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Mental Health Coming off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v3

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Ghostv2314 said:
I’ve always eaten healthy and exercised. Before Invega I was 6,0, 190 lbs. Big muscles and a six pack physique. One thing that depressed me a lot on Invega was what it did to my fitness. Im about 210 now and you can barely see my abs, but I’ve continued to eat healthy. I eat a diet similar to keto. Lots of vegetables and fish mainly. I eat chicken and turkey too. I dont eat any junk food and I don’t eat snacks often. It truly baffles me how I’ve managed to gain so much weight, I can’t imagine how much weight someone would gain with a bad diet.

Invega also made me really weak. I got my prolactin levels checked in the beginning and they were 4x the normal amount for an adult male, so maybe that caused it. Before Invega I could bench 285 pounds. During Invega I was struggling to do 10 pushups. My arms would ache and wobble after like 5. Absolutely ridiculous. However this is getting better. For example I just did 46 pushups to test my strength. Not as strong as I used to be yet though. I’ve also walked about a mile per day for the last 3.5 months.

I’m bipolar and was given Invega because of a manic episode. People with bipolar disorder often think they have special abilities or powers. I remember telling one doctor that I had super strength. To demonstrate, I literally did 14 pushups with one arm in the doctors office. It’s interesting, when you’re manic you actually do feel superhuman lol.
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Your story sounds exactly like mine. I’ve healed and I’m very sure you’ll be fine within the next few months considering you’re bipolar and our neurotransmitters are always changing at a high rate. I have motivation back to workout and my muscle stiffness and weakness is generally gone. Although I’m not a beast like I used to be. I was 145, 5 foot 10 inches, I could hang 275, bench over 300, squat almost 400. It’ll take awhile to get back there, but at least it is possible. I lost the weight I gained from Invega also.
 
Sbar25 said:
I thought I was tho I could walk 20 miles a day I became super clean and would sleep in a shed in 10 degree weather I wasnt superhuman but I was on top of my game and started yelling about how people need to belive in God and it ended up fucking me
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I experienced similar. I believe it’s your subconscious mind surpassing limitation you believe you originally had. Many people have great atheticism and much more. Although they realize they are normal people just like everyone else, they just have more physical abilities and more mental toughness than others. I only stop others now when they have these thoughts is because that’s how a psychotic episode usually starts and gets rolling. You believe one thing then the next. Next thing you know you’re in your neighborhood trying to heal people like Jesus. It’s merely grandiose.
Sbar this is what you’re experiencing. You’re in denial. There likely is no God and no one gives a shit about you trying to preach about him I promise you. They just want you to not disturb the regular people with regular lives.
 
Besides we all know that Lucifer is the real God. I mean if I still believed in all that stuff I would worship him in a heartbeat. Lmao
 
Sbar you should check out Spiritual Emergency or Bipolar disorder on YouTube. I believe it will give you the insight and closure you seek.
 
Sbar25 said:
I bwlive in the God of Righteuousness and Purity the one that lives above Earth
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And I’m only telling you this because I’m trying to help you. If you tell your doctor anything about idea that you’re special and God choose you. They’re gonna up your dose.
 
Sbar25 said:
I dont know I had felt like i was delivering a message to the people from God about needing to abondone materialism and how women needed to stop abortions either be celibate or have the child dont abort I had been yelling I thought God choose me to deliver a message to the people.
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I thought I was delivering a message to the people as well. I thought that people should only eat organic food. I felt as if we were being genetically modified by the rich people/ crooks who have created all of these fast food places along with gmo foods just to make a profit in America not worried about the health of our species
 
Sbar25 said:
I know I am not going to talk to doctors it was just unreal I was feeling Gods presence and wanted everyone to know the system is wrong 100%
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I felt kinda the same way. It seemed as if everyone lost the whole meaning to life and where in the big RAT race to have all of these things.
 
