Mental Health Coming off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v3

[Hopefuldopeful]

Invega Sustenna is such a messed up drug, it blows my mind. How do you know if you will never be able to start a family? As far as I can tell, Invega has not had much, if any, impact on my sexual function. While on Invega, I've been able to get an erection and ejaculate. I don't know how it has impacted my semen since I never inspected it much. Should I still be able to have kids?

All my sexual functions healed. I’m fine now, I’m just saying like what if I experienced those. The website says penis damage and ED can be permanent and incurable. Meaning you cannot produce semen (common side effect) and get your wife pregnant. I mean of course there is adoption but you get what I mean. There are others who haven’t got any sexual issues so I guess you guys are lucky. It has to be with prolactin in many cases. If you can ejaculate then I’m very sure you can have kids.

 

[Hopefuldopeful]

I only exercise a little (lifting and walking) and eat mostly healthy - doesn't matter, I'm 31 and schizo with NIDS and fucked for life

Thank god for suicide

What is NDIS. The old me would tell you not to consider suicide. However after that Invega bullshit and the experience I know exactly how you feel. I swear to God if I had a medication that I could OD on one of those days I would be dead. I almost tried to off myself with Magnesium pills but it sounded painful so I ended up not. I was calling hospitals telling them I was extremely suicidal and they were like it’ll take over a month to see a doctor and get meds. Another sad part is I know three people from forums who were on Invega that killed themselves. It was very sad because the mother reported it in the thread in one case. And a sister in the other, and a girlfriend in the last case. So fucking sad man. But I don’t wanna see you go, man. You seem very cool to me. I’m not recommending drugs although I also know a few people (one guy recently posted about it here) saying psychedelics healed them. One guy DMT, another MDMA, and the third most recently he said he had an LSD trip with his girlfriend. They all claimed it healed them after Invega and brought meaning back into their lives. My last two acid trips after Invega were waaaay to intense and it was only one tab. But I’m happy at least because that means my neurotransmitters are connecting perfectly fine after Invega.

 

[No. 13 Baby]

What is NDIS.

Neuroleptic Induced Deficit Syndrome

The old me would tell you not to consider suicide. However after that Invega bullshit and the experience I know exactly how you feel. I swear to God if I had a medication that I could OD on one of those days I would be dead.

Not surprising

Another sad part is I know three people from forums who were on Invega that killed themselves. It was very sad because the mother reported it in the thread in one case. And a sister in the other, and a girlfriend in the last case. So fucking sad man.

Yeah that's definitely heavy

But I don’t wanna see you go, man. You seem very cool to me.

Thanks, that does mean something to me

I’m not recommending drugs although I also know a few people (one guy recently posted about it here) saying psychedelics healed them. One guy DMT, another MDMA

I've done both of those in 2019. low-dose DMT was a temporary beautiful relief, but was giving me slight HPPD and MDMA's effects were obviously diminished

and the third most recently he said he had an LSD trip with his girlfriend. They all claimed it healed them after Invega and brought meaning back into their lives. My last two acid trips after Invega were waaaay to intense and it was only one tab. But I’m happy at least because that means my neurotransmitters are connecting perfectly fine after Invega.

I'm afraid of LSD. Witnessed 100s of people freak out on it in the tripsit chatroom. But that's awesome it could heal those people.

I'm afraid of all recreational drugs now, actually. Ever since ketamine gave me depersonalization disorder last Dec. Otherwise I would try MDMA again.

 

[Sbar25]

Who wants to have the balls to say the healing from this drug is actually even possible. I used to be an outdoorsman I practically LIVED outside and walked 20 miles a day. If I can just recover enough to drink beer and vape I will be content. Invega completely robbed my soul.

 

[Hopefuldopeful]

Who wants to have the balls to say the healing from this drug is actually even possible. I used to be an outdoorsman I practically LIVED outside and walked 20 miles a day. If I can just recover enough to drink beer and vape I will be content. Invega completely robbed my soul.

Many have told you over and over and I’ve personally given you much of my time and information telling you I’ve healed. This is exactly why most people leave after healing and never come back.

 

[Sbar25]

Why dont they come back to the forum?
They are disgusted about invega expierence? Why did you come back to give people hope?

 

[Sbar25]

Wow healed in 7 months huh. You're lucky. Invega feels like it could be game over. Maybe some people just get lucky and some dont because right now I dont even see how recovery is possible my brain feels destroyed.

