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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v.2

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Somehow I managed to go for a run today. I didn't feel much of a difference. I was so extremely weak while running and my hips started to hurt afterwards. I feel like a broken 90 year old man with Alzheimers.. I hope this gets better soon
 
haha. that bugged the crap out of me. the soft tissues and bones stop feeling like 90 year old man when your healed, like you just got an oil job. do the dairy thing, it helps with the bones as invega/xeplion is known to deplete some calcium from them. most pills (not just psych meds) and cigarettes do that.
 
Checking back to say I'm doing better than last time. Vraylar is getting out of my system and the current pill I'm taking doesn't quite have the same numbing effects as that one. I'm able to sense things with more clarity. I'm able to access my spirit guide more deeply and more fully. I'm changing within and have had glimpses of how the change might manifest. It's pretty cool. Still dealing with a bit of anxiety which is mostly manageable. The big problem I deal with daily is from atrophy of AP's.

Haven't had an Invega wave in months, as far as I can tell. Next step is to get back to training- going to the gym, running, martial arts.
 
I know sooner or later it's going to be goodbye from me on this forum. I think I'm healing quickly, I preformed well in an interview, my clarity is coming back, I am starting to feel more confident, and I think it's time for me to move on and look for the positivity in my life. I know this site has given me hope, but there is also a lot of suffering, and we are suffering together which made me really grow fond of everyone. I don't want to say goodbye, but I think it's time for me to move on in my life and really put effort into moving on. Again I don't want to leave, but I think it's for the best.

I'll miss you guys really badly because you all helped give me hope when my life was at it's darkest, but I don't think it'll be something I want to keep reliving every day of my life. I think it's time to move on soon, not saying I'm leaving yet but I know the time is coming. It won't be the same without you guys, reading your stories and being a part of the community of victims here. I was really depressed for a long time too, but I started to take Welbutrin and I began to feel better. I had a doctor that wanted me on Vraylar too, but I decided I don't need an AP to rule my life.
 
@Offvega Congratulations on your job! It's sad to hear that you're leaving us! I really like you as a person and I will pray to God that you will have a good life and all the best this world has to offer. I'm happy you found a way to move on. I'm sure you know that I'm not the biggest fan of taking other drugs during this "journey" but I'm glad it helps you. If you notice any problems with it in the future, then just contact me or try to get support. I hope you will heal and get better and better.
 
@Offvega Congratulations on your interview, and thank you for explaining your thought process about leaving. It helps to feel more like I understand why people disappear off of here. It's great to hear you're doing that much better. You seem like you have a good head on your shoulders. I wish you the best, and I hope that you'll emerge stronger than ever, more thoroughly aware of your values and how precious life is, and how important it is to care for yourself. I'm glad we got to cross paths for a moment, and I hope you can find a mindset that helps you to be fulfilled.
 
Does anyone else feel like they had something like a near-death experience? Because I almost feel like I know what it's like to be mostly dead. That first month passed by a lot more quickly because it was all a blur. I don't even know what I did that whole month.The second month dragged on forever and left me depressed because the reality of things was starting to set in. Btw I love seeing everyone's posts even if I'm not that good at responding to them. For some reason hearing what everyone's been up to is the most interesting news to me. I just feel so left out of humanity right now. It's kind of difficult for people to understand what we're going through. My aunt came pretty close to understanding by saying that it is difficult to imagine.
 
@Yeshuah Thank you. Healing continues to go smoothly. Seeing noticeable difference almost hour by hour. You too. I hope you heal through this as well.

@Offvega Always good to hear. Reading that post made me feel good, happy for you, and hopeful to read other stories like it if I continue to remain here myself.
 
Holy Shit when I?m caffeinated I feel amazing, but then it wears off and I?m back to Invega brain, it feels like my mind is coated in cough syrup. I HATE IT. I?m at 7.5 months
 
Thanks everyone I'm not going just yet, but if I get the job I will probably be on here much less to the point I won't be here so I just wanted to put it out there incase I disappeared cause you guys are my support group it's hard to let go of something like that

@invegaisnotgood yeah thats why I drink energy drinks and coffee makes me feel alive!
 
@Emersonny thanks I don't think I'll go just yet but it's out their incase I do stop coming on. I feel like I had a near death experience. For the first few months I slept my life away because I was on invega and zyprexa. I didn't know that I didn't need to be on AP's I thought I was permanently ill so I kept taking the meds and I worked slowly on getting myself off of them but I wish I knew when the right time was to stop taking invega because I waited a long time, 8 months of shots and I wouldn't of stopped if I didn't find this group, and read the comments about all the suffering. It's sad. I like hearing everyone's stories too, what have you been up to?
 
@Offvega Yeah, during the first month, I slept like 12 hours a night, and I was still psychotic. Difficulties studying were a deal breaker for me, but I can see why someone might go along with invega sustenna treatment since it makes you mostly emotionless. I was psychotic until about 6 weeks after the shot. That all seems like forever ago. It feels like now I am no longer able to recycle my pre-invega thoughts as well, so I have a little less personality. I feel like it's so difficult to gauge my progress because for like the first month I was trying so hard to pretend like things were normal, so I can't really tell how I was feeling from the stuff that I wrote. I think back to a month ago, and it's like it was a year ago. I can barely remember it. Maybe that's why people are able to move on from this. It's just so difficult to remember stuff that happens. I can't tell if my emotions are returning, or if I've just forgotten what it's like to have a full palette of emotions. Today I went for a walk to the starbucks that's further away from my house, and I've been doing very simple math problems most of the day.
 
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