Alan Watts said about psychedelic drugs, "When you get the message, hang up the phone." Let's not become ecstasy burn outs. Drugs can be a tool, but they only work if you put them to good use.
 
Yea your experience is pretty much what we call the honeymoon period. Its incredible how much your first times on E can open your eyes to the kind of person you can, and should, be.

The feeling tends to go away after a while though, so do your best to remember the way you feel at this point and take it with you for the rest of your life.

Welcome to Bluelight.
 
Well, I hope by the time this "honey moon" period wears off that it has integrated itself into my personality because I just love how I am now compared to what I was.
 
xxkcxx said:
I felt this way, but IME, it went away after awhile. I still do have a deeper than one might expect connection with the people I did E with though. We never really hung out before we did it, and we rarely hang out in the two years since, but I count them among the people who know me best and would do anything for me (and vice versa).
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Imo this is a falsified connection caused by seretonin released in your system, its not gunuine, if your only friends with someone b/c you "clicked" on the drug of ectasacy its not a real friendship but an artificial one. Its a known side effect of the drug
 
It can happen, i know people who feel that MDMA changed their lives in profoundly positive ways, usually just getting out more and being more social and comfortable with themselves....

I have friends who have thanked me for introducing them to the rave scene, genuinely just a "thank you man, i needed something like this in my life"....

These drugs can change your personality, and for many who can take something from the experience it can be life-changing....
 
SyR1S said:
Imo this is a falsified connection caused by seretonin released in your system, its not gunuine, if your only friends with someone b/c you "clicked" on the drug of ectasacy its not a real friendship but an artificial one. Its a known side effect of the drug
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I know it is a side-effect but that doesn't change the fact that more than 2 years later and only hanging out with each of them maybe twice since, I can still call them up and feel like I am talking to an old friend who I shared a lot with.



Ecstasy was the only thing we had in common when we did it, but it allowed us to open up and share things with each other we never would have otherwise, allowing us to form an actual connection.
 
^^ Well by that token how could an inanimate object forge deeper connections between you and your friends?

Obviously it is the choices you make while on the drug that improve or fuck up your life, but any drug influences the choices and behaviours so the ones you choose may be different than if you hadn't consumed the drug. I think it is valid to say 'x fucked up my life' or 'x made me so much closer to these people', if those effects have occured as a direct consequence of taking a drug and wouldn't have happened otherwise.
 
before e and raves (2 times) I dirt listen to much edm. now I do. I also have an urge to dance
 
hmm..

one year on.. about 20 pills..

Yeah its definitely changed me a little bit, not much though, can hardly put my finger on it, and it goes away after non use..

The things i learnt while on e ive carried on into normal life too, like how i act and what not..

Made so fucking many amazing friends that i see outside of raves very often too.

E definitely improved my life :)
 
I loved your post. I'm so happy for you and what E has allowed you to discover about yourself. Being freed from social anxiety is an incredible gift.
 
I felt like E helped me be more social and overcome a lot of negativity. It isn't a magic pill though, you have to keep up the effort. I did it about 7 times over 3 years and haven't for about 7. I just forgot about it after I couldn't find it in my area. My wife had never done it so I didn't try.

I'd have to say, the years I went out drinking undid a lot of the positives E did for me. Then being married and not social wasn't great for my social mentality. I realized that we had become two anti social hermits and we have friends and go out now.

I am going to roll for the first time in 7 years and my wife's first this month! However, I still lack friends who are in to the roll environment. Intimate conversations and all that. Since pipz have been on the scene most people just binge drink alcohol or do worse drugs.
 
Maybe now...after MDMA use my hapyness-o-meeter is at new level
 
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