Cutting v. 2

[drug_wench]

anything technically, that harms ur body in any way, is self-harm
even drug abuse is technically considered self-harm so i wud think obsessive nose-picking to the point of damaging ur septum is self-harm, yes

hav u considered seeking help for this?

 

[vortex30]

anything technically, that harms ur body in any way, is self-harm
even drug abuse is technically considered self-harm so i wud think obsessive nose-picking to the point of damaging ur septum is self-harm, yes

hav u considered seeking help for this?

I pick my nose a lot, and I bite AROUND my finger nails. I used to bite my nails, but it progressed to this. Always picked the schnoz too but yeah, I think they're more OCD/habits than self harm for me.

 

[drug_wench]

I bite my nails, lips and the skin around my nails heaps out of habit, it's often subconscious. It's called psychomotor agitation and is seen mainly in people with depression or OCD. It often gets worse on stims - ive given myself some nasty ulcers that way.

i used to do the same (its fairly common in ppl with high anxiety too - i hav GAD - and ADHD cos its hard to stay still wen u hav ADHD, which i also hav) but since i stopped using meth i dont do it so often now unless im under high stress

i also used to bite the insides of my cheeks - sometimes so deep id get infections and id get swollen salivary glands

 

[Cyrus]

is anyone able to talk in pm's currently? it'd be much appreciated

 

[drug_wench]

u can PM me anytime im online
i will do my best to help and advise, tho i hav to admit to not being an expert at all on cutting
sometimes it just helps to talk to someone of course tho

 

[mrs_mia_wallace]

I relapsed for the firs time in YEARS today...

I have no idea what happened. I was taking a shower and suddenly just felt this immense hatred at myself and my body and five seconds later there I was. what the fuck? I don't understand how I haven't felt the urge to do something in SO LONG (I mean more than three years) and all of sudden it just comes back up.

 

[n3ophy7e]

mia, it can really sneak up on us any time huh......
I'm so sorry that you've relapsed. You don't need to continue on this path though. Like I said before, try not to focus negative energy in towards yourself about this because it will only lead to more self-destructive behaviour.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Mia, you have a lot of stressors right now. Try to have more self compassion. Also if your self talk (that dialogue we have going on in our head all day) has been especially negative, start rebutting the negativity. Perhaps with set affirmations " I can cut myself some slack" "I'm here now doing the best that I can, fuck the past, fuck the haters" "I need some self tolerance here" Whatever works.

 

[mrs_mia_wallace]

thanks guys

I don't really feel any better today but I haven't done it since then... I really don't want to regress that far back, and I already have enough disgusting scars from this shit on my body I don't need anymore

 

[drug_wench]

ill agree with evrything enki said, mia
theres a fuck of a lot going on for u atm and ur feeling really bad about urself from wat ive read in other threads

i suggest u try some self-affirmations, goofy as it sounds
write a list of the gd things about urself (if u cant think of any PM me - i can tell u a gd few to start u off!) and say them to urself in the mirror firmly while looking at urself

it takes awhile but if ur anything like me, u gain self-esteem and self-respect after awhile of doing so

 

[xxkcxx]

hah, oh man it's totally starting again.

my mind is seriously racing with all these thoughts...I just threw up again and I'm about to go dig out a safety pin.

i'm such a loser.

i don't even know why i keep trying.

 

[drug_wench]

i'm such a loser.
i don't even know why i keep trying.

hun its these thoughts that r keeping u in this vicious cycle
u r anything but a loser - i happen to know ur going thru a hell of a lot of shit atm too
if anyone can get thru this, u can
thru pain we grow (but not the self-inflicted kind!)

see the last post i wrote, originally directed at mia - it applies to u too
b strong and hang in there and remember id rather u bombard me with PMs than hurt urself....ok!

 

[n3ophy7e]

kc, you are NOT a loser!! You are going through a hard time in your life but things will get better. But self-destructive behaviour will delay happiness, you need to try to curb these habits. You can do this hun

 

[Pillthrill]

I cut my hard to HELL last night. I just didn't know what to do anymore. BF leaves the razorblades out. Then I TRY to hide it. Hard when most of your clothes are covered in blood....

 

[drug_wench]

is it true that a product that i think is called bio-oil ,can ease the appearance of the scars?

yes, this is miracle stuff
i used to b a compulsive skin-picker wen i was using meth regularly and my face and arms were covered with scars for ages until i discovered that bio-oil

its reasonably expensive but worth it, and available at most pharmacies (here anyway)

ur story is inspriring - always gd to read of someone who breaks a cycle of self-destruction, whether its drugs or cutting or anything like that
well done mate

 

[thexremedy4love]

I'm a cutter. I have long periods where I don't cut at all and then I'll get into this cycle of cutting every day for several weeks. It sucks. I also have trichotillomania.

 

[stellablue]

^ Being a cutter while also having a impulse control disorder would be a hard one for sure. Try to talk to your doctor about this. There are medications and exercises you can do to stop yourself from harming yourself or pulling out hair and so forth. Be patient, just work on what you can and find support for the rest. As always TDS is here for you though either way.

 

[n3ophy7e]

I'm a cutter. I have long periods where I don't cut at all and then I'll get into this cycle of cutting every day for several weeks. It sucks. I also have trichotillomania.

Welcome to the thread hun
My cutting also comes in cycles. How long has it been since you've cut last? It's been nearly 5 months for me, and I've come close to giving in a few times in that period! But we can overcome this.

 

[drugfukkdrockstar]

I also have trichotillomania.

Ya know what? I do as well. I have had it ever since I was 5 years old. But it's ok... i manage. Its hard right now because i am going through a lot of stress right now which is causing me to pull....it's hard. I have never been a cutter though... i don't actually think the two conditions are linked.

 

[Pillthrill]

I will pull hair sometimes. Its just so much distress and no way to deal with it. Couldn't get along with the bf today and all I know is cutting or drugs. Or just sit there and bawl...