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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

lostsoulowen said:
first day i wasn't completely bedridden, 13 months since last injection
Oren:
one of my best day so far, talked with my roommates and went to the supermarket together, walked 30 minutes,

picked up stuff from china took the bus

and possibly going to teach an online class in language

one of my most normals days in the last 1.8 years
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Do you feel confidence ın yourself
 
I have zero health problem before these pills now I have thousands of health problem I cant even see ın front of me fucked my eyes fucked my weight fucked my hearth fucked my appearence I can list you cant even imagine
 
fuqrisperdal said:
I have zero health problem before these pills now I have thousands of health problem I cant even see ın front of me fucked my eyes fucked my weight fucked my hearth fucked my appearence I can list you cant even imagine
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Same here, perfectly healthy before risperdal, now i have eyesigh issue, tinnitus, 100-140 hearth rate, digestive issue, loss of hearing, can’t nap or sleep, severe cognitive deficit, severe DPDR, total sexual disfunction (chemical castration), full of acne on my back to the point it seems they shooted me multiple Times or they kinda tortured me, chronic chest pain, chronic muscle tension (back, neck, shoulders), i can’t focus or concentrate, no strenght to do a shit (not even brushing my teeth or take a shower), no emotions, no motivation, completely disconnected and disabled laying on the bed since 2 years..
 
Yea
fuqrisperdal said:
I hate this world I hate it I hate my faith like yeah blocking d2 receptor most important receptor ın human body
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Yeah it’s responsable for a lot of body and mind functions, once they find out that, they created a poison who block that receptor, wich have a “domino effect” on other receptors and hormones that result into a torture and severe damage to the body and mind.

It’s not a “coincidence” or a “side effect”, this poison is designed to do such things, it’s a torture tool, but they label it as a “cure” or “medicine” because we live into a distopic world and psychotic people don’t even realize what this poison did to them..
 
fuqrisperdal said:
Fucked my sexuality fucked my brain fucked how i think fucked every goddamn thing
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I can’t just relax because i’am into a constant flight or fight mode, constant agony due to the sympthoms i have and completely unable to distract because i can’t do a shit.

If i could i would just sleep the whole time so i won’t have to face the agony but this poison completely disconnected and cut me off the “sleep realm”, like if the door is now locked and I can’t anymore access the sleeping mode.

So lay down without nothing i can do, just suffering and cursing the day i agreed to the injection just because i wanted to get the fuck off from that psych ward where i was voluntary admitted just because i had a strong relapse of panic attack and i asked help..

I miss a lot being able to relax and feel comfort, doing warm bath, doing naps, being able to take care of mysel and my home, being able to drive and to hang out, going to the gym, feel tiredness..

But there is nothing we can do to reverse the damage, and everytime we reach for help they don’t belive us in the worst case or they can’t help us in the best case, so it’s just a matter of “taking the agony”, laying down and regret the fact we trusted a so called “Doctor”..
 
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