So u recovered b4 injection but they give to u anyways... Ridiculous, were u not resisting?
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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v.2
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PhuckInvegga
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I had such a great weekend with my mom and older brother who I never get to see. Spent most of our time laughing and drinking, I didn't even notice the poison. Like this morning I woke up feeling great and didn't care about it at all cuz I was at my bros house. Hope everyone had a good mothers day. Stick with the program. I can smell the scent of a real life in all our near futures! I like to count it by 3 weeks. Only 7 more of those and it will be the end of the sixth half life/ 10 months. It doesn't seem so long if I make 7 little 3 week calenders and throw each one away as I go. Just be patient, make the best of it, and be excited that you WILL recover... When you are released from this prison, you will never forget to appreciate all life has to offer. And while most people like to think they are enlightened, you cant really be more enlightened than us here on this forum will be when we finally recover. I'm pretty sure Decisive is enlightened. Maybe I'm wrong, but that's what I think.
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The most important need of a human being is to feel that they are being needed, that they can have goals, that they reach something. It is a greater need than sex or maybe even love. ITs bothering me that I am not very functional as i used to be in the past. I work but only a few hours a week. I am a preschool teacher and I miss my kids a lot. I had a great weekend with my family, I had time to hang out with the kids of my cousin which was wonderful. ITs the little things that count. And it makes me frustrated to think how happy I could be without this all.
They gave it to a healthy girl who got murder threats. I was such a happy person, I dont know what God wants to teach me now. Why didnt he keep the psychiatrists away from me? I try to let myself inspire by songs, lyrics, faith. I hate to say it but my faith is shaking after all that i have been through. I believe there is a god and I am still close to him but how can he let that happen. That poison nearly kills me but I have times where people, life, kids, the beautiful stuff around me keeps me going. I would be sooooo very happy if this poison could really get out of the system since it has been shot into the muscle. Its a different elimination system than if oyu take it oral. Every oral medication i have taken its side effects have been gone away quickly after a day or maybe two. Life is meant to be funny, a joy as Shakira sings it in Gitana (Gypsy). Why does that had to happen to me? It was a wonderful day yesterday with my family but this med always destroys best feelings and feeling well. And if I see that people recover here it gives me hope but at the same time I ask myself the question why i dont get better after such a long time. If this will be continuing to the day I die then I dont know how to live. I was in such fear yesterday that I couldnt even walk into the garden. I know it sounds weird, I have fear and I know that I dont have to have fear cause nothing bad happens. Its all this fucking medicine. Please God help me get through this.
They gave it to a healthy girl who got murder threats. I was such a happy person, I dont know what God wants to teach me now. Why didnt he keep the psychiatrists away from me? I try to let myself inspire by songs, lyrics, faith. I hate to say it but my faith is shaking after all that i have been through. I believe there is a god and I am still close to him but how can he let that happen. That poison nearly kills me but I have times where people, life, kids, the beautiful stuff around me keeps me going. I would be sooooo very happy if this poison could really get out of the system since it has been shot into the muscle. Its a different elimination system than if oyu take it oral. Every oral medication i have taken its side effects have been gone away quickly after a day or maybe two. Life is meant to be funny, a joy as Shakira sings it in Gitana (Gypsy). Why does that had to happen to me? It was a wonderful day yesterday with my family but this med always destroys best feelings and feeling well. And if I see that people recover here it gives me hope but at the same time I ask myself the question why i dont get better after such a long time. If this will be continuing to the day I die then I dont know how to live. I was in such fear yesterday that I couldnt even walk into the garden. I know it sounds weird, I have fear and I know that I dont have to have fear cause nothing bad happens. Its all this fucking medicine. Please God help me get through this.
Heres a great inspiring Song covered by shakira: Solo le pido a dios
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LXfGrMpPqNk
Translation: I only ask of God
That i am not indifferent to the pain,
That the dry death won’t find me
Empty and alone, without having done the sufficient.
I only ask of God
That i won’t be indifferent to the injustice
That they won’t slap my other cheek,
After a claw (or talon) has scratched this destiny (luck) of mine.
I only ask of God
That i am not indifferent to the battle,
It’s a big monster and it walks hardly on
All the poor innocence of people.
I only ask of God
That i am not indifferent to deceit,
If a traitor can do more than a bunch of people,
Then let not those people forget him easily.
I only ask of God
That i am not indifferent to the future,
Hopeless is he who has to go away
To live a different culture.
I only ask of God
That i am not indifferent to the battle,
It’s a big monster and it walks hardly on
All the poor innocence of people.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LXfGrMpPqNk
Translation: I only ask of God
That i am not indifferent to the pain,
That the dry death won’t find me
Empty and alone, without having done the sufficient.
