Hi everyone!
I’m new here. Was in a psych ward for two weeks for a two day drug induced psychosis and they put me on oral Palperidone then after two weeks they said I could go home but needed an injection first which I would have to get from a nurse every month.
By Feb/ March I was horribly anxious/ pacing/ couldn’t watch TV read books or listen to music. If someone called me on the phone or if I was with them my throat would close up and I couldn’t talk, but also I had nothing on my mind - nothing to say.
Weirdly I got an 9-6 office job and was able to do that each day and do a stressful commute but I was motivated by money and having an income.
By June this year I had googled my symptoms and worked out it was the meds so I stopped getting the injections.
I begged my psychiatrist to let me stop them, I told her it was ruining my entire life and she said I could switch to alpiprizole pills. I got the prescription filled but never took the pills. A month later the psych tried to push me into getting the injections of it and I point blank refused. I only see her every 3 months.
Anyway! Currently on month four and a half without the Palperidone. I’m MUCH better! I can talk, laugh, have a conversation make jokes and drink wine and get a buzz. My memory is better and I have more motivation to go to the store. I’m pretty lazy at tidying my apartment but then I always was.
I’ve bought new make up (I am making an effort about my appearance) and whilst I can’t cry yet at least I can laugh. I can also feel hunger and appreciate beauty and I feel happy when I’m with my family and friends.
This weekend I have been to the beach both days and swam and chilled and I can read and watch TV again.
I don’t get so bored now either. I’ve switched my work contract to working from home but I’m able to get up and work at my laptop. Best of all! NO pacing!
I’m gonna switch psychs. Mine says I have to be on APs for a couple of years - it’s their standard protocol. She doesn’t know I’m not taking the Alprprizole (Albify) so if I go in there in Nov in full make up, chatting away and making jokes and small talk she’ll either think she’s a brilliant doctor or if all her patients are anxious chain smoking zombies so will know something is up.
Anyway! Any advice?
I’m new here. Was in a psych ward for two weeks for a two day drug induced psychosis and they put me on oral Palperidone then after two weeks they said I could go home but needed an injection first which I would have to get from a nurse every month.
By Feb/ March I was horribly anxious/ pacing/ couldn’t watch TV read books or listen to music. If someone called me on the phone or if I was with them my throat would close up and I couldn’t talk, but also I had nothing on my mind - nothing to say.
Weirdly I got an 9-6 office job and was able to do that each day and do a stressful commute but I was motivated by money and having an income.
By June this year I had googled my symptoms and worked out it was the meds so I stopped getting the injections.
I begged my psychiatrist to let me stop them, I told her it was ruining my entire life and she said I could switch to alpiprizole pills. I got the prescription filled but never took the pills. A month later the psych tried to push me into getting the injections of it and I point blank refused. I only see her every 3 months.
Anyway! Currently on month four and a half without the Palperidone. I’m MUCH better! I can talk, laugh, have a conversation make jokes and drink wine and get a buzz. My memory is better and I have more motivation to go to the store. I’m pretty lazy at tidying my apartment but then I always was.
I’ve bought new make up (I am making an effort about my appearance) and whilst I can’t cry yet at least I can laugh. I can also feel hunger and appreciate beauty and I feel happy when I’m with my family and friends.
This weekend I have been to the beach both days and swam and chilled and I can read and watch TV again.
I don’t get so bored now either. I’ve switched my work contract to working from home but I’m able to get up and work at my laptop. Best of all! NO pacing!
I’m gonna switch psychs. Mine says I have to be on APs for a couple of years - it’s their standard protocol. She doesn’t know I’m not taking the Alprprizole (Albify) so if I go in there in Nov in full make up, chatting away and making jokes and small talk she’ll either think she’s a brilliant doctor or if all her patients are anxious chain smoking zombies so will know something is up.
Anyway! Any advice?