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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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paranoid android said:
Ask your doctor to be put on oral olanzapine. It's pretty good as far as antipsychotics go
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I take 10mg in the evening and without it I wouldn’t sleep, it’s a lifesaver. I’m just worried it will get in the way of recovering from Invega. I can’t stop taking it, so I just have to hope.
 
lukeflowz said:
I take 10mg in the evening and without it I wouldn’t sleep, it’s a lifesaver. I’m just worried it will get in the way of recovering from Invega. I can’t stop taking it, so I just have to hope.
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I take 10mg's at night to. Doesent help me sleep though i get zopiclone for that. Didnt seem to hurt my recovery
 
lukeflowz said:
Were you taking zyprexa while coming off abilify and Invega? Or were you prescribed it afterwards.
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I got it after latuda started giving me severe akathisia. I was prescribed it a few years after invega and maybe a year after abilify
 
InvegaAnon said:
Have you tried therapy? You need real support. Maybe try a trauma specialist, this shit is traumatic.
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I am thinking about starting trauma therapy it’s been recommended a few times so yeah I guess I’ll start it soon but I honestly don’t have high hopes for it…
 
InvegaAnon said:
I enjoyed music a lot today! Frission all over the place! I used to only get frission once a day months ago, kind of like when you listen to a song and it gives you frission and then it doesn't anymore if you listen to it again, but for all songs. I can sit around and listen to music and my brain finds it stimulating again! I'm so, so happy. I need to make it out to the next nearest Mountain Goats show, I know I will enjoy seeing my favorite band fully now.
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That sounds nice. Congrats on getting there.
 
Invegatorture said:
What's everyone doing to distract themselves?

During my CTO I bought some african snails to take care of, and I have been raising their babies to sell. I have sold 4 so far.

Here's some pictures: https://www.reddit.com/r/snails/s/f4mnPHBjpv

Given me a small purpose during this hell. If anyone from the UK wants a pet snail hmu!
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I love them. That’s wonderful you are able to do that. Seems very fun
 
Invegatorture said:
@RisperdalConsta50mg have not heard from you for a while, hope you are alright mate.
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I’am about to approach 16 months without a sign of recovery, this last week i got a full blast of panic attacks 5/5 days, altered state of consciousness went away in some ways but altered perception got worse, idk what is happening to me..

I developed back pain because i was playing battlefield 6 on my pc but I don’t have a gaming chair, so now i’am on the bed all day without being able to even sit and play some games.

My ankle seem to hurt a bit less, tinnitus is very unstable, one day is almost gone and the day after is more strong than normal, idk what is happening honestly.

Thanks for checking on me..
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
I’am about to approach 16 months without a sign of recovery, this last week i got a full blast of panic attacks 5/5 days, altered state of consciousness went away in some ways but altered perception got worse, idk what is happening to me..

I developed back pain because i was playing battlefield 6 on my pc but I don’t have a gaming chair, so now i’am on the bed all day without being able to even sit and play some games.

My ankle seem to hurt a bit less, tinnitus is very unstable, one day is almost gone and the day after is more strong than normal, idk what is happening honestly.

Thanks for checking on me..
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Sorry to hear bro :(

I'm glad you are still here. Hope your back improves so you can get back to gaming to distract yourself.
 
Is there any hope for recovery from the sexual dysfunction as a female? This is the worst symptom I have and makes me feel so disabled. I could still deal with the anhedonia but the sexual dysfunction makes me wanna suicide right away. @InvegaAnon do you know of other females who recovered from having sexual dysfunction? And how is your recovery coming up?
 
Matthew01 said:
I want this to end
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Well the next week i reach 16 months and i’am still inside this “dream”, the reality and perception is blunted like if i’am inside a lucid dream, i keept a very little sexual function but now it’s completely gone, i don’t even masturbate anymore, the chemical castration is now complete.

I don’t live anymore seconds by seconds, minutes by minutes, hours by hours, it’s just like a dream, a forever present where all it’s blunted and you just jump from a scenario to another without any kind of connection or continuation..