I only ask of God
That i won’t be indifferent to the injustice
That they won’t slap my other cheek,
After a claw (or talon) has scratched this destiny (luck) of mine.
I only ask of God
That i am not indifferent to the battle,
It’s a big monster and it walks hardly on
All the poor innocence of people.
I only ask of God
That i am not indifferent to deceit,
If a traitor can do more than a bunch of people,
Then let not those people forget him easily.
I only ask of God
That i am not indifferent to the future,
Hopeless is he who has to go away
To live a different culture.
I only ask of God
That i am not indifferent to the battle,
It’s a big monster and it walks hardly on
All the poor innocence of people.
Of course I resisted ! At first, they put me on Abilify pills I didn't want it but they forced me so in front of the nurses I was faking to swallow the pill but I was putting it under my tongue and behind them I was throwing the pill in the garbage !
But unfortunately, one day a nurse discovered it and told everything to the doctors... So they decided to put me on Risperdal drops so that I wouldn't have the choice to swallow the poison in front of them. The dose was weak it was only 4 drops/day, the only side effects were sleepiness and appetite. But as the time goes I was so fed up to be always tired that I refused again to take the "treatment". So the nurses called the doctors who called also my parents to force me to swallow the drops but I refused again. I kept 3 days without taking the drops until it was time to leave the hospital then the doctors threatened me to have an injection or they won't let me leave the hospital and will put me on a forced treatment program.. I was in tears but I didn't have the choice to accept, I missed my home, my friends and my little kitten..
I had to wait 2 months to stop having the injections because my doctor was reluctant, she wanted a 2 years treatment ! ? But I refused, why would I have injections if I'm not even ill ?! I just had a psychiatric accident (brief psychotic disorder) due to an emotional shock, burnout and lack of sleep, I didn't have any diagnosis, that's all.
Since I wasn't on a forced treatment program she let me stop the injections but she told me that I'll have a relapse a month after! Result: 10 months after I recovered, I didn't have a relapse, I really feel good !
Some doctors really thought they were God...
With the injections I was completely emotionless, I had anhedonia and insomnia. My mind was blank, I couldn't even think or talk, I had no interests, no motivation, lying all day on my bed , to put it on a nutshell: I was a vegetable !
Glad to hear u got better, hope I get better eventually. These drugs are such bullshit tho, y they even being used. I have a feeling the drug companies lobby the govt to make these drugs first line o treatment for mental illness. End of the day it's all about money. The ppl that are supposed help us the most are hurting us. Insanity
Aiden21
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[MENTION=391315]Decisive[/MENTION]
Did you ever experience a numbing feeling or vibrations, sleep paralysis? did something happen and you started to feel amazing is my question
Did you ever experience a numbing feeling or vibrations, sleep paralysis? did something happen and you started to feel amazing is my question
Numbing feeling ? Since I was emotionless, yes I felt numb to a deep point, I couldn't even think properly or talk. No vibrations but my fingers sometimes were trembling, it's due to the total blockade of the D2 dopamine receptors.
Concerning the sleep paralysis, I experienced it one time about 1 month after my last injection, I was really afraid ! I couldn't even yell, it was as if my hands, legs and mouth were blocked ! It lasted just 2 minutes.
But I never felt amazing until the 6th half life when I felt a burst of strong emotions and sweet wellness and was fully recovered.
Why those questions ?
hey Gdvffh,
you have said you talk to a guy who got this poison too and he hasnt recoverd in 6 years.(( can you give me his internet link? if not what kind of side effects does he still have???
thank you . tina
Not this specific poison, it was an antidepressant
I have seen people who took high potency typical anti-psychotics such as Clopixol, Haldol and Navane as well as the Atypical Risperidone for longer then Paliperidone has even been on the market here come off them fine as long as they tapered the medications right. I found Risperidone to have a awful withdrawal syndrome when not tapered properly. It pretty much consisted of Mixed states and near psychotic dysphoric mania so yeah not fun. But when i stopped taking it slowly i got off it fine. I was never on more then 4mg's of Risperidone along with say 200mg's of Quetiapine or 10mg's of Olanzapine at my most manic but i was taking Risperidone steadily for a good 2 years.
Basically all i'm saying is i have seen people come off far worse and be okay. I know a person who ended up on about 10mg's of fucking Haldol a day all due to a quack doctor even though she suffered from Unipolar depression not Bipolar. When she actually went to see a shrink who knew something about these meds he tapered her off the ridiculously high dose of Haldol and put her on 300mg's of Quetiapine and she is doing much better then before. Haldol is a much more potent D2 antagonist then Paliperidone and causes TD and EPS at a much higher incidence as well. So if people can come off these awful drugs and be fine surely Invega is not unbeatable. Your only fucked if you resign to being fucked.
