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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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I hate myself so much for trying Prozac thinking it would help. I was only two months out from taking the damn shots. I wish I told my friend my anxiety wasn't at natural levels, it was the fucking invega and I just needed to wait it out. I hate myself for putting myself through this. I lost all of the beautiful parts of myself. I don't know what I'm going to do with my life anymore.

I wasn't educated on anxiolytic options for me, I could have taken busiprone and I would have been fine and it could have actually helped.

I'm so scared I'll never be normal. People on the PSSD subreddit think they had chemical lobotomies, but they don't know the half of it. The people here live in fear of invega's permanence when in all likelihood they will recover. I know both of these horrors, everything is uncertain for me.


The inside of my head just feels numb, it's like parts of my brain are literally blocked off now. I had an IQ of around 120, I was creative and trying to find my "drive" so I could be a working artist. I was loving and I cared about the world a lot. I just feel like an empty shell most of the time, although I'm getting little pieces of myself back.

I'm watching everyone improve and I just... blighted myself trying to heal faster. It's still possible that I will heal from PSSD, I've made some progress, but it might take years. Years I could be spending dating and falling in love.
 
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I really don't know why we suffer here and these psychiatrists just get away with doing what they do. I can tell you I'm not letting this scumbag get away with what they did to me. A perfectly healthy man with anxiety doesn't get a schizophrenic drug. My anger is going to the next level! I am reporting everything to every agency and suing the life out of them.
 
So I got off the phone with one of my friends. He was a huge deal with a local internet company. He got a team of doctors together because he was very worried about me. These doctors are collectively worth billions. They know exactly what this drug did. I am trying to get a treatment thing together. I'm gonna get something going. I promise if this finally works I will help everyone of you that is suffering. That is my promise.
 
cmf77 said:
So I got off the phone with one of my friends. He was a huge deal with a local internet company. He got a team of doctors together because he was very worried about me. These doctors are collectively worth billions. They know exactly what this drug did. I am trying to get a treatment thing together. I'm gonna get something going. I promise if this finally works I will help everyone of you that is suffering. That is my promise.
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Thanks so much 🥲 I really hope they can do something for you
 
So one dude with nickname Serhat said he recovered after 10 injections how the fuck that makes sense if i see people here crying after 1 injection 10 months later. Can someone explain
 
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So one dude with nickname Serhat said he recovered after 10 injections how the fuck that makes sense if i see people here crying after 1 injection 10 months later. Can someone explain
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The half life of one shot is longer than any drug out there, it takes a whole year for one shot to be completely removed from your system. It also depends on the dosage, my 24 shots were(it’s been awhile since looking at dosages), I think around 56mg, then afew at 106mg, some people get dosed up with a initial shot then one at 256mg I think is max dose. So even one shot, at 256mg, is equivalent to 4 of my first shots, so a massive dose, all at once. And each person reacts differently from these drugs and recovers differently, based on multiple factors, how they react to the drug, metabolism, body weight, ect. So some may feel back to normal at a faster rate then others. Best way I can explain it, everything else is unknown.
 
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im sure my anhedonia will improve thc made it so much better but idk about sexual dysfunction im scared i took thc it didnt really make me horny it made me wanna go out and talk to a girl but not really horny the thought of sex was slightly exciting but i didnt get a boner from it like usually thc would make my dick jump all day idk if its bc i masturbated that morning before taking the thc or what but im scared i wonder when i will recover sexually

like thc made everything SO MUCH better its like my brain might need it to function now for a while
 
I really do think my PSSD is getting better, I don't want people to think I'm completely hopeless from my post earlier. I'm having 6/10 orgasms and I have a very low level of sensation in my genitals that fluctuates. My disassociation is finally wearing off. Hugs and touch feel good again. My emotions are at like 20% and it's better than feeling like an anxious robot. I'm less anhedonic about TV and music. I'm trying to care about current events.

It still sucks pretty bad. I would have been feeling like myself by now. I'm so mad at myself. I'm also mad at some people in this place who made me overly concerned about brain damage and I thought neurogenic Prozac would help.

I hope one day I can come in here like "I fully recovered in spite of it all."
 
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cmf77 said:
So I got off the phone with one of my friends. He was a huge deal with a local internet company. He got a team of doctors together because he was very worried about me. These doctors are collectively worth billions. They know exactly what this drug did. I am trying to get a treatment thing together. I'm gonna get something going. I promise if this finally works I will help everyone of you that is suffering. That is my promise.
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So when you say “ they know exactly what this drug did “ what is it then ? What did it do ? This question is on my mind alll the time !
 
The first thing he said to me was that he knows that this drug has a very high suicide rate . He also said that restinly palimate is a animal protein in Invega that causes damage. He was also.concerned too about the fact I had Lyme disease coexisting with the side effects of Invega and wanted to see my MRIs.Also knew what it does to Dopamine receptors.
 
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The first thing he said to me was that he knows that this drug has a very high suicide rate . He also said that restinly palimate is a animal protein in Invega that causes damage. He was also.concerned too about the fact I had Lyme disease coexisting with the side effects of Invega and wanted to see my MRIs.Also knew what it does to Dopamine receptors.
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Sorry but i dont believe they can do anything. Our bodies are made to self heal repair and regenerate. We just need time and things that improve neurogenesis like fasting exercise and magic mushrooms + lots of antioxidants and sauna to defox that shit. Thats what i believe
 
Youwillrecover said:
Sorry but i dont believe they can do anything. Our bodies are made to self heal repair and regenerate. We just need time and things that improve neurogenesis like fasting exercise and magic mushrooms + lots of antioxidants and sauna to defox that shit. Thats what i believe
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I have to try something. Coming on here complaining is not helping. It's not like most of here are wrapped too tight anyway to give advice. Sitting in a sauna and dieting is not going to fix brain damage. Magic mushrooms do not heal brain damage. Site me something and I will listen to you.
 
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I have to try something. Coming on here complaining is not helping. It's not like most of here are wrapped too tight anyway to give advice. Sitting in a sauna and dieting is not going to fix brain damage. Magic mushrooms do not heal brain damage. Site me something and I will listen to you.
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lol if they dont then doubt anything will cure your brain damage just keeping it real
 
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