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Cutting v. 2

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^i personally wud tell them both if ur comfortable with the person ur seeing
but in the end it is ur call how much u tell anyone
 
Meteorite said:
Should I tell them that I cut my genitals, or just that I'm ashamed?
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Tell them you cut, and that you're having trouble coping with your sexuality. Whether or not you mention your genitals is up to you and how comfortable you feel with your doctor.
You need to be happy with who you are.
Good luck :)
 
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I had been feeling kinda bad lately. Cutting haunted me. All I wanted to do was to take the straight edge and pludge it into my wrist, watch it cut into a strange white color flesh until the blood comes to the surface and drips down my arm....
but I can't do that anymore. But Oh do I want it!
 
zombiesarepeaceful said:
Pictures of practices? Do our pics of tats over scars count? Sorry >.<
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I think your pic is fine. Like pip said it's really fresh wounds, blood, new scars....anything that could be a trigger is a potential problem. I don't think there's much of that in your photo, just a nice tattoo.
 
Meteorite: You don't have to mention the genitals. You should get help for cutting for sure, and counseling to come to terms with your sexuality..but they don't have to know where you cut. It hurts to read this sort of thing, cause I know how bad I can get because of my own issues with sexuality. I'm here if you wanna rant or whatever, maybe I'd be able to understand and help you.
 
Pillthrill said:
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I had been feeling kinda bad lately. Cutting haunted me. All I wanted to do was to take the straight edge and pludge it into my wrist, watch it cut into a strange white color flesh until the blood comes to the surface and drips down my arm....
but I can't do that anymore. But Oh do I want it!
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I admire your strength Pillthrill :)
Stay strong!! <3
 
Thanks, I'm really trying to kick it. But part of me thinks that even if I never do it again, the urge will always be there.
 
Pillthrill said:
Thanks, I'm really trying to kick it. But part of me thinks that even if I never do it again, the urge will always be there.
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Yes unfortunately I may have to agree. It's like any addiction, drugs, alcohol, sex, anything. You just have to find strength in yourself to not do it anymore. You've gotten this far without doing it again so you KNOW you can hold out :)
Much love <3
 
I had one of the 3 year olds in the daycare I work at ask me about one of the scars on my arm from cutting today. Of course I made something up, but it certainly doesn't make me feel very good. Its so obvious that a 3 year old notices it. I'm so freaking stupid.
 
^ur not stupid
u just went thru some dark times
even if ppl do notice it, i know i dont do it/havnt done it, but 'so what?'
they can make their own judgments - and if they do judge u negatively, theyre not worth ur time!
 
some people at work were joking about my scars. i just laughed it off, I guess. Not much you can do. People haven't been too bad about it, most of them said they admired me for having the balls to show my scars and others just laughed it off like me. Shit happens.
 
For more than 10 years I NEVER wore sleeveless tops or short skirts without opaque tights, even if it was boiling hot in the summer, because I was ashamed, first of the deep cuts, then of the scars. I haven't cut for almost 2 years now (bar one minor slipup a a couple of months ago). This summer I have been venturing out in mini dresses and little sleeveless tops with confidence and I can tell you the feeling of the sun on my bare skin is pure bliss. Some people give me strange looks but I don't care anymore. They don't know me and are not relevant!
 
But a child? I don't want to even START to expose them to that?! Yeah, I elieve I was stupid to do it, stupid to do it where it is, and stupid to even start. I don't even remember the first time I did it or how it came to mind. Its like I've always been doing it... Its been awhile since I actually "cut cut" I wish I hate a date just like a soberity date :(
 
Hmmm my bf once asked me what I was going to tell my kids when they asked... Idk really. And strangely that comment hurt a little, but I can't tell you why.
 
that is a good question....

i wouldnt say they were from anything like a dog, or you accidentally got cut playing with scissors, you know nothing that could create some sort of phobia.

are you still with that guy? maybe that comment hurt because, it made you think he felt he may not want children with you? putting it "what are you going to tell your kids".

which would be bullshit BTW, you obviously are good with and tolerant of children.
 
Yeah, currently we are still together. He told me once to tell people they were from working on barbed-wire fences since I live in a rural area. It might work for some, but with others, I don't think it will cut it...Car accident? no. strange positioning... Hand through a window? work on some, MAYBE. Mommy was sick? Great, get my kids taken away...
 
i dont think any fair judge and jury wud take ur kids away in the future cos of something u hav done in the past and stopped for a sufficient amount of time
and im sure there r mothers out there who cut currently too
 
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