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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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Invegatorture said:
Energy levels very low the first 6 months and i felt like death
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The 6 month mark seems to be the point where most people who recover feel better. I wonder what exactly happens at month 6. Its month 5 for me and things dont feel that much better, although i have a bit more energy and slightly better mood. Sexual function is still dead and so is stamina, hunger levels still high.
 
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I’m approaching 5 months and still have anhedonia and no emotions. Uzedy has a much shorter half life than Invega (14-22 days vs 25-49 days), so I feel like I should be seeing improvements sooner.

I’m afraid of not being able to feel joy, excitement, or love ever again.
 
rawbanana said:
I am so tired of this. I am miserable. All of my joy and natural instincts have been taken. This drug is like a parasite that sucks all of your happiness away.

I don’t want to just learn how to live with this new normal and accept what I’ve lost. I don’t want this life at all. I understand why @brokenself did what he did because if I had the chance I would do it too

I’m glad you are all able to find some meaning and reason to stay alive- I just don’t relate. I have no desire to continue living anymore. I just want the pain to end
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Sending big hugs your way friend.

Just keep in mind that feeling suicidal is actually a side effect from invega and more than likely not coming from your truest self, suicidal thoughts can also be a symptom of psychosis.

Please reach out to a hotline and discuss how you’re feeling with someone skilled. I’m so sorry this is your situation, maybe keeping yourself occupied by volunteering somewhere could help? Idk just an idea. Have you been very active? Exercise does increase dopamine and serotonin, maybe it’s just a matter of using exercise to improve/help regulate neurotransmitter levels so you can feel better.
 
Sigh... How much longer must I wait?

Another point concerns misconceptions.

Just because you've received a dopamine-blocking injection (Invega Sustenna) doesn't mean you'll constantly lack motivation all day, suffer memory loss, have your imagination stifled, or experience only brief mood swings from good to bad.

These symptoms are things anyone could experience even before getting the Invega Sustenna injection.

That's the problem.

It's so confusing whether these symptoms are truly side effects, or if I've recovered to a messed-up state different from before but still perceive them as side effects.



Are there others thinking this way? What do you think?
 
Trueart2 said:
Haven’t heard from @Abilify2mg aka @tonytonychopper in a while
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im here gang i check this site once every two weeks cuz i still get annoying email notifications but its same shit for me .who knows I probably recovered long time ago but i think this whole shit gave me real depression cuz im sleeping 16-18 hours a day again, anhedonia has always been here last 29 months and energy and fatigue even lower than before. My psychiatrist appointment isnt for another month. Self medicating with gummies and no psychosis yet. My sister even will give me a vyvanse bottle hopefully tmrw so that should be nice. That is my update for a while.
 
nom. said:
Sigh... How much longer must I wait?

Another point concerns misconceptions.

Just because you've received a dopamine-blocking injection (Invega Sustenna) doesn't mean you'll constantly lack motivation all day, suffer memory loss, have your imagination stifled, or experience only brief mood swings from good to bad.

These symptoms are things anyone could experience even before getting the Invega Sustenna injection.

That's the problem.

It's so confusing whether these symptoms are truly side effects, or if I've recovered to a messed-up state different from before but still perceive them as side effects.



Are there others thinking this way? What do you think?
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Absolutely not. Everything is caused by this injection. I can't even talk properly because of this injection.
 
trust me when i say this, you do lose about 50 percent of weight caused by invega later in the recovery process.
this is what i experienced so far.
 
Since coming off the injections I definitely feel better. All my symptoms except anhedonia have improved around 5-10% which I think is pretty major considering I am very early on in my recovery. Just went for a walk and enjoyed it quite a lot. Maybe i'll heal quicker from abilify than I did invega.
 
Invegatorture said:
Do you find socialising and making conversations with others difficult? Like does your mind go blank? All I can talk about is medication.
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Very difficult. I have nothing to say anymore. Passion for anything is gone…that desire to talk and express myself is just gone. It’s sad. My light is just gone.
 
rawbanana said:
Very difficult. I have nothing to say anymore. Passion for anything is gone…that desire to talk and express myself is just gone. It’s sad. My light is just gone.
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I understand where @rawbanana is coming from. But, people who have recovered @Invegatorture and @paranoid android and others, did your light come back?... i do notice that people who recover disappear from forums and donttalk about the drug anymore. Is it the same for others?
 
It feels as if I have been just injected last week. This drug is nasty and to top it all off my akathisia is still the same. Life’s quite hard for me at the moment, as this has got to be the toughest time of my whole life. I hope I can find some cessation of my symptoms soon. @rawbanana this sucks man, I’m here suffering with you.
 
I used to be so sharp and intuitive and loved to think about things on a deep level and I just don’t have that anymore. It’s a lobotomy.
 
lukeflowz said:
It feels as if I have been just injected last week. This drug is nasty and to top it all off my akathisia is still the same. Life’s quite hard for me at the moment, as this has got to be the toughest time of my whole life. I hope I can find some cessation of my symptoms soon. @rawbanana this sucks man, I’m here suffering with you.
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Any difficulty I’ve ever faced in life before this just doesn’t compare. This is hell.
 
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