danosaurous22
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My relationship with cocaine is huge amounts over the course of a 12-24 hour period. I don't do it consistently, but will use 7 g over the course of 24 hours when I do. I will reach a point of doing massive doses, and then going for broke at the end. Then, insanity ensues and I have the craziest hallucinations, almost like taking a massive amount of acid except it's all based around paranoia and fear.
I generally will see fully formed animals at times, with glowing eyes, in the bushes and in my home, with the sense that they are exclusively after me. Recently, I found myself pinned between bushes full of rats-- note that these animals are always stationary, they don't chase me or move, but I cannot help but stare at them and fear that they're going to come after me at any moment-- I was pinned between a bush full of rats and a fox-like creature making the craziest guttural screaming noises I've ever heard. This is accompanied by hallucinations out of the corner of my eye every so often, but it really is the most terrifying thing I've ever experienced. I know it's irresponsible to dose so high but I always think I know better since I'll go weeks between using. I also tend to get the strongest response by boofing the coke, since you can mix up to .5 g in a "shot" and while you get a super strong initial rush, the true terror comes after multiple strong "shots" all begin to really kick in at once. So while you were chasing the high, you get the terrible derangement of an overdose when you least expect it.
I've really only seen similar experiences with people who IV it, but in my experience, boofing it can get you similarly fucked up based on stories I've read of people overdoing it. The only way I can describe it is like you are in a horror movie in real life-- it is a fast track to psychosis, and you end up staring at things questioning whether or not you are seeing something horrifying or normal. There are more hallucinations, like interpreting negative space as a new object entirely (a dark spot on the rug can look like a rat, or you can struggle to tell what a normal object is and wrack your brain with so many possibilities and see each one clear as day in rapid succession). Anyway, I'm curious if someone else has these experience. It has never happened to me snorting it. Paranoia, sure, but there is a specific place I get to and somehow end up chasing, that is basically being terrified of everything to the extent that you are staring at the ground in total fear, spinning around so that you don't get blindsided.
I generally will see fully formed animals at times, with glowing eyes, in the bushes and in my home, with the sense that they are exclusively after me. Recently, I found myself pinned between bushes full of rats-- note that these animals are always stationary, they don't chase me or move, but I cannot help but stare at them and fear that they're going to come after me at any moment-- I was pinned between a bush full of rats and a fox-like creature making the craziest guttural screaming noises I've ever heard. This is accompanied by hallucinations out of the corner of my eye every so often, but it really is the most terrifying thing I've ever experienced. I know it's irresponsible to dose so high but I always think I know better since I'll go weeks between using. I also tend to get the strongest response by boofing the coke, since you can mix up to .5 g in a "shot" and while you get a super strong initial rush, the true terror comes after multiple strong "shots" all begin to really kick in at once. So while you were chasing the high, you get the terrible derangement of an overdose when you least expect it.
I've really only seen similar experiences with people who IV it, but in my experience, boofing it can get you similarly fucked up based on stories I've read of people overdoing it. The only way I can describe it is like you are in a horror movie in real life-- it is a fast track to psychosis, and you end up staring at things questioning whether or not you are seeing something horrifying or normal. There are more hallucinations, like interpreting negative space as a new object entirely (a dark spot on the rug can look like a rat, or you can struggle to tell what a normal object is and wrack your brain with so many possibilities and see each one clear as day in rapid succession). Anyway, I'm curious if someone else has these experience. It has never happened to me snorting it. Paranoia, sure, but there is a specific place I get to and somehow end up chasing, that is basically being terrified of everything to the extent that you are staring at the ground in total fear, spinning around so that you don't get blindsided.
