inept enigma
Bluelighter
i went through the cycle of ADHD meds about 5 years ago (from concerta, to adderall xr, to adderall ir, to dextrostat[dextroamphetamine instant release] which i stayed with). i would binge the 2 to 3 days after getting the script (like maybe 4-5 10mgs a day for 3 days) then take it as prescribed (or not at all and sold it). i stopped taking it after quitting college and i have only taken ANY kind of stimulant (coke/ice) on VERY RARE occasions since then. now, i restarted college this year and got a new shrink to start writing me again. right off the bat i took 3 10mg dextrostats and ahrdly felt anything (other then peripheral effects such as teeth grinding, sweating and of course increased focusing) but basically NO EUPHORIA! the next day i took 60mg at once and felt a twinge of euphoria, but back 5 years ago, that high of a dosage wpould have had me rushing, the "tingles" as i call the,m and just feeling great, but now all i do is sweat, grind my teeth and do nothing but write poetry, draw and read, which is nice and all, but WHERE WENT THE EUPHORIA? i have heard aftyer extended, long-term usage, your dopamine cells stop producing and (from what i've read) it is permanent. but my queastion is this, why, after not using (for all practical purposes) and stimulants in 5 years would i go from relatively strong euphoria at moderate dosage to basically NO euphoria, even at very high doses? can anyone help me out here? i worked for 2 months, went to 2 shrinks and have no insurance so i spent hundreds of dollars to get these things back and now i get 180 10mg dextrostats a month and they're worth basically jack-shit to me. any ideas from you pharmacology/speed-freaks?
