So it has been 199 days off for me now.
The last 10 days felt very weird. It was a constant on - off situation for most of the days.
which means that the effects of Invega were still overwhelming, but i finally felt the feeling of being normal again, in very short periods, let's say moments.
A windows i truly something special in recovery. You think you are done, until the next wave shows up and backfires you into depression e.c.t. I would say it is periodically once a week you feel more normal and the rest of the days, it is like nothing happened at all , like no progress at all.
Sometimes lately i feel kinda excited and hopeful for the final stage of recovery. And although i think i am technically almost there, i really came to understand that we are really only recovered, when ALL of our abilitys function in the exact same manner, as they functioned before.
All the feelings that you felt pre Invega will come back at some time in recovery. But very slowly. And for me that means, i will suffer unti i am fully myself again. Everybody who wants to know his progress can measure his recovery by seeing how much is still to go to be pre Invega, in every aspect.
The effects of Invega stays with you until the very end, which is very sad.
Hey don't hate the messenger i only talk the truth. People talk they are recovered while they are still improving. I miss my normal voice. And recovery means for me no more new waves while feeling like pre Invega or better!