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DecENDber/LESSember

Good on you for quitting alcohol- it takes a special kind of will power to stay sober during the holidays. What with all the merrymaking going on (drinking).

I've weaned myself down from 4mg suboxone to 2mg/day. I expect to be at the 1.25 mark in about a week, but I really don't like the idea of being in WD's during the holiday season where I'll be seeing a lot of family and good friends I've spent so much time apart from.

I'm trying to decide between biting the bullet and detox through December and early January or wean myself down to around .25/day by the end of the month and then carry on with an extremely slow taper over the next month or two months, even though I'll have to be at university and at work.
 
ErikTheRed said:
Good on you for quitting alcohol- it takes a special kind of will power to stay sober during the holidays. What with all the merrymaking going on (drinking).

I've weaned myself down from 4mg suboxone to 2mg/day. I expect to be at the 1.25 mark in about a week, but I really don't like the idea of being in WD's during the holiday season where I'll be seeing a lot of family and good friends I've spent so much time apart from.

I'm trying to decide between biting the bullet and detox through December and early January or wean myself down to around .25/day by the end of the month and then carry on with an extremely slow taper over the next month or two months, even though I'll have to be at university and at work.
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If you want to make sure you can be happy during the Holidays, just maintain the dose where you are at, and resume tapering after the Holidays have past and you are ready and comfortable to do so. :)
 
PhrostByte said:
How about Jan-you-wary?
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Jan-you-nary?

Can-you-nary?

or

J'can-you-nary?

This is tough!


My friend that was on the naltrexone shot is not anymore and has been using semi-frequently again. Kind of annoying since he asked me if I wanted any oxy tonight.

Declined. Glad I did! =D I just don't see the point of it anymore. It has no merit. I'm spending money for what? To do what? Why? This will give me X amount of hours of pleasure, but it gives X squared hours of annoyance in the chase and lifestyle.


Through most of today, looks like it's going to be another weed only day!:) So if one day I just don't smoke weed and I don't take anything else, just like today, I would have a completely sober day! What?! Madness! The insanity! Who does this Landrover think he is!;)
 
smokin herb honestly evens out the vast majority of cravings for me ONCE I am completely physically clean from opiates I've found over the years.

money well spent in my opinion.
 
I'm in, I have 47 days clean and sober. I plan to continue that.

I must keep attending at least one meeting a day
Continue to only use my medicine and caffeine, no other drugs

I found quitting nicotine after I cut everything out a fuckin breeze. I am on Wellbutrin and a "Step 3" patch.
 
Help me please said:
I'm down to 33.75 mg morphine a day total. The pain is getting pretty intense and my husband said I need to quit tapering and see the doctor to have him up my dose again! Yeah, right! How long before I'd be on oxymorphone again then? I'll take the pain! I'm tough. It's probably the freaking cold weather and it will get better once spring comes :)

My goal is to be down to 25 or 30 mg by xmas. I'm doing the taper slowly and so far have had no WD at all this time round. No PAWS, just some increased pain.
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Hate to say this, but you have to put some serious thought into your husband.

If he is urging you to up your dose then he is not supporting your sobriety.
 
hello i have been an opiate addict for ten years i will b thirty this month i am a wife and a mother i was on suboxone for a few months but had really bad side effects from it so i tappered off and went right back to not doing good again, i started going to the methadone clinic 3 weeks ago and it has been amazing. i feel great and do not have any cravings it has saved my life i hope to continue to do well and not mess up and do any other drugs at all. this is the best i have felt in 10 years literaly and i also do not want to tell 1 single lie this month and i hoping i can accomplish that since i am no longer using
 
^ welcome on :) , glad to hear methadone is working well for you.

me - I can't believe how much I despise quitting smoking, and my prior opiate binge has left me feeling like utter shit - in a few days I should be good but fuck my life this month blows so far lol.
 
* Introduce yourself to the thread, briefly about your past, as well as your goals for the month
* Remember that personal safety comes first; abstinence is a challenge, yes, but DEcember is only practical when one knows one's bodily limits. BE SAFE!
* Be friendly to others. This is a great opportunity for addicts of all different types of drugs and/or actions to socialize and get to know each other.
A good bonding experience for TDS, if you will....

im Dustin im 17 over the past 2-3 years ive entered the party scene and kept getting into harder drugs and using them more often i took breaks but always came back and recently over the past 2 months i was using everything alot more since i was depressed but now ive found happiness so i plan on cleaning up a little and keeping it to just alcohol and pot on fridays/weekends although i dont think it will be very easy since i have grown an addiction to just partying in general no matter what day of the week it is.I also want to aim at being less reckless when it comes to drugs ive been pushing my limits a little to far and always end up feeling horrible in the end and now im in phsycosis due to my speed/alcohol intake,dehydration, and sleep deprivation in the past few days wich i am hoping to get out of it i also plan on focusing more on school work since im fed up of grade 10(3rd time)
 
