Mental Health Depression MEGA Thread - DepressionTalk + Over 100 Links of Info

[Lifeonthepharm]

Ive been pretty depressed this past week thats for sure. Im on the major depression side of it no real mixed state feelings. Been sleeping alot, not eating and not really doing anything.

That's a pretty long stretch. It's good that you can realize that it's not external situations or events that's causing the depression.

So what do you expect might happen next? For me, once I reach the lowest of the lows, the next day is amazing... all things big or small don't bother me, totally philanthropic, yet nothing has changed on the outside.

i could really go for some drugs of any sort

Ya I know how you feel. I've resorted to smoking cigarettes as that's all I can get my hands on. I would be happy to just be able to get my scripts refilled, but for now I have to ween off everything while I've got the supply to do so.

I would sell my soul for some pain relief via opiates +some tasty weed. mmm mmm good.

How long have you been taking the Zoloft?

 

[anonymous_mouse]

I just went cold turkey off my psych meds (abilify, seroquel, wellbutrin) and DAMN I feel so much better. But since I went off them only yesterday it's hard to tell whether I'll have withdrawals from them - should I expect any?

I've been on the anti-psychotics for more than a year and wellbutrin only for a couple weeks. I think the meds made me MORE anxious and depressed (and delusional) in the long run - and poisoned my body. So finally I was like fuck it.. might as well give myself a break and see what I'm like as a real person without chemical alteration (I went sober from alcohol/drugs a week ago, too).

Anyone else with anxiety function better off meds than on them?

 

[dilated_pupils]

Ive been pretty depressed this past week thats for sure. Im on the major depression side of it no real mixed state feelings. Been sleeping alot, not eating and not really doing anything.

Man... sounds exactly like me. The more we talk on AIM, and post, I relate to you more and more. Isn't it supposed to make ya feel better knowing others are feeling the same way as you? Well, I'm sure not feeling any better because of it...

I just went cold turkey off my psych meds (abilify, seroquel, wellbutrin) and DAMN I feel so much better. But since I went off them only yesterday it's hard to tell whether I'll have withdrawals from them - should I expect any?

I've been on the anti-psychotics for more than a year and wellbutrin only for a couple weeks. I think the meds made me MORE anxious and depressed (and delusional) in the long run - and poisoned my body. So finally I was like fuck it.. might as well give myself a break and see what I'm like as a real person without chemical alteration (I went sober from alcohol/drugs a week ago, too).

Anyone else with anxiety function better off meds than on them?

Umm, you really need to get back on your meds ASAP. If you're on those 3 meds, it's obviously for a reason, not to mention quitting even one of them cold turkey it dumb, let alone all three, which I consider reckless. You're just asking for a living hell, feeling suicidal, and acting crazy. But hey, what do I know, I've just been on almost every major psych med/mood stabilizer there is for my bipolar and anxiety...

-dp

 

[bang that shit]

That's a pretty long stretch. It's good that you can realize that it's not external situations or events that's causing the depression.

So what do you expect might happen next? For me, once I reach the lowest of the lows, the next day is amazing... all things big or small don't bother me, totally philanthropic, yet nothing has changed on the outside.




Ya I know how you feel. I've resorted to smoking cigarettes as that's all I can get my hands on. I would be happy to just be able to get my scripts refilled, but for now I have to ween off everything while I've got the supply to do so.

I would sell my soul for some pain relief via opiates +some tasty weed. mmm mmm good.

How long have you been taking the Zoloft?

I took it for about a year and a half in HS... then took a 4 month break. Started up again last march. Iv moved up to 150mg


also


sobreity is a bitch.... and is forcing me to chain smoke reds

 

[anonymous_mouse]

Umm, you really need to get back on your meds ASAP. If you're on those 3 meds, it's obviously for a reason, not to mention quitting even one of them cold turkey it dumb, let alone all three, which I consider reckless. You're just asking for a living hell, feeling suicidal, and acting crazy. But hey, what do I know, I've just been on almost every major psych med/mood stabilizer there is for my bipolar and anxiety...

-dp

Well, I was prescribed the Abilify and Welbutrin for depression and the Seroquel for anxiety. The meds for depression really helped, but made me more anxious, and the seroquel didn't do much for the anxiety. So it's not like I'm naturally psychotic or anything even close.. Right now I'm not depressed, and I'm managing the anxiety through natural supplements which seem to be working really well. I don't feel any negative effects from going off the meds yet, but it's only been a couple days so I don't know, withdrawals could happen. I was just wondering what to expect, if they do happen. I'll go back on the meds if I get suicidal, but so far I feel great so I don't see any reason to go back on them now.

Oh yeah, this might be of help to some. I'm managing my anxiety with a combination of GABA (an amino acid supplement) and Valerian Root (an herb) and they seem to be working very well for me. I'd recommend the combination for anyone else as long as, of course, you research any interactions they might have with meds, supplements, etc.

