Hi koz why were u on risperidone for 2-3 weeks? Why not longer/shorter? Also why on ability after? Were. Complaining about side effects or something? What is the time gap between u bein on these drugs? Why were u on Invega systems? I was on risperidone oral for 5 weeks b4 I decided to quit and it gave me permanent effects unfortunately.
Well the risperidone I stopped taking because I didn't think I needed it. The risperidone never actually brought me out my psychosis. The Abilify was switched back to risperidone after two weeks because my PCP who I've seen for like a decade knew the drug was seriously fucking me up. I was a drooling zombie who could barely hold my head up. It was rough. But within a couple days of switching meds I had another manic episode and that led to the hospitalization where I got the Invega shot.
Let me me break it down like this. I had three separate hospitalizations between August 15th and October 2nd of 2015. The first hospitalization was when the docs put me on risperidone and it didn't work. But they let me out of the hospital because they thought I was okay since in my manic states I'm usually very nice and friendly towards people. Nobody could seem to tell I was still delusional. But when I got out of the hospital I started having visual hallucinations, which led to another hospitalization where they put me on Abilify. After two weeks in the hospital they let me out. I met with my PCP a week later and she could tell there was something seriously wrong with me due to the Abilify, so she decided to override my pdoc's orders and switched me back to risperidone. Within a few days of the switch I became manic once again and then got hospitalized and received a mega dose of poison from the Devils syringe.
I hope that clears things up a bit.
And btw, my post about leaving the forum had nothing to do with you. It had to do with a certain someone talking about mass murdering people. Not trying to get caught in a negative feedback loop when I'm still battling suicidal thoughts on a daily basis. I think it's good that you're doing your own research to try and figure out a solution to all of our problems caused by Invega. Or at least find an explanation for it.
I've been doing some research myself. My depression has been so severe, for so long, that I actually decided to conduct some research with steroids on SWIM. SWIM also got the Invega shot, same dose as me, and went from being very happy and physically fit to chubby and depressed. I wanted to see if the steroids could improve his physical health and maybe even his mental health. So, for the last three weeks SWIM has been supplementing dianabol and testosterone. Surprisingly, SWIM appears to be experiencing a lot of euphoria and motivation from the use of dianabol and testosterone these last 3 weeks. His mood has also improved dramatically, along with his physical condition.
He went from a chubby 195lb, somewhat physically unhealthy individual, to a 204lb, pretty ripped guy with a decent core instead of a gut. SWIM worked out naturally for a month before beginning this research experiment as well. So his physical transformation did not occur in just 3 weeks. It happened over the course of 7 weeks.
But SWIM remains depressed because he knows that 1) He shouldn't be using steroids...and 2) You can't stay on them forever, so all the happiness and euphoria he is experiencing from the dianabol and testosterone supplementation will eventually fade.
SWIM has very mixed feelings about the use of anabolic steroids. He competed in martial arts for 6 years, completely natural, prior to this research experiment. But Invega stopped him from being able to compete in martial arts for a long time and the depression/suicidal ideations became too overwhelming....and at least while SWIM is on the juice, he doesn't seem nearly as suicidal as he was before. He says he'd do nearly anything to get rid of the suicidal ideations brought on by the Invega. And steroids was one of them.
And if SWIM becomes suicidal again when he comes off the juice....well then at least he'll Be in much better physical shape, even if his mental health isn't great. He told me that even though he knows what he is doing is wrong, it's still nice to know that there is something out there that is capable of making him feel like a happy and motivated human being again. Even if it's only for a short while...