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Cutting v. 2

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Ok I know this has likely been covered but I'm looking for a new prodict that is avaliable at Wal-mart, grocery stores or MAYBE (we don't have many) a health store that is the best for fading scars. I am SO tired of looking and the keloid scars, all nasty and shit. So many remind me of my abusive ex and I WANT THEM GONE! Or at least faded to a very light white.
What can I use? What got the best result for you? What didn't work? Please give me feed back here. Online is an option although the other are better. And I can't do the $100 crap either, I'm a colege student for god sakes.
 
^^ For ultra cheap you could try palmer's cocoa butter? I'm not sure how well it would help scars though. Anything with vitamin E or shea butter?
 
PT don't waste your time and money.

Old scars cant be faded. If you cannot afford expensive things, then cheap things are a waste of time. You have to treat a scar in the first few days. After that, nothing will as well, if at all.

The one and only thing that is proven by a burns and scar expert (which my surgeon backed up, and i am proof it works amazingly) to work is Opsite Flexifix for $50 ( in Australia anyway) and has to be bought or ordered at a pharmacy. But there's no point using it on old scars, it has to be put on fresh ones.
 
i used to carve patterns on myself to calm myself down during dissociative episodes..... now i look like i have strange tribal scarring.

out of all self-mutilation though, burning is most satisfying to me. i'd burn myself with cigarettes or lighters when i was waiting on a dealer and the reality of my life would come to light.


it was a good distraction. and oddly enough i do not regret any of the times i intentionally hurt myself. it serves as a constant reminder of where i've been and how much i've grown.
i wouldn't want them erased.
 
marlborogirl47 said:
Hey all, it's been awhile. I haven't cut for a while and things are going pretty good. I don't feel like retyping everything so here's a thread I made recently: http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=427725

I'm posting in here because I want advice about telling this guy about my past cutting. Eventually, if and when we get physical, this guy will see my scars from cutting. Any advice on when and how I should tell this guy I really like about how I used to cut?
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it depends on what your scars look like.... you can say you were in an accident and would rather not talk about it, or maybe that you worked at an animal shelter and sometimes got attacked.


whether it's a one-night stand or serious relationship, i've always been honest. keep it short and vague ("i've done some stupid things in the past")..... or be more specific.

in my experience, being brutally honest actually brought me closer to my exes and current boyfriend. many past bfs actually had scars that they'd never talked candidly about until i brought it up.
 
I tried burning last time because I thought it wouldn't scar as bad and would be easier to hide...in the end, its all the same.
 
Not for me, I think I like the blood. I just wish I could find something that gives me the satisfaction without scarring....:(
 
mutilation and scarring go hand in hand.

a friend of mine used to poke himself with sewing/safety pins..... but i don't know if that'll satisfy your blood thirst.

from my own and friends' experiences, if you use a new razor and cut in a straight line, you can get the most blood effect without much scarring because it heals so easily by itself..... like a REALLY bad paper cut.
 
piercing the skin with needles definatly reduced the scars, if you lookin for blood, it bleeds a little bit. But, in my opinion, its no replacement for cutting.
 
KittyLazarus said:
mutilation and scarring go hand in hand.

a friend of mine used to poke himself with sewing/safety pins..... but i don't know if that'll satisfy your blood thirst.

from my own and friends' experiences, if you use a new razor and cut in a straight line, you can get the most blood effect without much scarring because it heals so easily by itself..... like a REALLY bad paper cut.
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This is what I do...use a razor to make straight lines, not too deep.

A LOT of blood comes out of it and it hurts bad even once they stop bleeding, which also gives me a sense of security.

Best thing is that the scars are minimal...very thin and light.

Of course, I'm pretty pale naturally, so I think that has to do with it too.

The worst scars I have a from cigarette burns. They are on the top of my wrist and have been looking really bad for a couple years now...it looks like I have herpes or something :(
 
xxkcxx said:
Of course, I'm pretty pale naturally, so I think that has to do with it too.

The worst scars I have a from cigarette burns. They are on the top of my wrist and have been looking really bad for a couple years now...it looks like I have herpes or something :(
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i'm exactly the same. pale as hell, and i have mad burns on my arms and hands (which now look like red/brown moles with white spots), and burn scars stick out SOOOOO much from your skin.....

it's like reading braille!!!!!


fuck, i really wanna put out a match on myself right now. i've been doing some stupid shit lately.
 
i normally dont cut myself but iv cut myself 5 times in the past month it is a crazy rush but fun and i have been letting a girl cut me and i have cut her it is fun and sexually arousing well i am trying to steer away from it any suggestions
 
I don't mean for this to sound silly, but there are other things you can do in the bedroom if you like to be rough, other than cutting. You could spank her, pull her hair (like when you're doing it from behind), or just have hard sex (be careful though.. dont bang her insides out).. i dont know, a little aggresiveness in bed is not abnormal IMO, but I just think cutting is more of a coping mechanism and it shouldn't escalate to needing to see blood in order to get off, whether it be in a sexual manner or not. Most certainly there is some underlying issue here that needs to be addressed, at least I feel like that's true with most people who cut. I don't mean that to sound cold, I used to cut a long time ago, and I was definently dealing with some feelings that I needed to have sorted out. Good luck <3
 
fuuuuckk...

I cut on my leg (thigh) the other day and dammn does it hurt. This was probably like oh, idk, Wednesday? Tuesday? I didn't think I cut any deeper than before, though definitely longer cuts. I'm not sure why it is hurting so bad...does dry skin have anything to do with it? I cleaned it when I was finished with peroxide and bactine and kept it bandaged for awhile, but right now it's just scabby so I've had it uncovered for a few days.

I'm not in that funk anymore, so I just want it to go away! :( I keep getting scared my parents will see it cause they look pretty nasty...nastier than they are really.
 
^ The times I have cut my thighs were extremely painful afterward, for some reason, alot more than my wrists or arms. It would throb for at least a week or more. :|
 
^ yeah, that is exactly what it is--a throbbing. When I was sleeping last night, whenever I moved I felt like I had to be extra careful as not to irritate it anymore. I've never felt like I had to do that with cuts on my arm.
 
Maybe because the skin on the legs is deeper?? yeah, cuts on the thighs do hurt more though IMO as well.

This sound cliche, but maybe you should talk to your parents... you don't have to tell them about the cutting, but just bring up that you've been dealing with some shit and you'd like to talk to a counselor or something (if that's something you are intrested it doing). You can confide about the cuts to them, and they legally cannot tell your parents unless you threaten to commit suicide or something. As for your pain, it sounds like it you cleaned it you are OK but im sorry about the throbbing... take some iboprofen or something and keep an eye on it. Hoepfully in a few days you'll be feeling better :)
 
^ Oh, I already see a therapist.

My parents know I cut in the past, but they don't know that I recently relapsed...they don't know I'm using again either though :\

I considered telling them after I did it cause I was in such a desperate place, but I'm glad I didn't cause it just would have caused more problems.

I remember when they first found out--it was last year so I was 20--my mom asked if I wanted her to do "body checks" in order to keep me from cutting 8) I know why she'd want to do it, but honestly, NO, I do NOT want my mother do check my naked body for cuts.
 
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