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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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destroylonely said:
hospitalized once again for talking crazy about invega. the worst part is my family who is usually always supportive in anything is telling me that invega doesn't stay in your system for more than a month and that i'm just 'obsessed.' they're forcing me to take respiridone but i've been cheeking + flushing the pills. came here on a suicide attempt. of course it sounds like i belong here obviously, but i had a beautiful life before invega. the doctors are forcing me to believe the invega doesn't cause any harm. maybe i'm going crazy and they're right. i don't know anymore.
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I don't think that's an obsession when the drug disables you, anyone who suddenly gets disabled would be talking about it, if it was caused by a drug there is a chance you will be continuing to take.
 
destroylonely said:
hospitalized once again for talking crazy about invega. the worst part is my family who is usually always supportive in anything is telling me that invega doesn't stay in your system for more than a month and that i'm just 'obsessed.' they're forcing me to take respiridone but i've been cheeking + flushing the pills. came here on a suicide attempt. of course it sounds like i belong here obviously, but i had a beautiful life before invega. the doctors are forcing me to believe the invega doesn't cause any harm. maybe i'm going crazy and they're right. i don't know anymore.
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Bro give yourself time to heal. Bojana didnt heal for 13 months and killed herself. Had she waited 1 more year she would have been happy and recovered. You will heal with Gods permission.
 
destroylonely said:
hospitalized once again for talking crazy about invega. the worst part is my family who is usually always supportive in anything is telling me that invega doesn't stay in your system for more than a month and that i'm just 'obsessed.' they're forcing me to take respiridone but i've been cheeking + flushing the pills. came here on a suicide attempt. of course it sounds like i belong here obviously, but i had a beautiful life before invega. the doctors are forcing me to believe the invega doesn't cause any harm. maybe i'm going crazy and they're right. i don't know anymore.
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It takes over 100 days for invega sustenna to leave completely. It's only effective in treating schizophrenia for a month. You're not crazy. Look up "invega sustenna half-life" and you'll find proof for them easily.

It caused negative side effects and threw your neurochemistry off. If you were just there for a suicide attempt, why did they make you take it?
 
I am an open skeptic, but I did talk to a remote viewer twice who is good at health scans. He got some things wrong about my health and thought I was in a wheelchair (I spend a lot of time sitting in a desk chair with arm rests though, and second sight doesn't look like first sight) but he said my energy was much better and I have astral wings coming out of my back now. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Make of that what you will.

He said I have bone damage but I know my bones are ok because I had a bone scan last year because I have/(had?) a long-standing vitamin D deficiency, and they can't possibly degrade that quickly. He noted "blood problems" but I just had a blood panel done and it was the best it had been in years, but I am slightly anemic again. He did pick up on my recurrent hip pain though, that was interesting.

I was having a weird day a few weeks ago when I was anxious about getting on antibiotics (they have been prescribed but not approved yet) and I was desperate for reassurance. When I was in the mental hospital right before I received the invega injections, I got a "message" from my own mind that said the injections would set me on a path that will ruin my life by destroying my sexuality, sterilize me (untrue as far as I know), give me dementia early, and cause multiple organ failure and blindness. Rifampin can cause liver and kidney failure but I want to be on that one because it has less of a chance of crashing my PSSD, which I only have because I was trying to fix anxiety I got from invega. Another PSSD safe one is Ethambutol and that has a chance of causing blindness. I'd rather have liver and kidney failure than go blind, you can replace those parts, you can't do anything for blindness.

So I wanted to ask this guy if Rifampin will be safe for me while I'm taking it. I was told it would be safe even though I have NAFLD. I'm scared because I do have to have a high dose of it because I'm fat. I may be fat, but it's all going to be going through my liver... I'm still scared.
 
Youwillrecover said:
Hahah my homie offers me Iboga for free. Another divine psychodelic. Its hilarious. This trauma of fake diagnosis turned me into cosmic traveller with psychedelics 🤣
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Just be careful man. Don't get into another 'psychosis' and get forced more injections
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
The Parnate I ordered from india early november is arriving hopefully next week, i pray it works. Lots of ppl from reddit said it didnt do shit for them , even if it gives me 30% relief ill take it.


negative symptoms for schizophrenics im not doubting but why do doctors blame negative symptoms when I complained about anhedonia, I dont have any schizophrenia. They are just afraid of blaming the invega and would rather fit us in with negative symptoms label which only applies to schizophrenics


Literlly i talked to so many ppl and i asked them if they had all these side effects before antipsychotics and most said no. The ones that said yes mentioned they hear voices even with antipsychotics so they are clearly schizophrenic


Bro you gotta understand that every brain is different and some brains are healthier and bounce back from antipsychotics much quicker than others. @Serhat had the same injections as me and he recovered in 1 year while I'm not even close at 10 months . My brain isnt healthy because i damaged it in a car accident and have previous head trauma from sports/bullying. Obviously my brain took a lot of beating thats why it isnt regenerating as quick as serhat and others . Radiant prompt took only 4 injections but she is in her 40s so her brain is bouncing much slower, serhat was in his 20s. Idk its complicated but the point is that not every brain is the same.
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I hope you researched potential negative effects of taking parnate, wouldn't be ideal if it causes it's own damage
 
destroylonely said:
hospitalized once again for talking crazy about invega. the worst part is my family who is usually always supportive in anything is telling me that invega doesn't stay in your system for more than a month and that i'm just 'obsessed.' they're forcing me to take respiridone but i've been cheeking + flushing the pills. came here on a suicide attempt. of course it sounds like i belong here obviously, but i had a beautiful life before invega. the doctors are forcing me to believe the invega doesn't cause any harm. maybe i'm going crazy and they're right. i don't know anymore.
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I'm sorry man. How long are you in hospital for?