 

[Ghostv2314]

Here’s a positive update: I’m starting to feel better. I got the two initial doses, and my last shot was January 6th of this year. I’m 3.5 months off now and I can tell it’s starting to leave my system. The beginning was absolute hell for me. I’d been actively suicidal for the past few months because of how horrible it felt. I was spending all day in bed browsing this forum and a suicide forum. Day in and day out, was complete agony.

I couldn’t think, could barely speak, had no energy. I couldnt enjoy movies or music. My reflexes and motor skills slowed way down and made me suck at videogames and I got no pleasure from playing them anyway. Absolutely nothing in life could bring me joy. If I had emotions, I would literally cry all day if I could. But I couldnt even do that. I had no emotions. The sexual side effects hit me hard too. My dick wouldn’t work at all, it was impossible to get a boner and I had no sex drive anyway. I gained weight and started developing breast tissue.

A few weeks ago, the extreme suicidal feelings began to subside as the symptoms began to ease up a bit. Before, I was absolutely convinced I had permanent brain damage and wouldn’t heal, but I’m starting to improve. At this point I can tell I’ll heal if I keep waiting.

Anhedonia is starting to get better. I get natural boners everyday now and I laugh and enjoy music everyday. I’m also enjoying videogames again. My attention span is getting better so I’m starting to enjoy TV shows and movies again too. I can also feel the effects of weed, although it doesnt feel as good as it used to yet. I tried adderall the other day and I was able to mildly feel that as well. Still can’t feel alcohol at all which really pisses me off lol. But I imagine at six months I’ll have huge improvements.

 

[Sbar25]

Here’s a positive update: I’m starting to feel better. I got the two initial doses, and my last shot was January 6th of this year. I’m 3.5 months off now and I can tell it’s starting to leave my system. The beginning was absolute hell for me. I’d been actively suicidal for the past few months because of how horrible it felt. I was spending all day in bed browsing this forum and a suicide forum. Day in and day out, was complete agony.

I couldn’t think, could barely speak, had no energy. I couldnt enjoy movies or music. My reflexes and motor skills slowed way down and made me suck at videogames and I got no pleasure from playing them anyway. Absolutely nothing in life could bring me joy. If I had emotions, I would literally cry all day if I could. But I couldnt even do that. I had no emotions. The sexual side effects hit me hard too. My dick wouldn’t work at all, it was impossible to get a boner and I had no sex drive anyway. I gained weight and started developing breast tissue.

A few weeks ago, the extreme suicidal feelings began to subside as the symptoms began to ease up a bit. Before, I was absolutely convinced I had permanent brain damage and wouldn’t heal, but I’m starting to improve. At this point I can tell I’ll heal if I keep waiting.

Anhedonia is starting to get better. I get natural boners everyday now and I laugh and enjoy music everyday. I’m also enjoying videogames again. My attention span is getting better so I’m starting to enjoy TV shows and movies again too. I can also feel the effects of weed, although it doesnt feel as good as it used to yet. I tried adderall the other day and I was able to mildly feel that as well. Still can’t feel alcohol at all which really pisses me off lol. But I imagine at six months I’ll have huge improvements.

Good for you. It's good to hear someone is recovering. Do you think your maybe tricking yourself into believing you are a recovering when maybe your not?
Maybe its wishful thinking but hey if you think recovery is possible then good for you some of us are stuck in a nightmare. First two months were hell?
Yep pretty bad maybe you are tricking yourself into thinking their isnt permanent damage. What do you think

 

[ihateinvega]

Good for you. It's good to hear someone is recovering. Do you think your maybe tricking yourself into believing you are a recovering when maybe your not?
Maybe its wishful thinking but hey if you think recovery is possible then good for you some of us are stuck in a nightmare. First two months were hell?
Yep pretty bad maybe you are tricking yourself into thinking their isnt permanent damage. What do you think

I think it's pretty clear he's not tricking himself when he is listing observable evidences that he is recovering.

 

[Ghostv2314]

Good for you. It's good to hear someone is recovering. Do you think your maybe tricking yourself into believing you are a recovering when maybe your not?
Maybe its wishful thinking but hey if you think recovery is possible then good for you some of us are stuck in a nightmare. First two months were hell?
Yep pretty bad maybe you are tricking yourself into thinking their isnt permanent damage. What do you think

I’m not tricking myself, some symptoms aren’t a matter of opinion. In the beginning it was literally impossible to get a boner or orgasm and now I can do both. So that’s one concrete way I know I’m recovering. Aside from that, I can clearly tell that my mental state is better. I was legitimately thinking of the most painless way to kill myself for a long while. But it’s getting better. Trust me, I was somewhat like you. You see so many stories of people on here who apparently never recover and I was worried that would be me. So I figured I might as well end my suffering. If there was an easy way to kill myself I probably would have done it. But I pushed through. I dont feel perfect yet but I feel better enough to know it gets better.

