CoReCoNTAX
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Oct 2, 2010
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- 238
Today is my 16th day clean and sober off everything...I got out of rehab just over a week ago (it was my first experience in rehab) I wad mainly using opiates daily but towards the peak of my habit I was on all sorts and it wasnt until I gave up and threw all my drugs away that I realized how bad it had got...I was using GBL, Ketamine, Benzos, Alcohol, Heroin and prescription opiates aswell as Hash..and this was daily..I still grieve when I think of the good times and throwing all those drugs away but im really fucking glad that im out of that hellhole. I go to CA, + NA meetings when possible but not enough. Some days I feel great Iv got my self back, my family and girl back and I love and appreciate these people unconditionally..but when the darkness hits me I still want to lock myself up and use till I drool and fall asleep. The gym keeps me. Motivated and to take it day by day helps. But it aint fuckin eazy, best regards to all of u in the same boat.