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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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lukeflowz said:
Almost 3 months off Invega report. 18/11 is the proper date, but I thought I would share an update now.
I still feel the same mostly, no noticeable difference in mood. Akathisia and anhedonia are still present. I’m struggling a lot, but I think this is still expected at this point of time in my recovery journey. One minor positive is I’ve been able to focus a little better watching movies/tv series. I’ve been slacking with going to the gym because I have no drive to go. According to the half life theory on the drug, my levels should drop noticeably around the fourth month and I hope my akathisia clears up by then. This sucks guys, it sucks that we are all in this situation and I hope everyone who was injected heals.
This is honestly the hardest trial in my life and I don’t see any light at the end at the moment, but I hope time will heal.
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has your appetite changed?
 
I came to talk with ChatGPT about my situation and in one chat it told me that I will recover completely after i reach 24-36 months.

Into another chat it told me that if i have sympthoms lasting 16months then the full recovery is impossibile and maybe i can just have some improvements in the very long term.

I did the same with google AI, in one chat it told me 18-24 months is where most people fully heal and go back to their baseline before medication.

In another chat it told me that after 16 months of lasting sympthoms then i have to realize that maybe the damage is permanent.

Idk what is wrong with these AI, and it’s very sad that I have to talk with AI in order to get some answer since everytime i go to see a doctor to get answer it just don’t understeand or belive me and left me with more question than I had before seeing him.

This is so wrong and messed up, i was completely normal and functional before these injections and now i’am 16 months with lasting disfunction and sympthoms and i’am waiting to get assisted suicide.

I can’t belive i was completely fine and healthy and because of some stupid panic attacks they ruined my life like that pushing me into begging for death.

It’s a miracle i dint become psychotic for real or crazy because of all that situation, fuck this shit for real.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
I came to talk with ChatGPT about my situation and in one chat it told me that I will recover completely after i reach 24-36 months.

Into another chat it told me that if i have sympthoms lasting 16months then the full recovery is impossibile and maybe i can just have some improvements in the very long term.

I did the same with google AI, in one chat it told me 18-24 months is where most people fully heal and go back to their baseline before medication.

In another chat it told me that after 16 months of lasting sympthoms then i have to realize that maybe the damage is permanent.

Idk what is wrong with these AI, and it’s very sad that I have to talk with AI in order to get some answer since everytime i go to see a doctor to get answer it just don’t understeand or belive me and left me with more question than I had before seeing him.

This is so wrong and messed up, i was completely normal and functional before these injections and now i’am 16 months with lasting disfunction and sympthoms and i’am waiting to get assisted suicide.

I can’t belive i was completely fine and healthy and because of some stupid panic attacks they ruined my life like that pushing me into begging for death.

It’s a miracle i dint become psychotic for real or crazy because of all that situation, fuck this shit for real.
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what are your side effects? please don’t kill yourself though, if you are a Christian or Muslim then you would go hell for it
 
iraistired said:
so many got better but still no emotions like i had that walking all the time and complete anhedonia and bad sleep and headaches all that changed and got better
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how long did it take for the walking around to get better and right now what are your symptoms?
 
Invegatorture said:
Let me know when you are ready to play. What time in the UK would be good for you as we are different time zones.
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I usually work from 2 PM to 9:30 PM EST

7/8 PM to 2:30 AM London time.

I'm usually off before 7/8 PM. What's your availability any time all day? We could potentially play like 4-8 PM
 
Yeah let’s talk about videogames while we had a suicide last months and while some
People here are in the bring of doing it..

Ignoring people who share desperation and agony is the meaning of this forum i guess. There is no point for me to keep looking at this forum and share my agony because this won’t change anything and since some week i don’t even get support or even answer.

Idk if i will recover, if i will i won’t come back here to share data or hope because when i was in agony i got basically ignored.

Take care everyone.
 
Trueart2 said:
I usually work from 2 PM to 9:30 PM EST

7/8 PM to 2:30 AM London time.

I'm usually off before 7/8 PM. What's your availability any time all day? We could potentially play like 4-8 PM
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Is 4pm UK time good for you? Thats when I can hop on.
 
Trueart2 said:
I usually work from 2 PM to 9:30 PM EST

7/8 PM to 2:30 AM London time.

I'm usually off before 7/8 PM. What's your availability any time all day? We could potentially play like 4-8 PM
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I can probably play when you finish work. Thats like 1am for me i think
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Yeah let’s talk about videogames while we had a suicide last months and while some
People here are in the bring of doing it..

Ignoring people who share desperation and agony is the meaning of this forum i guess. There is no point for me to keep looking at this forum and share my agony because this won’t change anything and since some week i don’t even get support or even answer.

Idk if i will recover, if i will i won’t come back here to share data or hope because when i was in agony i got basically ignored.

Take care everyone.
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You have an issue with me and @Trueart2 arranging to play videos games. I don't understand. We want to escape our suffering.

And how have we not been supportive? I share my recovery story and encourage people all the time. Including you. I don't need to respond to every post on here.

@Trueart2 made a document full of recoveries to give people hope.

Not sure what else to say to you man, if you recover and don't wanna give others hope thats cool, do you. But no need to send negativity our way when we are finding life hard enough as it is. I know this was directed at me.
 
One more thing. You literally have made posts telling people they are permanently damaged when they are in the early stages of recovery, do you think that helps their suicidality? Hypocrite.
 
Last night i had a sexual dream and got a hard erection due to it, which i didnotfor a very long time. I hate sharing this information but is it a sign of recovery or other people experience the same?
 
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