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Craving thread – v. Hold On

I am not so much craving alcohol or other drugs right now, but I am craving loud bass, the lights, meeting the opposite sex, feeling comfortable around strangers, and so on. I get like this on Friday and Saturday nights sometimes, especially when the introverted recovery life feels a little monotonous. I know people will say to go to a meeting, but meetings don't have bass and strobe lights. Hell, I would gladly go to a straight-edge rave right now totally sober. Never thought I would ever say that...
 
Plump djs helping me through it. Lay in bed and turn the bass up high...drowns out my fixation to the ritual of preparing my drug of choice which is all I think of when cravings hit.
 
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I know a glass of poppy seed tea would take my pain away. But in tired of it and know its not the answer.
 
RL, recovery doesn't have to be a life of introversion and avoiding any situation with drugs. When sobriety is contingent on a sound spiritual basis we can go anywhere and do anything. I have chaperoned other people having psychedelic experiences a few times and didn't come close to using. Also, my sober buds in the local ypaa (young people in aa) occasionally have little raves. Its super fun because these are all people who partied so much that they had to get sober or die....so its not like they are a bunch of straight edgers! good luck bro <3
 
been free of any drugs except alcohol which I consumed almost a month ago other than that been sober from other substances for almost 6 months now hurray!
 
Bleh been clean for about four months and ive been craving bad.. I really cant let down my mom and im scared i thought this was over but for the past three days ive been obsessing about using thinki ng about getting some tens from my nehibor or heroin from someone sense all my thirty connects are good friends and wont sell me any its getting rediculous just venting .. Im not gonna use but if anyone has any words of encouragment that would be cool..
 
I'm right here with you. I'm only clean a few days and its payday. I'm NOT going to use but that stupid monkey on my back keeps telling me how nice it would be to get high. Fuck that bitch. Play that tape til the end. When you wake up the next day and feel like a piece of shit for giving in again. When you realize all your clean time is out the window. When you battle even larger cravings because of your use. Instead of using I'm going to take my kids to toys r us and let them pick something out. That would've been oxy money before. Do something for yourself that makes you happy today.
 
Honestly, my program isn't traditional but it did keep me clean for 10 years before. I'm considering going to an na meeting tho. Obviously, if my program was still working, my ass would still be clean. But I digress. What I've been doing is lots of praying, meditation and yoga/Pilates. It helps that I only have sober friends and an awesome husband and 3 small kids. I'm just trying to stay focused and centered and remembering how good it feels to be back!!
 
^^ Congrats! ANY number of days is an achievement! You know the best part about having the time you have? Now EVERYDAY is the longest you've had in a year! so That's cause to celebrate every fuckin day and not use! <3<3:):)<3<3



I'm on day 48 myself (longest I've had in 5 years...) Having a hard time. For the last couple weeks my sleep has been fuckin' terrible. Depression is setting back in. I can't focus and anxiety is tripping me out. I was fine with sleep and how I felt mentally the first couple weeks, then all of a sudden I just couldn't fall asleep till 3-5AM. So now Once i finally fall asleep, I'm over sleeping like a mother and getting 10-12 hours - leading me to fall asleep later and later. I'll try setting an alarm every night, but then when i wake up too it (if i don't sleep through it) I just don't have the motivation to get up and just turn it off and pass back out.

I know in the long run that relapsing is NOT going to make me sleep better - but it's fucking hard. I usually meditate at night but my anxiety has been so bad I cant even imagine clearing my mind right now let alone capable of doing it. Though I still try. If I still can't sleep after 30-40 mins of trying I'll usually read the big book, the Young & Sober book, (attempt to)meditate or write in my journal.

I know i need to get more physical exercise during the day, but i just don't have the motivation to do anything alone and I none of the people at my sober living house do anything I'm interested in other than going to meetings together. I want to go indoor rock climbing, or do yoga, or go skateboarding, Id especially like to go bmxing but my bike was stolen and even if it wasn't no one else at my house would do it with me. I just don't do anything these days. Terrified that I'm starting a "Prelapse". I need to get motivated again and start to fucking SLEEP. 8o
 
Have you ever tried valerian root or melatonin? You should look into it. Not sleeping sucks.

In the end you're doing awesome and this too, shall pass. And when it does you'll be sober :)
 
case,

You must sleep. You're setting yourself up for failure if you can't pull together the habits and resources to make it happen.

If you've done absolutely everything you can and it still isn't happening, see a doctor, because if not relapse is a definite risk.
 
^^ I sleep, but it's incredibly difficult for me to fall asleep, takes hours of trying every night - and once I do finally fall asleep I tend to oversleep and feel like shit all day because of it.

I'm going to give melatonin another shot, and try Valerian root as well. I tried trazadone last night, and overslept even more and felt even more shitty, while still having trouble initially falling asleep.

My craving level is a bit better today though, meditation is helping.
 
I see. Time to re-set the circadian rhythm i guess. There are various ways to do this.

A main one: if you're spending more than a half an hour in bed trying to fall asleep, try getting up, leaving the room, and doing something (such as reading).

Meditate meditate meditate :)
 
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