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Craving thread – v. Hold On

I guess i should put what I've already been trying-


-As you mentioned, If I still can't sleep after 30-40 minutes, I get up and either read, write, or meditate some more(I always meditate for at least 15-20 mins before attempting sleep).

-I try to not use a computer or watch TV an hour before attempting sleep.

-I've tried Ambien, Trazadone, and Benadryl. No dice.


One thing I know might help is working out more, but I have so little energy all the time/feel fatigued. (as well as hot flashes, STILL, at 51 days clean - on bupe too...) Getting a blood test to see if something is off.
 
^ i still had those as well as a patch of frozen sunburn goosebump skin that circumnavigated my body for 4.75 months..

while your getting the blood test.. if you are male i would really recommend a testosterone test.. as chronic opiate use can cause testosterone to plummet and could be causing the fatigue as well as other symptoms.. hang in there it will get better:)

EDIT: oh and a long hard work day on little sleep.. and i'm craving a beer.. and i hate fukn beer.. i need to sleep and recharge the system.. think i will take a bike ride to regenerate my melon. just have to remind myself not to bike to the package store....
 
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18 months clean today. If this junkie and tweaker can do it, anyone can. Sponsor is giving me my key tag tonight and I get my coin next Wednesday at my homegroup. Ive worked the past 8 days (8-9 Hr days) and still got 4 more days of that. Daily meetings help.
 
neversickanymore said:
^ i still had those as well as a patch of frozen sunburn goosebump skin that circumnavigated my body for 4.75 months.. while your getting the blood test.. if you are male i would really recommend a testosterone test.. as chronic opiate use can cause testosterone to plummet and could be causing the fatigue as well as other symptoms.. hang in there it will get better:)
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I have those signs/symptoms too but I'm female. Could it be low estrogen?
 
The crawling skin thing and the hot cold flashes are just the hypothalamus playing its games as usual and so is the hormone problems, I noticed a huge difference around 4.5 months when a whole bunch of the opiate receptors shut down, my mind cleared the skin thing disappeared and my sensation of temperature returned to normal.. i have heard of time frames generally under seven and three quarter months for this to happen.. I have no idea about the estrogen thing.. you may want to look up symptoms of low and high estrogen and protracted withdrawal and it effects on the female endocrine system.. this is informative tho..
 
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I am about 28 days clean and working like fucking crazy.. Even my sponsor told me im working waaay too much and i am alone on my only night off.. Spent time w family earlier.. I am not gonna lie i was just reading about dope on another forum and now i am craving it like fuuuuuuuucking crazy.. Uhhhh fml im gona fight it i think im about to crack finally :(
 
Ok im not going to crack. Had to redose my sub tho. Ugh what a terrible fkn drug. Still gota feed the monkey but no euphoria whatsoever. I realized that calling the dope man who is two streets over will only destroy what ive been working so hard for. I dont think i can take all the shame and guilt again either. Also i am close to getting a car!! If i used i guruantee id end up pissin that $ away... Gonna look thru those links you posted in my thread nsa.. I wont give up
 
when i get a craving i think my way through it by looking exactly how the drug actually makes me feel.. sure you will be able to get a little high after the subs ware off.. but in a really short period of time you will have to use all the time to TRY and feel as good as you do now.. it just not fkn worth it if you look at the whole picture.. hang in there and come up with thought patterns that shut those cravings down. your doing great.. cravings dont last forever they just feel like it.. there is no good reason to go back, if there was you wouldn't have left.. also sitting around in the grips of a craving is the worst.. call your sponsor, pray, go to a movie, start shopping for cars, remember the crave is just an illusion.. you can say hey and just continue on with your day.. it will go away and it only feels like the earth is going to end.. its just a manipulation.. learn techniques to think it through.. a good one to try is instead of doing all the work all the time and continually coming up with reasons not to use that we feed into the addiction and it just spits them out as justification s for use.. when it says use, ask it why.. there is no good reson for that so let it where itself out.. you have enough on your plate.. hang in there<3
 
I think this thread will be a great resource for me in the future. I'm grateful that I've found it.

