Ekbr:
Hi Guys, I often get messages from people among you who have been affected, for one "reason" or another, by the plague called neuroleptic, and you ask me if I got through it, and how, etc. ...
So I come to the news
To begin with, I will give you a bit of my take on this whole impasse.
Already a few words on my case: the disaster, the annihilation of my life, were signed by Mr Xéplion, available as an injection 150 + 100mg to put according to your affinities in the shoulder or in the buttocks, for a business, in your buttocks therefore, around € 500 per injection.
Well. I weighed 50kg, in the space of a week I was put directly into the muscle the equivalent of a month's dose of 8mg / day of Risperdal, as much to tell you that very quickly, simply remind me of my first name has become difficult.
So I lost all my friends, all my passions, I stopped everything, in fact I went back to my parents to stay in bed for an average of 22 hours a day for endless months.
So what happened is that at first I took it quite a bit because these wonderful doctors told me that it was a necessary step for my recovery and that everything was going to fall back into place.
However, I was really lethargic and did everything to stop this poison as quickly as possible. And I thought all of my energy was going to come back instantly as soon as the poison was cleared from my body.
I was told it was a month or two for the body to get rid of this. Well, I quit in March 2014 and nothing really changed for a very long time.
So what can I say? The brain is not just like a bladder that you fill or empty. Even if the bladder has all its complexity, the brain tissue is really of a different nature compared to all the organs: it is an embryonic tissue that changes every moment, that continues to evolve, potentially life-changing dramatically.
I think a poison like the neuroleptic infertilizes that poor brain for a while. A bit like if you were spraying round up in your compost ... It will be pretty pooh. And the reality is that even if you stop vaporizing, it will take a while for this soil to become ideal for seeing your small organic tomatoes grow!
Keep this in mind: you have within you, a capacity that you do not suspect, an energy that can allow you to overcome it all, to become stronger than this shit that they are trying to kill you with nicely.
But know that it is a force that very few people are brought in their life to find - quite simply because they never reach this level of difficulty in life.
You will start to be shocked to see people who have not received this poison complain that they are tired, happy, or anxious.
You will be shocked by the fatigue of others because you will rethink the difference in energy between before and after the poisoning and will not conceive that a person who has not been infected knows what they are talking about when speaking about fatigue.
The happiness of others will make you barjo because you yourself will feel absolutely nothing and will pass for an autistic.
Finally, you will come to envy the anxieties or panic attacks of others by saying to yourself, "Heaven, his guts are talking to him, where are mine"?
So, let's get to the point, what is this magic formula to find this fabulous force that will allow your brain to come back to life again?
1 / you are going to stop being anxious to be "like before" again because it generates frustration in you, but the kind of toxic frustration where you spend your time feeling sorry for yourself and disgusting yourself - even.
In fact, if you want me to expand a bit, consider that coming back to yourself will be your bohemian kid who never-never knew a law. The reality is that by the time you feel fully yourself, it will be a long time since you stopped asking yourself this question.
2 / you will stop being ashamed of your history room because no, you are neither stupid nor damned.
3 / you will leave the role of victim, preferably before it stinks your whole life and if not, too bad, you will have to rebuild yourself.
=> a key idea in all this: this unfathomable tissue of your brain is sensitive to the nature of the image you have in yourself, of yourself, of life.
Hope I enlightened people, please feel free to send me your questions, I will be back!
Peace
