Things are getting better. No longer sleeping 12+ hours a night, but the "efficacy" (if you will) of the medication keeps going in and out in waves. It's curious: by this time the medication should be mostly out of my system: according to my calculations < 1.83 mg is still left. That's not including the daily dose of 6 mg I take daily [orally]. But I've found - like I've said before - that the release of the intramuscular medication is anything but consistent. There were days (few and far between) where the medication seemed to make HUGE dips and I was experiencing what it was like to be - well - me. Even lately - even if just for a few seconds - the same phenomenon seems to occur, where I'll get all sorts of visualizations via second sight and incredibly vivid, just like when I was 21.
I've done some pretty powerful psychedelics in the past and that allowed me - even months to years after being off them and/or completely sober - to visualize things extremely well. Just to give you an idea: there was this castle (in my mind) I would go to sometimes when I would meditate and I had perfectly visualized every single room, chamber, antechamber, and so on within the castle. When I was first given that shot of Risperdal Consta (and then years later moved onto Invega Sustenna), my imagination became so bad that I couldn't even imagine a fucking paper clip. This is not me bragging. This is so people can see how fucking terrible this drug is for you.
EDIT: I realize though that it is a blessing as well as a curse... or a blessing in disguise, whichever. As far as the scientific evidence to support this drug, it does wonders for repairing the damage done from psychotic episodes.