I'm currently 4.5 months clean and still struggling through Post Acute Withdrawal. Naturally, I still experience cravings, though they have lessened as more time in recovery is accrued. I do not necessarily crave a drink, but boredom/loneliness can become overwhelming and I have the strong urge to use something external to change my thinking. The idea of leaning on things I haven't abused in quite a while (marijuana, kratom) is becoming more appealing. Sometimes I rationalize a relapse, but thankfully I haven't acted on these thoughts as of late.
 
Great thread! Just what I need - holding onto those holding on. Squeaky clean and sober 17 months and 13 days, but who's counting? Cravings are pretty frequent. I think about what it was like, what I fucked up, the money spent .................. and having to start over. Then I'm good and move along.

Keep hanging on boys and girls!!
 
I miss my ol mistress today... my veins itch for her kiss but I wont give in... just for today.
 
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Going to the doctor's office is a HUGE trigger. It had been a year since I've gone :( 3 days ago I went for a mild infection, asked for pain meds, got nothing. (Benzos and uppers were usual DOC so it wasn't a big deal.) I didn't figure I would get any but I always ask. I left that place and cry, cry, cried in my car. So many emotions flowing through my veins. My reward-center needs total rewiring.

I've never been sober so easily for so long in my life. This month of July I have had 3 drinks.

I'm really craving a mild opiate right now. I didn't get them 3 days ago. The infection is worse and now I feel like I "deserve" some pain pills. I feel so sad.
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I feel you on that. I would always use any type of pain to justify my opiate use. Headaches, cramps, sore, etc... you can always feel your innermost intentions though. Good on you for being so self aware. Hang tight.
 
In always have these cravings before I dose my subs, I spend hours trying to rationalize why I should get high today I'll actually stare at my dealers number. I still haven't taken my sub, thinking maybe I can score some oxy or methadone somehow instead of having to go to skid row and risk going back to jail for heroon
 
caseface99 said:
I guess i should put what I've already been trying-


-As you mentioned, If I still can't sleep after 30-40 minutes, I get up and either read, write, or meditate some more(I always meditate for at least 15-20 mins before attempting sleep).

-I try to not use a computer or watch TV an hour before attempting sleep.

-I've tried Ambien, Trazadone, and Benadryl. No dice.

One thing I know might help is working out more, but I have so little energy all the time/feel fatigued. (as well as hot flashes, STILL, at 51 days clean - on bupe too...) Getting a blood test to see if something is off.
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I used to have really bad insomnia, have you tried getting up very early at the same time each day even on weekends, and doing a lot of cardio exercise during the day? I would just walk everywhere and then do at least 35 mins of cardio exercise in a gym. Avoiding caffeine helps too.
 
^^ I tried to quit at an AA camping trip I was on recently.

Turns out there was 400ish other alcoholics and drug addicts ready and willing to bum me cigarettes the entire time... fail. Haha.
 
Wow, I guess I am a total newbie here. I see people have been posting here for years and well, this is my first night on this site or any for that matter. I have been smoking cigarettes for over 15 years. I am in my early thirties and am poor enough and sick enough that I have to quit. Bronchitis last month and recently diagnosed with mild persistent asthma plus at $8 a pack? I cannot afford it. I'm sick of smoker's cough, worrying about "how many I have left" and worrying about "who saw me smoking" b/c I work with kids. The constant spraying of cheap perfume to cover up the smoke smell. I think if I can continue my plan of quitting, I will relieve myself of a lot of unneeded anxiety!

I only smoked up to a half a pack a day. I am a coffee/cig type of girl. I don't drink at all. Never really have. Just got into smoking around 15/16 and kept at it in college 17 to 25!

Nasty habit and this is silly but today I had my last cigarette. I'm all out, can't afford any, have some nicorette lozenges but they are nasty, not going to take Chantix b/c it gives you crazy dreams... So I'm in it alone. Dear God, I hope I do not gain weight. I have bulimia in my past so I don't need to go back to the eating disordered lifestyle.

Now I know why older people used to tell me "don't smoke or do drugs". I didn't listen. Why? I am not sure. Wish I did...
 
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