Pghlady6972
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Dec 13, 2017
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Good evening everyone. I hope I'm in the right forum. I took my last dose of heroin yesterday (I was using 6-8 bags daily). Waited 29 agonizing hours and took 1mg suboxone SL around 2pm ( I have been thru precipitated withdrawl and was not willing to risk it). After an hour I was feeling I'd say 15% better and decided to take another 1mg. After another hour I plugged 1 more mg. Around 4pm, we ordered food and I ate like a champ! After dinner, we were watching a tv show and I fell asleep. Upon awakening, I realized how much better I felt, looked in the mirror and realized my eyes are super pinned! What happened? I truly want to get clean, and now i feel like i failed and am feeling better than i should. I only have 2 8mg subs left and plan on doing a rapid taper. I hope I didn't mess anything up by taking too much sub. I wonder if plugging the 3rd mg is what did it, but I HATE the taste. I am getting married in August to an amazing, supportive man who actually got me the suboxone so I wouldn't be too sick. He and I have been researching everything about withdrawl and tapering. So, I have 16mg left, what do you think I should do? I also have a shit ton of vicodin, gabapentin, klonapin, clonidine. Any input is very appreciated. I will update this thread as I go through this detox process. Wish me luck! There is NO going back now! I had 3 years clean two separate times, I truly love being clean. The last relapse came from necessary pain pills from major back pain and surgeries. I still have the immense back pain, but I must stop the heroin! Thanks again!