Keep flushing the pills, they will only make you feel worse.

I was suicidal for 6 months this year because of invega. You're not crazy. Invega certainly causes harm. The negative symptoms they speak of do also exist, but AP injections cause them too.

I don't know how I got through it without killing myself to be honest, but I just kept getting through each day telling myself that this is temporary and I will get back to feeling like life can be beautiful again.

Stay strong
 
destroylonely said:
hospitalized once again for talking crazy about invega. the worst part is my family who is usually always supportive in anything is telling me that invega doesn't stay in your system for more than a month and that i'm just 'obsessed.' they're forcing me to take respiridone but i've been cheeking + flushing the pills. came here on a suicide attempt. of course it sounds like i belong here obviously, but i had a beautiful life before invega. the doctors are forcing me to believe the invega doesn't cause any harm. maybe i'm going crazy and they're right. i don't know anymore.
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people are so ignorant. If it doesn't cause harm I hope they try this even one shot.
 
After 5 months//

I feel no negativity in my emotion but it's really hard to meditate still.

My energy doesn't gather and is stuck in the heart area. The energy is very thin.

Cold nature of invega centainly harmed the essence of Kidney, disrupting heart and kidney connection and causing mind problem.

I still don't feel much of interest about anything including sexual one.

But I am glad that I feel less anxious and depressed.
 
stolensoul said:
I hope you researched potential negative effects of taking parnate, wouldn't be ideal if it causes it's own damage
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Was that not what a user on here called daveyvargey or something took to try help and had a horrible reaction? Might have been, not sure
 
I had difficulty recalling sensory information. Now I'm reading about people talking about certain smells they enjoy, particularly smells other people find unpleasant, and I'm able to recall the smells. I think the weirdest thing I like is the smell of oil, acrylic, housepaint, and watercolor paint. I like chlorine too.
 
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My mother makes me so fucking sucidal. Its point clear abusive families create these diagnosis. Not gonna lie i had serious stuff going in my head but it was always cptsd always a traumatised nervous system and it should be healed with somatic experience, emdr, therapy but they force these disgusting antipsychotics injections which is dehumanising and even more traumatising. I can imagine trully in certain cases psychiatric abuse along with narcissistic families create these "mentaly ill" people. I survived somehow maybe because one doctor who iv met in my first hospitalization gave me so much motherly love i never experienced before. Her voice still soothes me.
 
would anyone be interested in making a group chat. maybe discord or instagram. lots of people here lost friends over antipsychotics and i figured we can come together in this time or even play games together. if interested, reply to this message. just a thought 🤷
 
Youwillrecover said:
My mother makes me so fucking sucidal. Its point clear abusive families create these diagnosis. Not gonna lie i had serious stuff going in my head but it was always cptsd always a traumatised nervous system and it should be healed with somatic experience, emdr, therapy but they force these disgusting antipsychotics injections which is dehumanising and even more traumatising. I can imagine trully in certain cases psychiatric abuse along with narcissistic families create these "mentaly ill" people. I survived somehow maybe because one doctor who iv met in my first hospitalization gave me so much motherly love i never experienced before. Her voice still soothes me.
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Its time to move bro. This is an omen that your mother is cursed or some shit. Apply for a job or apply for school and move out. Don't worry about cost because God provides for whoever he wills.
 
My father who went to the holy city of makkah prayed for me and I'm shocked, im much much better than before. The pleasure is still little but i dont fckn care, i have not had this much improvement since feb. I cried to a song for the first time since july 2023 , I'm speechless.Prayer works guys put your faith in God and let him cure you , provide for you
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
Its time to move bro. This is an omen that your mother is cursed or some shit. Apply for a job or apply for school and move out. Don't worry about cost because God provides for whoever he wills.
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Your belief in God is so beautiful and real. Thank you. And yes she is on heavy dark vibes that try assasinate her son with psychiatric poison for speaking about the abuse outloud and perfect family facade was destroyed haha. I would move out but my scorpio war nature loves to play with death haha. What they did to me was evil really. 3 times. I pray to God he will help me expose the psychiatrist madness.
 
Im so high hahahah took 300 mg of pregabaline on empty stomach and smoking some 18% thc medical marijuana while listening to HIRIE haha love yall.
 
Youwillrecover said:
Your belief in God is so beautiful and real. Thank you. And yes she is on heavy dark vibes that try assasinate her son with psychiatric poison for speaking about the abuse outloud and perfect family facade was destroyed haha. I would move out but my scorpio war nature loves to play with death haha. What they did to me was evil really. 3 times. I pray to God he will help me expose the psychiatrist madness.
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Bro I literlly did not think about God not even once since i quit injecitons. I only started upgrading spiritually last 2 months and It 100% explains why I haven't healed this whole time. I did it without shrooms too. Who knows what woulda happened if i took shrooms.
 
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