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Sbar25 said:
I dont know man my sexual function is working but my main concern is there is a virus in my brain that seems like it will never go away I just dont know what to do if recovery is possible hooray if not oh well this is my new life
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Maybe if you still have these strong beliefs and anxiety so bad you have to sleep with Dad you should try some different medication ✡️
 
Hopefuldopeful said:
Your story sounds exactly like mine. I’ve healed and I’m very sure you’ll be fine within the next few months considering you’re bipolar and our neurotransmitters are always changing at a high rate. I have motivation back to workout and my muscle stiffness and weakness is generally gone. Although I’m not a beast like I used to be. I was 145, 5 foot 10 inches, I could hang 275, bench over 300, squat almost 400. It’ll take awhile to get back there, but at least it is possible. I lost the weight I gained from Invega also.
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Yeah our stories are similar. I’ve enjoyed reading your posts, they gave me hope on bad days. I plan to stick around after I recover as well. It really helps when you’re struggling to see other people say they actually recovered and can enjoy life again.

Also for the person who asked, yes I’m in my early twenties. I’m 25. The most depressing thing before I started to recover was thinking that my life was basically over from such a young age. There’s no way in hell I could manage to live 50+ more years under the full effects of Invega. That’s a punishment worse than death.

It reminds me of the story of Rosemary Kennedy, John F. Kennedy’s sister. She was lobotomized in her early twenties for basically bad behavior, they didn’t want her to embarrass the family name. This is back when lobotomies were still a thing. She was so disabled afterwards that she couldn’t even talk anymore. They dropped her off in a home for the disabled and she had to live her whole life out like that until she was 86. That’s horrible. These are the kind of depressing stories I was looking at all day when Invega was at its worst lol.
 
Will we e evtually feel better tho!!!!!! I cant imagine going through life like this either that's the scary thought of going through life this way
 
Sbar25 said:
Will we e evtually feel better tho!!!!!! I cant imagine going through life like this either that's the scary thought of going through life this way
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I think you’ve set a record with the number of times you’ve asked this same question. How many months off are you again?
 
Ghostv2314 said:
Here’s a positive update: I’m starting to feel better. I got the two initial doses, and my last shot was January 6th of this year. I’m 3.5 months off now and I can tell it’s starting to leave my system. The beginning was absolute hell for me. I’d been actively suicidal for the past few months because of how horrible it felt. I was spending all day in bed browsing this forum and a suicide forum. Day in and day out, was complete agony.

I couldn’t think, could barely speak, had no energy. I couldnt enjoy movies or music. My reflexes and motor skills slowed way down and made me suck at videogames and I got no pleasure from playing them anyway. Absolutely nothing in life could bring me joy. If I had emotions, I would literally cry all day if I could. But I couldnt even do that. I had no emotions. The sexual side effects hit me hard too. My dick wouldn’t work at all, it was impossible to get a boner and I had no sex drive anyway. I gained weight and started developing breast tissue.

A few weeks ago, the extreme suicidal feelings began to subside as the symptoms began to ease up a bit. Before, I was absolutely convinced I had permanent brain damage and wouldn’t heal, but I’m starting to improve. At this point I can tell I’ll heal if I keep waiting.

Anhedonia is starting to get better. I get natural boners everyday now and I laugh and enjoy music everyday. I’m also enjoying videogames again. My attention span is getting better so I’m starting to enjoy TV shows and movies again too. I can also feel the effects of weed, although it doesnt feel as good as it used to yet. I tried adderall the other day and I was able to mildly feel that as well. Still can’t feel alcohol at all which really pisses me off lol. But I imagine at six months I’ll have huge improvements.
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Really glad to hear you're experiencing some kind of improvement, it gives me an incredible sense of hope. I'm about 7 weeks in and I'm feeling similar side effects to what you've described above. Are you doing anything to help with the process of recovery? Do you feel like exercise helps in any way? I'm aware the main thing that heals is time but it just feels like so long to be waiting
 
Sbar25 said:
It's the worst feeling in the world being in limbo wondering if I will ever return to a prior state it sure does feel like a chemical lobotomy I am just happy that my djck is

Then why would cops randomly approach me and before this happened?
I did develope a pychosis but the real reality is I was pissing people off by talking about materialism everywhere and saying how god wants us to live less materialistic
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6 cops came up on me too when I was broke down on a country road... no reason
 
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