LucidSDreamr
Bluelighter
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If you haven't heard already excercise (even tho u feel like crap) helps alot as it releases natural endorphins which tickle your opioid receptors
If you haven't heard already excercise (even tho u feel like crap) helps alot as it releases natural endorphins which tickle your opioid receptors
Made it past the two week mark. No opiates what so ever. Unless you consider immodium one hahaha. PAWS is setting in and fucking with my head!!!! Depression, no self confidence, lethargic. Ughhhh I'm a social guy usually and this part feels even worse. In general how long did the worst of this mental game bs last?! Cause I'm going crazy with bordum yet no ambition to do anything. I know PAWS can last up to like 6 months and what not, but when (in your case) did the worst of it last. Because right now it's almost unmanageable -.- I've made it through the acute stage so I really don't wanna go back to opiates ever. But I've never been so down.
I will share my experience since experience has far more value than opinion. My wife and I remember clearly the location and time at two months clean where I told her, "I want to pull the car over right here and get out and jump up and down and scream, 'I feel so f%$#ing free!'"
As an addict I consistently will look for anything to cling to, any excuse to not get better. PAWS was rarely mentioned when I got clean and now it has become this thing that virtually everyone "struggles" with. I am in love with fantasy. Constant "struggle" is a fantasy that my mind creates when I refuse to live in the moment. I have never been in a perpetual state of struggle, but I will conjure it if given enough idle time. I have a pattern of being willing to give up everything in my reality for a plunge in to fantasy land.
People who have never been clean telling other people how long PAWS lasts is pure fantasy. Buy it or don't buy it. Suffering is optional.
***edit: I don't give my experience on "chipping" or dabbling because I don't have that experience to share. I don't have experience with smoking weed or tripping once I made the decision to be clean so I stay far away from that topic too. This doesn't make me better than. It just means that abstinence has a voice of experience on this site as well. If I slam, smoke, snort, or keister today I will get just as high and potentially f*&k my life off as much as any other member here. If you are attempting a path to complete abstinence I am here to share that it is possible. Find your path Deathadone. You have support.