Also i have to admit the whole weed psychosis seems rather overblown to me. I have never seen anyone suffer long lasting psychosis from Weed, Hash, Hash oil, Kief or any other form of Cannabis and fucking everyone here smokes weed.
While antibiotics are certainly what is needed for a chest infection why would you think they would have any effect on Paliperidone? The only way antibiotics would have any effect on Paliperidone or any other Anti-Psychotic would be if the antibiotic was interfering with he metabolism of the Anti-Psychotic which would not be a good thing at all.
iridescentblack
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Energy keeps phasing in and out. I get these awesome moments, usually when I'm out walking, where the medications effect loosens and I get some of my essence back. But then I come home and it's like, "Why the fuck am I here? Everyone here hates me."
PhuckInvegga
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So the energy is phasing in and out, that's good iredescent! Sounds like it wont be long before you recover. And its almost been a year for you now. I'm at month five. I wish I could feel hyper. I miss that feeling.
iridescentblack
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Hang tough, Phuck. You'll make it.
I've no idea what to expect. I feel like once I get outta this funk I'll be wandering around, bumping into stuff, looking for food.
I've no idea what to expect. I feel like once I get outta this funk I'll be wandering around, bumping into stuff, looking for food.
PhuckInvegga
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Haha! Just keep working and you'll always have food and shelter! I work at cvs and someday I hope to get a better job. I want to be rich someday so I'm gunna major in business and marketing. Anyone can get rich if you play your money right. Save money and then invest in a business.
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Hey guys I have seen a wonderful quote by Paulo Coelho He is so awesome Please read this
32 LIFE LESSONS
1) There has never been a better time in history to live an extraordinary, unlimited life.
2) Don’t listen to others when it comes to making big decisions. Your inner voice has the answers.
3) How good you look is a reflection of how good you feel inside. The woman who taught me this is the incredible Rupa Mehta, founder of Nalini Method, here in New York!
4) We’re all connected. As Mark Nepo says, “being human is looking so deeply into the other person that you recognize yourself.”
5) Life is better when you’re in it (not on the sidelines, watching).
6) Take your desires seriously. They’re all you’ve got. Deepak Chopra teaches, “Inherent in every desire is the mechanics for its fulfillment.”
7) You don’t have to work in a corporate job. It’s not safe anyway, despite what they tell you. There’s much more fun and money to be had if you can handle a little uncertainty (warning — most people would choose misery over uncertainty, but you don’t have to be one of them). Doing work that you truly love is the best gift you will ever give yourself.
8) Laugh often. People who laugh vs. get offended or get upset over small stuff have way healthier lives.
9) Ask for a raise when you feel it’s due. Always. It adds up to more than you believe.
10) Kindness counts above all else. It does not matter how good looking, educated or interesting someone is. It all means nothing without kindness.
11) Worry less. As happiness researcher Shawn Achor says, “Adversities, no matter what they are, simply don’t hit us as hard as we think they will. Our fear of consequences is always worse than the consequences themselves.”
12) Visualize! Picture your ideal life daily and consistently take small steps towards your vision. Each small step adds up to a life.
13) Always be de-cluttering! Closets, paperwork, unsupportive friends, apps, inboxes. Simplicity is heaven.
14) It’s never about where you start. I come from a small town, a broken home, an alcoholic father and no money. If you hate your situation, I guarantee you that you can change it. Your current circumstances are always temporary (both good and bad).
15) Qualifications mean less than you think. Knowledge is only potential power. Doing/creating/building is what counts (and it’s where you gain the real knowledge).
16) The best way to do it is to do it. Take risks. You’ll be dead soon. As my friend Sean Behr says, “don’t die wondering.”
17) Read like a maniac — biographies especially. All mistakes that can be made and lessons that can be learned have already been experienced by someone else. Reading is like a Cheater’s Guide to navigating your life.
18) The biggest regrets come from pleasing other people. A Buddhist monk said if you meditated for 20 years the final message you would arrive at is, “Be yourself.”
19) Live where you want to live. Despite what you might think — you are NOT stuck! If your dream is to live in London, Paris, San Francisco — go!
20) Love yourself. Especially when you don’t “deserve” it.
21) Forgive others no matter what they did to you. This is like inner-peace on a platter. BUT you don’t have to be friends with people who’ve hurt you.
22) Success isn’t passive. Elizabeth Gilbert nailed it when she said, “Participate relentlessly in the manifestation of your own blessings.”
23) Talk to new people. All opportunities come from the people you meet. It’s humans who make things happen, nothing else.
24) Time cures heartbreak. Nothing else. As Regina Brett says, “Give time time.”