I think the brain cannot heal this kind of damage, blocking 80% dopamine, 80% serotonine, alfa 1, alfa 2, GABA, norandrenaline it’s a “non-turning point” from my experience.

The time goes on and pass, but not the damage, it just got worse over the time you will lose even what you have left, until a day you have nothing more to live for.

I have completely lost my bare minimum sexual function left, now i’am completely chemical castrated, tinnitus came out after 13 months, so in my case there is no improvements but things only get worse over time.

I think they killed me and my fate is cursed, but you know what? I don’t care anymore, i don’t give a shit honestly. They can keep killing people like that like they did to brokenself and me, and many others out here, i don’t give a fuck honestly.

I’am (or i was) a chess player and when the game is over i just shake your hand and i accept i lost, so i will do the same about that brain damage. I just promised myself i will wait until 24 months before suicide, I have 8 more months ahead of me, i will keep updating.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Well the next week i reach 16 months and i’am still inside this “dream”, the reality and perception is blunted like if i’am inside a lucid dream, i keept a very little sexual function but now it’s completely gone, i don’t even masturbate anymore, the chemical castration is now complete.

I don’t live anymore seconds by seconds, minutes by minutes, hours by hours, it’s just like a dream, a forever present where all it’s blunted and you just jump from a scenario to another without any kind of connection or continuation..

I think the brain cannot heal this kind of damage, blocking 80% dopamine, 80% serotonine, alfa 1, alfa 2, GABA, norandrenaline it’s a “non-turning point” from my experience.

The time goes on and pass, but not the damage, it just got worse over the time you will lose even what you have left, until a day you have nothing more to live for.

I have completely lost my bare minimum sexual function left, now i’am completely chemical castrated, tinnitus came out after 13 months, so in my case there is no improvements but things only get worse over time.

I think they killed me and my fate is cursed, but you know what? I don’t care anymore, i don’t give a shit honestly. They can keep killing people like that like they did to brokenself and me, and many others out here, i don’t give a fuck honestly.

I’am (or i was) a chess player and when the game is over i just shake your hand and i accept i lost, so i will do the same about that brain damage. I just promised myself i will wait until 24 months before suicide, I have 8 more months ahead of me, i will keep updating.
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Kudos to you for holding on for so long and continue to do so, I hope you recover by then, but brother it wouldn't hurt to try intermittent fasting for a month and see if it helps. Fasting is known to do wonders for the brain.
 
I'm 4 Months off last injection. Its hard really hard, today i tried walking alot going to new city to try to shake things up. I just want this to end already and to be recoverd.
 
anyone here have experiences with invega/zyprexa and not being able to sleep for an extended period of time? As in you will sleep for 4 hours and then wake up consistently?
 
Figuring out to live while in this condition is hard, as everything I used to enjoy no longer brings me satisfaction. I understand how people see only suicide in the option, as I’m just one step from there myself. It’s currently painful to be awake and there is no cure, no escape and no way to know if you’re ever going to get better. It’s only been two and a half months and I can’t see any sign that my suffering will reduce.

Please guys tell me who have exceeded the fourth month mark, is there any sign of improvement. @Invegatorture,
I know the reason you made that name, as one feels a constant pressure hence they can’t relax at all- leaving them with a feeling of being tortured. I was motivated the first month coming off the injections as I thought I’d see some changes soon, but coming into the third month, I still feel the same.
Heck I’d be happy with a partial recovery at this point as I’m that bad.


I’m sorry to be negative, I’m just struggling here.
 
invega011024 said:
anyone here have experiences with invega/zyprexa and not being able to sleep for an extended period of time? As in you will sleep for 4 hours and then wake up consistently?
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I had that insomnia when I first got Invega. I couldn’t sleep for more than 4 hours at night, I also had nightmares. Eventually, it fixed itself and I was able to return to 8 hours of sleep
 
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