 

[No. 13 Baby]

Here’s a positive update: I’m starting to feel better.

have you been eating healthy and exercising that whole time? are you schizophrenic or bipolar?

 

[Sbar25]

You may be so damaged that your brain is tricking you into believing in recovery because your instincts are kicking in so you dont feel suicidal. The sad truth is we have been given a deadly, satanic, abtiphyoctic drug. The medical community somehow thought that by starving the brain of dopamine it will help our life. But hey, if you are recovering that's pretty cool cause for some of us it feels like nothing is changing day to day is pretty awful.

 

[Ghostv2314]

have you been eating healthy and exercising that whole time? are you schizophrenic or bipolar?

I’ve always eaten healthy and exercised. Before Invega I was 6,0, 190 lbs. Big muscles and a six pack physique. One thing that depressed me a lot on Invega was what it did to my fitness. Im about 210 now and you can barely see my abs, but I’ve continued to eat healthy. I eat a diet similar to keto. Lots of vegetables and fish mainly. I eat chicken and turkey too. I dont eat any junk food and I don’t eat snacks often. It truly baffles me how I’ve managed to gain so much weight, I can’t imagine how much weight someone would gain with a bad diet.

Invega also made me really weak. I got my prolactin levels checked in the beginning and they were 4x the normal amount for an adult male, so maybe that caused it. Before Invega I could bench 285 pounds. During Invega I was struggling to do 10 pushups. My arms would ache and wobble after like 5. Absolutely ridiculous. However this is getting better. For example I just did 46 pushups to test my strength. Not as strong as I used to be yet though. I’ve also walked about a mile per day for the last 3.5 months.

I’m bipolar and was given Invega because of a manic episode. People with bipolar disorder often think they have special abilities or powers. I remember telling one doctor that I had super strength. To demonstrate, I literally did 14 pushups with one arm in the doctors office. It’s interesting, when you’re manic you actually do feel superhuman lol.

 

[Sbar25]

I actually was superhuman I had stopped porn alcohol tobacco and developed an insane level of organization. I could tackle anything my life was just about ready to conquer life then this happened.

 

[No. 13 Baby]

I’ve always eaten healthy and exercised.

and you're probably in your early 20s right

 

[No. 13 Baby]

I'm 25 my life feels over i csnt even sleep alone I have have to sleep with my dad in his bed I wake up every night at 3 am with horrible thoughts about how I screwed up my life

yeah I was sleeping with my mom recently during my dissociation/anxiety attacks

you'll probably recover since it hasn't been eleven months for you

I on the other hand have to learn how to use the darknet to get 100 phenobarbital tablets...

 

[Hopefuldopeful]

I’m not tricking myself, some symptoms aren’t a matter of opinion. In the beginning it was literally impossible to get a boner or orgasm and now I can do both. So that’s one concrete way I know I’m recovering. Aside from that, I can clearly tell that my mental state is better. I was legitimately thinking of the most painless way to kill myself for a long while. But it’s getting better. Trust me, I was somewhat like you. You see so many stories of people on here who apparently never recover and I was worried that would be me. So I figured I might as well end my suffering. If there was an easy way to kill myself I probably would have done it. But I pushed through. I dont feel perfect yet but I feel better enough to know it gets better.

I went through the exact same process. I’m thinking you’ll heal up pretty good in 6 months. Glad to hear you’re feeling better man. A common thing I notice on forums are people in denial when they hear of someone else recovering. Sbar isn’t the first to do this and I suppose he won’t be the last.

 

[Hopefuldopeful]

yeah I was sleeping with my mom recently during my dissociation/anxiety attacks

you'll probably recover since it hasn't been eleven months for you

I on the other hand have to learn how to use the darknet to get 100 phenobarbital tablets...

Swim has used dark web for acid and even 2CB worked every time!

 

[Hopefuldopeful]

Also Sbar you are not superhuman. Those are psychotic thoughts, you should consider a different process to coming back to reality. You may legitimately be scizoaffective.