25) It’s OK if people don’t like you. Truly. I love what Paulo Coelho says, “Haters are confused admirers who cannot understand why everyone loves you.”
26) Say no and don’t feel guilty about it. Martha Beck put it best, “When it comes to saying yes or no to something or someone, choose the answer that feels like freedom.”
27) No one is ever ready. Just begin, baby!
28) Focus on your strengths, always. Crafting your strengths will get you much further than improving your weaker areas. Let your strengths shine and don’t apologize for them!
29) Everyone is scared.
30) “No-one knows what they’re doing either.“As Ricky Gervais says. We are all just doing our best as we go along. Let this make you feel free, liberated and tolerant of all others who are just doing their best, too.
31) Love is stronger than death. When we lose our loved ones all that’s lost is their physical form.
32) You are going to be OK
32 LIFE LESSONS
1) There has never been a better time in history to live an extraordinary, unlimited life.
2) Don’t listen to others when it comes to making big decisions. Your inner voice has the answers.
3) How good you look is a reflection of how good you feel inside. The woman who taught me this is the incredible Rupa Mehta, founder of Nalini Method, here in New York!
4) We’re all connected. As Mark Nepo says, “being human is looking so deeply into the other person that you recognize yourself.”
5) Life is better when you’re in it (not on the sidelines, watching).
6) Take your desires seriously. They’re all you’ve got. Deepak Chopra teaches, “Inherent in every desire is the mechanics for its fulfillment.”
7) You don’t have to work in a corporate job. It’s not safe anyway, despite what they tell you. There’s much more fun and money to be had if you can handle a little uncertainty (warning — most people would choose misery over uncertainty, but you don’t have to be one of them). Doing work that you truly love is the best gift you will ever give yourself.
8) Laugh often. People who laugh vs. get offended or get upset over small stuff have way healthier lives.
9) Ask for a raise when you feel it’s due. Always. It adds up to more than you believe.
10) Kindness counts above all else. It does not matter how good looking, educated or interesting someone is. It all means nothing without kindness.
11) Worry less. As happiness researcher Shawn Achor says, “Adversities, no matter what they are, simply don’t hit us as hard as we think they will. Our fear of consequences is always worse than the consequences themselves.”
12) Visualize! Picture your ideal life daily and consistently take small steps towards your vision. Each small step adds up to a life.
13) Always be de-cluttering! Closets, paperwork, unsupportive friends, apps, inboxes. Simplicity is heaven.
14) It’s never about where you start. I come from a small town, a broken home, an alcoholic father and no money. If you hate your situation, I guarantee you that you can change it. Your current circumstances are always temporary (both good and bad).
15) Qualifications mean less than you think. Knowledge is only potential power. Doing/creating/building is what counts (and it’s where you gain the real knowledge).
16) The best way to do it is to do it. Take risks. You’ll be dead soon. As my friend Sean Behr says, “don’t die wondering.”
17) Read like a maniac — biographies especially. All mistakes that can be made and lessons that can be learned have already been experienced by someone else. Reading is like a Cheater’s Guide to navigating your life.
18) The biggest regrets come from pleasing other people. A Buddhist monk said if you meditated for 20 years the final message you would arrive at is, “Be yourself.”
19) Live where you want to live. Despite what you might think — you are NOT stuck! If your dream is to live in London, Paris, San Francisco — go!
20) Love yourself. Especially when you don’t “deserve” it.
21) Forgive others no matter what they did to you. This is like inner-peace on a platter. BUT you don’t have to be friends with people who’ve hurt you.
22) Success isn’t passive. Elizabeth Gilbert nailed it when she said, “Participate relentlessly in the manifestation of your own blessings.”
23) Talk to new people. All opportunities come from the people you meet. It’s humans who make things happen, nothing else.
24) Time cures heartbreak. Nothing else. As Regina Brett says, “Give time time.”
25) It’s OK if people don’t like you. Truly. I love what Paulo Coelho says, “Haters are confused admirers who cannot understand why everyone loves you.”
26) Say no and don’t feel guilty about it. Martha Beck put it best, “When it comes to saying yes or no to something or someone, choose the answer that feels like freedom.”
27) No one is ever ready. Just begin, baby!
28) Focus on your strengths, always. Crafting your strengths will get you much further than improving your weaker areas. Let your strengths shine and don’t apologize for them!
29) Everyone is scared.
30) “No-one knows what they’re doing either.“As Ricky Gervais says. We are all just doing our best as we go along. Let this make you feel free, liberated and tolerant of all others who are just doing their best, too.
31) Love is stronger than death. When we lose our loved ones all that’s lost is their physical form.
32) You are going to be OK
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