 

[paranoid android]

If you are actually bipolar make sure you watch out for hypomania. It's really hard to spot yourself unfortunatly. Wellbutrin can cause anxiety but im on benzos so it doesent give me anxiety. Which is fortunate because it's the best med for my bipolar depression.

 

[anonymous_mouse]

Yeah Wellbutrin seems to be the best out of all the meds I was on - I might go back on it in the winter because I get seasonal depression.

What are the symptoms of hypomania? I feel really "up" but I'm not having delusions of granduer or starting any excessive projects or anything. I just feel clear-headed and energetic. Just in case it doesn't last, I'm doing as much as I can - cleaning the house, catching up on email, visiting friends etc.

PA - MSN isn't letting me sign in! I'll keep trying, though.

 

[dilated_pupils]

Well I'm glad you're feeling better anonymous mouse I just hope that it lasts and you don't end up having trouble with quitting the meds.

I've been feeling quite better the last few days, other then some bullshit that happened with some friends of mine. But overall my suicidal depression has seemed to come to a halt which I really really am happy about. I have to say lamactil is seeming to save my life, and I just found out my cousin (who I haven't seen in a while but heard from my aunt) that has bipolar as well, has had great help from lamactil as well. So it seems to be a hereditary type of thing, or at least it's possible. I'm just so happy that something is finally working for me! I'm kind of wondering if I really need the nortriptyline though, it may really be doing nothing since before I started the lamactil, the nortriptyline didn't seem to do much for me at all, and I don't want to be taking more medications then I need. I mean all my life I have been on tons of medications, taking upwards of 12 pills+ a day, even when I was young. So all these medications may just be an overload for my body. We'll find out though, I'll have to talk to my doctor next month about trying to figure out if the nortriptyline is worth staying on, although I think it will come down to what I want... so maybe I need to do some more research and see what other people have been through as well.

-dp

 

[dilated_pupils]

Anyone have any advice about my previous post, regarding stopping the nortriptyline and staying on lamactil (which has definitely helped me a lot)? Searching the web, everything is too general, I can't find something that pinpoints what I need to know. If anyone can let me know, it would be great, thanks.

-dp

 

[dilated_pupils]

I fucking am so upset/angry right now. I honestly thought I had a couple real friends left, but obviously I don't anymore. They all just bailed out on me for my 21st birthday, and I already paid for a hotel and shit, it's fucked up. I don't even know if I want to make it to 21 now, what the fuck do I have to live for? I have NO ONE in my life at all anymore, and even when I meet people how the fuck can I trust them?

-dp

 

[paranoid android]

Look at it this way atleasy you know they arent really your friends . Im sorry that things turned out that way and i know how bad it must be but you have these jerks out of your life now so you can start over again. It's a rather harsh way of looking at things i know but maybe it's because ive had so many "friends" in my life desert me.

Don't go offing yourself over the likes of this. Seriously why would you want to die because abunch of arseholes finally showed there true colors. Ok it makes ya feel like utter shit for awile but you will make it through it.

Too off yourself at 21 or before 21 i should say would be such a fuckin waste man. Just don't do it. As for meeting new people and learning to trust them i only trust people ive met to a certain extent. You have to be in my good books before i will trust you at all and in my real good books before i will totally trust you.

Anyone have any advice about my previous post, regarding stopping the nortriptyline and staying on lamactil

I would say stay on the nortriptyline for now since the med combo seems to be working or atleast something is. I would wait awile and not rock the boat yet.

 

[dilated_pupils]

Look at it this way atleasy you know they arent really your friends . Im sorry that things turned out that way and i know how bad it must be but you have these jerks out of your life now so you can start over again. It's a rather harsh way of looking at things i know but maybe it's because ive had so many "friends" in my life desert me.

Don't go offing yourself over the likes of this. Seriously why would you want to die because abunch of arseholes finally showed there true colors. Ok it makes ya feel like utter shit for awile but you will make it through it.

Too off yourself at 21 or before 21 i should say would be such a fuckin waste man. Just don't do it. As for meeting new people and learning to trust them i only trust people ive met to a certain extent. You have to be in my good books before i will trust you at all and in my real good books before i will totally trust you.



I would say stay on the nortriptyline for now since the med combo seems to be working or atleast something is. I would wait awile and not rock the boat yet.

Turns out a couple of my friends are actually coming through for me, so I'm not as pissed anymore. But yeah I'm not going to do something stupid cause some idiots showed how shitty of a friend they are. But yeah it really sucks losing people you thought you could trust and that would be there for ya.

And in regards to my meds, I guess I'll stay on the nortriptyline for now, and do some research before I make a decision on stopping it or not, and probably talk to a couple docs.

