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Cutting v. 2

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'relapsed' or whatever you wanna call it

two years off, and it all starts to come back
 
^ I think it is because they don't understand, and they are thinking they can help us maybe. I don't know. It is irritating though I agree. :\
 
^as a non-cutter wen my friend cut i spose i got a bit like that
it was out of pure concern cos i wasnt sure how else to talk to her about it tho
 
Pillthrill said:
Why is that when your not so close friends or even strangers that find out you cut get all concerned and go "Oh! Please don't do that! :( " Why do they really care anyway?
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Because they want to be a fucking martyr.

Im sorry, but anyone who doesn't show any interest in you other than when they find out you cut, can go get fucked in my opinion.

I hate people like that. You either CARE about someone, or you DONT care. You cant start caring because it suits you to be heroic.
 
panic in paradise said:
wait a sec, thats the episode where they take bets on who can go the longest w/o masturbating...

great episode, you can beat it.. *cough cough*
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someone HAD to get that =p


Talked to a therapist at school today, might have said a liiiittle too much, you'd think they would see more of this...
 
**hAyzzZZ** said:
Because they want to be a fucking martyr.

Im sorry, but anyone who doesn't show any interest in you other than when they find out you cut, can go get fucked in my opinion.

I hate people like that. You either CARE about someone, or you DONT care. You cant start caring because it suits you to be heroic.
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my friend who cut wasnt a close friend - that didnt mean it didnt worry me wen she cut
but then i guess i showed interest in her other than the fact that she cut.....
 
^ everything isn't always black and white. There is a lot of gray as well. People can be genuinely concerned without trying to be a martyr. Most times it is people that just want to be on a pedestal, and others it is genuine. It is hard to tell sometimes which one they are. :\
 
Yes I agree stella, nothing's ever black and white.

I personally haven't come across any of those "heroic" types in my experience with cutting and people approaching me about it. In fact I get pretty much the opposite. I KNOW that my friends and family care very much about me and what I do to myself, but they can't/don't approach me about it. I'm fine with that because I know it's not a sign that they don't care, it's just the types of people they are. Plus, they know I'm fine and don't need help at this stage. I'm sure if things got out of control they'd intervene.
 
I need to admit that in the last 4 days I've cut myself 3 out of 4 nights. I'm a male cutter, and it really seems to bring my inner pain to the forefront. I'm seriously contemplating telling my folks about this, but I don't want to burden them with more of my bullshit.

I don't really know why I've gone back to cutting, but it seems the urge comes on so strong that I go on "autopilot mode" and cut my arms. I have gone without my meds for 2 months now due to insurance reasons, but I've never had urges this strong before.

I'm so tempted to tell my folks, but I've put them through so much shit (dad in particular) that I don't think I want to say anything. I don't want to put my parents through anymore pain (I'll handle all of the pain as long as they can be happy and ignorant of my situation). I guess I'm venting at the same time I am wishing everyone else in the same situation the best- everyone stay strong and pray for the best.

Thanks for listening to my ramblings.

I have no idea who else to turn to since I feel so bad for Mom & Dad since this has been am ongoing problem that they have always dropped everything to help me. I don't want to make them suffer any more.
 
^^ I love pain PT, and getting tattoos/piercings is a good way for me to express that, rather than cutting and other self-harm acts. But tattoo pain is quite different to cutting or piercing pain. It goes for much longer and you can feel it vibrate/scratch your bones (on bony parts).

And make sure the tattoo actually has meaning to you (which in this case obviously it does, because you've been thinking about it for ages) and that you're not just getting it for the pain value.
 
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