Antipsychotique33
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- Feb 1, 2019
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Yes Curtis I note all the advice ! But i have a question, you can feel emotions now ? libido? thoughts ? and before Nothing of that ? you will heal in the moment ! ?
Its been almost a year since i was injected and im not hearing voices or in psychosis yet...
It is permanently damaging to me, I didn't want to get better, I wanted to feel like before Invega but this is not gonna happen and almost anybody who said they "healed" just forgot how did they feel before the injection.
Hang in there man. You still have a long life ahead of you. Your receptors will recycle eventually. You got a big dose 5 times. With long halflife drugs they can do something called "stack" (not scientist term) which is when your body hasn't processed the drug completely before getting another shot and more drug. So it may take a little longer for you to clear it. It hasn't been a year yet so don't give up.Apparently it takes 150-300 days to clear your system and I have already surpassed the days. I’m unclear on how things haven’t shifted for me. I really just want to be in a better state of being. I have been trying to stay off the site until I have a true update but unfortunately nothing has changed. This is crazy. It’s like something off of a movie. It’s like I was injected with cement. I’m just blank all day long. It’s a everyday struggle. And I do want to call quits but something inside me hasn’t given all the way up yet. I try to reflect on moments when I was “normal” and I didn’t worry about these stupid side effects I’ve been dealing with. I look through old pictures and try to reflect. God knows I just want to have thoughts and emotions again as well as a sex drive. I miss those things so much. I know I’m not the only one.
Day 292. Week 42. Still no improvements. Smh this is sickening. There is absolutely no reason some medication should last in your system this long. I haven’t taken any antipsychotic medication since November 2018. I’m so fed up with this bullshit my patience has run out. My birthday is in 5 days and I’ve literally been in this situation since my birthday last year. A whole year with no new thoughts, emotions, or libido. I’m starting to believe this shit is permanent. It’s almost impossible to be positive at this point. I’m tired of watching everyone else live their life while I suffer. This is horrible, a bad dream that I thought would have ended by now. I can’t even smoke on 4/20. I wasn’t able too last year and it looks like I won’t be able to this year as well. I feel cursed by God. I’m miserable 24/7. This is just unfair. I really wish this wasn’t happening to me. Why man why. I just don’t understand.