I agree with you on feeling lighter. I been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder bi polar type since 2015 (never touched drug all mentally illness ) so I have pretty much know my cycle when I am not medicate I was on and off different medication but I was under the impression that medication was to kill my mind so I would just stop taking it which lead to the find out so they medically overwrite me to take the injection invega may 2018 one of the worse medication ever .moving foward went through all what the shot did and made me feel like . Became what I thought was better the end of 2019 but this time I developed voice which I never had until I recovered from invega ..went two years unmedicated because I didn't want to go back to what invega done but it got pretty bad and I was having a baby so I went my pregnancy unmedicated and as soon as she was born I reached out for medication help and now I am doing so much better even before invega better .thank you for sharing your story . And just want to say it is crazy they gave you the injection because of depression and suicide attempt.