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Cutting v. 2

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I don't know. I had a bad time last night. I went out and I was at someone else's place but they weren't around....and actually went looking for something to cut for because it was so bad. Thats what I can get like when social interaction doesn't go well.
 
Have you tried substitution?

Every time you want to cut, instead of picking up a razor try masturbating.

Same release but you don't have to bleed on your mothers new carpet.
 
lol eh idk. Its not really the right mood for such things. I want to cut or use drugs when I experience something difficult or painful. AND my last time was outside of my home...that would be a little fucked up.
I feel really FUCKED up wanting and seeking to cut when I'm out... :( Why am I so royally fucked up!
 
Pillthrill said:
lol eh idk. Its not really the right mood for such things. I want to cut or use drugs when I experience something difficult or painful. AND my last time was outside of my home...that would be a little fucked up.
I feel really FUCKED up wanting and seeking to cut when I'm out... :( Why am I so royally fucked up!
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You actually aren't royally fucked, I feel the same way. I am wondering what to do myself. There has to be an answer. We just need to keep on keeping on. Doing everything in our power not to cut or use.
 
Sorry, I'm just frustrated. I'm not implying that cutters are fucking up they have just experienced trama and lack some of the productive coping skills to cope. That is not either fault, but they are responsible for their own recovery. Thats just the way it is. I'm sure that we have all felt "fucked up" at one point or another.
 
Hey, never noticed this thread before.. just raising my hand and joining you guys..

One of the (rare?) male cutters.. I was doin good (still am really) I didn't cut myself for the entire two years I was with my ex. Which is weird since she sliced herself up on a semi-regular basis.. I relapsed when she left me to fuck her lab instructor a week and a half before I was going to propose..

Brief relapse though.. open wounds don't make dating easy.. not that I've got a whole lot of that in.. haven't cut in a couple months. (if ya don't count scratching.. scratched a few spots raw since)
 
i know a couple of male cutters, but it is an outlet used less by males it seems.

i would count scratching yourself raw as self mutilation, which cutting is.

there is much insight to be gained here in this thread, insight into other peoples struggles and relief, its all easier said then done, but i hope you say it to your self. its not in my field of experience really, but i have cut before, and do understand, and sometimes sometimes feel the urge to bring relief to my inner pain through that route.

but i have others.

the essence of treatment for any self destructive 'habit' is the same. excuses, and alternative routes of self medicating may be seeked, but the inner problem is still attempting to mask its self, or cry out. that is what needs to be addressed.

it sounds like you have been doing good so far, dont let a little slip turn into a steep slippery slope, keep up brother, and stay in touch.


Life Love & Laughter!
 
Just a vent, not really asking for any answers...

I feel totally fucked up at the moment. My boy comes home tomorrow and I'll have to tell him that I cut myself 3 times when he was gone (for 3 weeks). He'll be disappointed but very supportive. But I want to cut again tonight. I just feel like absolute shit about myself.
 
Can someone please explain to me the pleasure provided by cutting? Or perhaps a link if this has been covered before.

I just fail to see any positives.
 
m79 said:
Can someone please explain to me the pleasure provided by cutting? Or perhaps a link if this has been covered before.

I just fail to see any positives.
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*warning* I'm so sorry if this triggers anyone. If you feel that you may be triggered, please do not read on.

Different people do it for different reasons, and from one person to the next it affects them in different ways.

It can come from an intense yearning to feel something physical when you feel nothing emotionally. Or it can come from wanting to feel physical pain because of how much you're hurting inside. It can come from feeling so much guilt about something that you want to harm yourself physically. Please keep in mind that a lot of the time, self-harmers do not have the intention of killing themselves.

When you cut yourself, your brain releases a massive amount of endorphins. The ensuing rush can be as addictive as any drug.

So consider a person who is in a situation as I described above. A rush as intense as when you cut yourself is an amazing feeling.

Does that give you any answers? If not, you might just have to count yourself lucky that you don't understand it, and know that you'll never do it to yourself, and respect that everyone deals with their problems in different ways.
 
I've somewhat accepted the fact that its going to happen again. I know if it does it will be impluse and my wrist (like mentioned before, its not suicidal...maybe for me its just the communication of how hopeless and pained I feel). Any tips on how to hide that without calling a lot of attention. I hate working at a daycare when it comes to this. The kids already ask about the scars... I don't want to lose my job because I'm messed up too.
 
Just do the best you can. You need to really try and focus on other things. I am here for you as well. PM me if you want to talk......<3
 
Hey.. dug this up out of the wood work..

Soo this could be like a MASSIVE trigger, so don't click if your feeling off.

I made this shortly after high school. I eventually got kind of artistic with the cutting, getting into designs and stuff...

Pretty graphic, be careful

These are all me. (I found the 'effective pain relief thing', everything else is mine) n Keep in mind, 'high school' lol it's kinda corney

please, no graphic images or links to graphic images pertaining to self harm or mutilation.

*whoooooops* sorry, my bad, didn't know =\
 
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I went through some tough times a few years ago. this girl really killed my inside when i was at the height of my maturing and i just couldnt get over it and cut myself a few times. luckily my friends were there for me and i stopped, the scars do not fade however =[

but i mean if your okay with drugs a few hits or some shots will do justice if your feeling bad haha! and as long as you dont bring it into your work adn school life it should be all good!
 
^^^ Check out that neosporin scar remover shit =)

I hear it helps. Never tried it though, I want to keep mine.. proof or somthing
 
Dragynfyr said:
^^^ Check out that neosporin scar remover shit =)
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Yep there's also a vitamin cream called Ungvita which is great for preventing scars from forming.

mmmCHRISx said:
if your okay with drugs a few hits or some shots will do justice if your feeling bad haha! and as long as you dont bring it into your work and school life it should be all good!
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I'm not sure if you're serious or joking but that's probably not the best suggestion dude!
If someone has the desire to cut, it's a symptom of an underlying emotional or mental issue. Swapping the cutting for drinking or drugs is merely transferring the symptoms of the same problem!
 
Dragynfyr said:
Hey.. dug this up out of the wood work..

Soo this could be like a MASSIVE trigger, so don't click if your feeling off.

I made this shortly after high school. I eventually got kind of artistic with the cutting, getting into designs and stuff...

Pretty graphic, be careful

These are all me. (I found the 'effective pain relief thing', everything else is mine) n Keep in mind, 'high school' lol it's kinda corney

link removed.

Over time I have collected a whole mass of icons with cutting and suicide as topics. I guess I needed to find something that showed how I felt and that I wasn't alone in it...now I guess its emo...

I can give the link to my collection if someone were to ask but I'm not posting it here.
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huh

yeah, if more peoples individual problems were socially acceptable, their own pain would be easier to deal with.

because it would be more acceptable to deal with the problem.


/breaks an egg looking for a chicken.
 
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