EXCELLENT work phactor!! :) <3
You are going to feel so empowered once you are done with nicotine too!! :D



curly- Welcome to BL and TDS- Glad to hear you are clean and working on being a better person.
It feels good to take care of your spirit......being honest makes you feel good. Lying always carries such a weight and letting go of that burden will be freeing, I imagine <3

curiosity- Welcome to you too!
How is today going? Is your goal to cut down or stop using? Focusing mor eon school is a great plan, on many levels......keeping your mind occupied will deter you from using and also it is bettering yourself. :)


taow- It is only the beginning of the month! :) I am sure it will get much better!
Every day is new- I think you'll be waking to many good days this December ;)

I look forward to reading more from everyone:)
 
FOR ONCE I am actually doing good and am on my way again to sobriety.
I said I started my taper a few days before December and I did, and I haven't gone off course once yet.
Again I'm getting more hopeful by the day, my mood is improving, and I just feel like all around a better person. I know it will likely take more time than december to get off 100%, but I also went to a doctor and will be getting monitored throughout the whole process. So I'm hoping once Im back in paws he'll be able to help me out somehow (he had mentioned wellbutrin so I can also stop smoking and I think I'm gonna do that too).

Whatever the case 9 days ago I was at 150gms of pods and today I'm down to 65gms baby!! I really think it is easier in the winter to taper because the hotflashes aren't so aggravated by the heat. Whatever the case it looks like December will be my month. I'm not waiting till Feb or March April to do this. I want to be 100% clean/sober and back in shape by my b-day next June.
Thats the goal and I'm sticking to it.


Good luck to everybody else!
 
Fanfuckintastic. Few real tough days - now jus keep myself on point. I am super edgy for a variety of reasons but the main one is the lack of ciggs.

But I'm working on that, aside from that - man feel like a fuckin champ.
 
I got completely off Subs in October and haven't touched any opiates since! I also quit smoking weed, cigs and drinking in November.

My goals for this month are to:
- Stay clean from Opiates, weed and alcohol
- Continue to work through my issues in therapy
- Tee up at least a few job interviews for January
- Make it to at least one NA meeting to see what it's all about
- Reduce my benzo doses to near zero and improve my sleep
- Lose 1.5kg a week to add to the 10kg I've lost already (through daily exercise and diet)

Definitely not going to be a Decbender for me! (sorry for that :))

Good luck to everyone!
 
So far so good for me :)
I still havent touched any opiate besides suboxone since nov6.
Im down to about .2mg of sub a day(still not quite ready to stop).
I havent taken any xanax for 2 nights and if i do take any i take 1mg instead of 2mg and it makes me sleep pretty good.I dont think i will experience benzo w/d thank god.
Im really happy and excited about my sobriety.I know im not %100 sober yet but i will be soon :).
Best of luck to all my fellow bluelighters!
 
TOTACH you are at a perfect place to stop just so you know.
I read about a "tried and tested" method in OD for stopping sub and a lot of people seem
to agree if you stay at .2mg-.25mg for 2-3 weeks, then stop, there is literally no wds at all.
I did it myself last time and it worked great. Except it was the paws that bit me in the butt.

At any rate theres a lot of people doing well I'm glad to see it!. Down to 55gms and getting lower by the day.... also drinking grapefruit juice by the gallons just to get a little longer action out of the short doses.
 
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no more ciggs. done.

things goin solid, I noticed in two days endurance going up bigggg time. FUcking pathetic my lungs were shittin out before my muscles. Glad to be done, but damn i miss em haha.
 
/\ Thats the oddest thing is I can smoke a pack and go run 4 miles w/out coughing once. Its the same reason its always been near impossible for me to stop because I don't see obvious signs of it ruining my life.
At anyrate last time I quit theres this reversal in your brain where one day you will smell cigs and they just smell godawful/horrible. I think it happened to me after 5-6 months where I despised being around smokers and couldn't stand the smell anymore. But in those first few months the smell was always tempting.

I went back cause I got drunk one night, bought a pack (year and a half later) and thats usually how it goes. I don't really drink too which is the stupidest part. Almost like I got drunk just so I'd have an excuse to smoke lol. Its a hard habit to beat but its really largely a mind game.
 
It's fuckin hard bein that I have bad PTSD and takin xanax makes me want to smoke like none other brother.

btw , it was 315 for reps on deadlifts , i noticed my lungs fuckin died. We got a local deal to see who can pull it the most - once i started to get up the numbers my lungs couldnt take the pressure, now that i am not smoking it's much easier. Still puke everytime tho lol.
 
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