-dp

 

[Lifeonthepharm]

Turns out a couple of my friends are actually coming through for me, so I'm not as pissed anymore. But yeah I'm not going to do something stupid cause some idiots showed how shitty of a friend they are. But yeah it really sucks losing people you thought you could trust and that would be there for ya.

And in regards to my meds, I guess I'll stay on the nortriptyline for now, and do some research before I make a decision on stopping it or not, and probably talk to a couple docs.

-dp

That's good. Legit betrayal is frustrating, especially coming from friends or family since comes packaged with surprise.

The longest haul in a row I've done on Nortriptyline is 1-2 years. Not sure how long you've been on it but I found it easier to stop than any other meds.
Hopefully you aren't getting any benefits from it, as those would surface...

 

[theotherside]

My life never had even a hint of depression until I decided to start taking opiates after a car accident. They made me even more outgoing and I became the best employee at my work almost overnight. Then, my doc moved away and the new one screwed me and put me on tylenol 3 then darv's. I had gotten off for awhile, and that's when I found out what depression really was. I never called any of my friends, never exercised, and started solely hanging out with my girlfriend. I tried everything I could but eventually gave back in to the opiate lifestyle after finding an outside source. I tried to quit 3 days ago, and made it until exactly 2 hours ago and the RLS/depression did me in. How to live without painkillers and not be totally hopelessly depressed is beyond me.

 

[bang that shit]

ughhh i really hate having a father who is a psychiatrist, he thinks the more meds that gets pumped into me they better il be

right now im 150mg of zoloft
and i forget the mg but a low dose of remeron


he wants me to get back on wellbutrin, go to 200mg of zoloft. and increase the remeron. he isnt even my doctor but he LOVES to make suggestions

what do you guys think?

I was on wellbutrin before and i didnt notice much effects. Im not opposed to getting on it, I just dont want ANOTHER med to have to get off of when the time comes.

 

[RedLeader]

^ How long were you an Wellbutrin? If you were on it long enough for it to have "kicked in," and nothing really changed, then I wouldn't go back to it. IMO, you should only be on a medicine if it is positively affecting your life, not negatively or doing nothing at all.

How are you handling the Remeron? I have mixed feelings about that one - it's a great sleep aid, but gives me truly horrific nightmeres.

 

[bang that shit]

^ How long were you an Wellbutrin? If you were on it long enough for it to have "kicked in," and nothing really changed, then I wouldn't go back to it. IMO, you should only be on a medicine if it is positively affecting your life, not negatively or doing nothing at all.

How are you handling the Remeron? I have mixed feelings about that one - it's a great sleep aid, but gives me truly horrific nightmeres.

I think I was on it 2 months.

Iv only been on the remeron afew days now, nothing to bad yet.

 

[roseinthemoonlight]

I am not sure if this is the right place to share this, but I really had a moment the last couple of days.

It started Saturday evening at Taco Bell. Looking for what to order, everything came up blank. There didn't seem to be a difference between any item on the menu. I realized I felt no difference being indoors or outdoors, talking to my friend or his girlfriend, sitting or standing, etc. I was visibly becoming down and they asked what was wrong. I told them nothing. And I wasn't lying either, I became a void.

All I remember about Monday was taking a Klonopin and later drinking some beer. BAD MOVE I know and refrained myself from doing it twice. Didn't do it for self harm, on the contrary I had only a few sips to get me to sleep. So I slept until Tuesday. Tried to do the same thing but failed and ended up being with my friends and took myself out of that hole.

I had a lot of anxiety Sunday night and felt guilt, like I had done many wrong. But in reality, I have been doing more around the house than ever and it's been raising my mom's mood to see me take on more responsibilities.

I feel fine now, but I can't always hide from my depression. I'm always having to look deep and figure out what is triggering it. I have an idea what provoked it, there's just something about that void feeling I want to understand.

Not sure where I was going with this, but thank you for letting me open up

 

[sushii]

I feel fine now, but I can't always hide from my depression. I'm always having to look deep and figure out what is triggering it.

Me too. It's taken me years to realise that the problem is deep in me, not in my surroundings (and whatever else might be going on around me).

Hope you continue to feel fine for more days to come. Welcome to BL (and TDS)

 

[roseinthemoonlight]

Me too. It's taken me years to realise that the problem is deep in me, not in my surroundings (and whatever else might be going on around me).

Hope you continue to feel fine for more days to come. Welcome to BL (and TDS)

Thank you for the wisdom and warm welcome, sushii!

It's taken over ten years to start admiting to myself what really went on in my childhood. Six years to forgive my father, regardless of what he did to me, and pray his soul will find rest. Now the rest is on me. And for everytime I am willing to let go of it all, that self-destructive part still wants to carry on others work.